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[jaxx]

at this time, to tell you the truth; i need all the guidance i can get. thank you for listening and taking the time to respond. i must say though... no one talks about how bad it is / was for them. its all words of encouragement. what about the ugly face of it all. lets talk about that; about what happend to you, why your date picked you.

as ive said before, im a drinker of 15 years (beer). my nose is red. i have spider veins on my cheeks and nose. sometimes my stomach hurts. i know it is my pancreas. im just beginning the scare; the part of my life i cant take back and the will to live.

i want to hear the bad stories of drinking. THE REAL STORIES. tell me what it has done to you. why did you stop drinking? what was your breaking point? did your nose turn all bulbose? did your legs swell? how long was too long? scare me, please.
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[Tulipe]

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Jaxx,
Try watching Rain in my Heart, in General discussion, I think. That will put a scare into you. And just keep reading, posting, thinking. Stick around here for awhile. A lot of us find it makes a difference.
Are you still planning on waiting until Jan. 3? That does seem a long time away. At least if you could detox and get a few AF weeks under your belt you might feel better.
Tulipe.

[jaxx]

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the holidays are coming the holidays are coming

[JackieClaire]

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Ok Jaxx,

How tough do you want it?

The lady lawyer who blacked out, forgot to put the heating on and froze to death.

The doctor who was over the limit killed herself and child in a car crash.

The man whose liver exploded and he choked on his own blood.

These people were known to me personally.

Now do you see why I don't want to go there?

Also read the thread that Tulipe pointed out.

[brightlite]

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Jaxx,

Look at all those links and one of my personal all time favorite below. There's some pretty bad stuff on that link. Stay calm...just because its the Holidays does not mean you have to over-drink or drink at all.

Here it is:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...hen-23467.html

[Tulipe]

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That's a god one, Bright - makes me laugh and cry.

[mario]

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jaax you could read the
Tell us your story thread, There is not many if any fairytale endings in there, goodluck

[redhibiscus]

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Jaxx, I drank steadily for over thirty years.....I spent alot of my life feeling like crap: anxious, panic attacks, achy, shakey, red eyes, skin problems, bloatedness, digestive issues, weight gain, extreme pain on my right side (liver or pancreas issues?) always feeling tired, irritable, crabby, isolating, hives after a drinking binge, swelling in my feet. And that his only part of it. Shame, guilt, fear. Being a horrible example to my kids, letting my husband down, scaring my Dad during a phone call (he though I was having a stroke, I was drunk), lying, wasting money. Whew, it was ugly. I am one of the lucky ones never having been arrested, hospitalized, fired or divorced. Is this scary enough? I have scared myself, thanks for letting me tell you the great alcohol experience I have had.

The holidays are a tough time, but it would be nice to have good memories, even remembering at all, so give it a chance.

[drylifeahead]

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mario;764077 wrote: jaax you could read the
Tell us your story thread, There is not many if any fairytale endings in there, goodluck

I did a search for the thread..couldn't find it. Could you please post a link. Reading others horror stories remind me of my own as the similarities are striking, and remind me why I'm here in the first place...and don't ever want to be 'there' again.

I also love love love the success stories, and the hope they bring.
DLA:l

[JackieClaire]

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Hi DHA,

If you click on 'My Community' under 'of special interest' it's got 'Tell us your Story'.

There's at least a days worth of reading there.

J x

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[drylifeahead]

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Thank you so much Jackieclaire.

That's ok, just made another fresh pot of steaming coffee, have my comfy chair, so will settle in and start reading...

DLA

*Found it, had already read through...I thought it was one long thread Mario was talking about. Sorry*

[PhoenixRising]

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Jaxx - the scariest thing for me is that there are whole chunks of my life that I cannot remember - they are forever lost to me.

Have you considered taking Baclofen? You can buy it online and it will take away the cravings. I have just started on it this month and am already doing better. I have been drinking for 35 years.

[Tulipe]

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Dry, I love your quote.
Phoenix - whole chunks being lost - especially with kids - now THAT scares me.
I feel guilty today... but I must go on.

[hadit]

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Jaxx, I have been struggling with al for 35 yrs. I am a W/E binge drinker,still working,happily married, grand kids the lot The thing I really really hate about al is I will sometimes say or act in a very nasty way to my wife of 40yrs after a heavy drinking session. She is the love of my life and very caring towards me.She deserves better. I am so tired of not remembering the next morning what I have said or done.(still drinking) The guilt kills me HOWEVER, on the brighter side today I FINALLY have sought medical help and attended some hefty counselling sessions. My GP happens to be a drug and al specialist, I have started on medication and am hoping I can finally kick this disease to death. Good Luck with your en devours.there are some really wonderful:welcome: people on this site
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