December Determination ~ AF

[redhibiscus]

December Determination ~ AF

Hey everyone, just reading and catching up with everyone's news. I am feeling sick today and am taking it easy. I was supposed to do something fun but had to cancel. Will try and check in later.

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF

Hi Red, sorry you're not feeling well. Get rested and get better!

LBH ("C.C."), I made the soup for lunch and it was yummy! Mr. Dill liked it very much, too. It was different from our usual fare...a very nice diversion. I loved your description of our "march out of perdition".

Yes, Kimberly, you are definitely the baby here! Although you are close in age to Chops and SD.

Tylyr, I have no great strategies, but sometimes I think it is fun to just do something you don't ordinarily do such as go to a store you have often wondered about, but never entered, or go to a local park that you have never been to. It's kind of nice.

Kim, that sounds like a perfect way to spend Christmas. Giving of yourself and your time to your fellow man (woman) is one of the best gifts you can give.

[sdlovespackers]

December Determination ~ AF

Hello ALL!
Just caught up on everyones busy schedules and lives!! I won't have time to address everyone...I have to get movin...my son has a mini basketball camp in about 25 minutes...I'm going to sneak off for about 2 hours and get some xmas shopping done while he's there...kinda hard to shop for the kid when he's ALWAYS around

Just wanted to share what happened last night...pretty crazy really!! My sister called my at about 1:30 am...both her and her hubby (who he's an alcoholic) both had gotten wasted and gotten into a fight (not physical) but none-the-less...it got ugly in front of a bunch of his friends and he ended up kicking them all out including my sister and she ended up coming over here and we stayed up til about 3 talking. I KNOW had I been drinking there is no way I could have "been there" for her or been in the the frame of mind to help her through it....it's been almost 30 days AF and it's amazing how D-fuzzy your thinking becomes once the poison is gone! I was laying in bed thinking...here is another reason for me to stay sober...she is going to need someone to get her through this rocky marriage! In time, I will fully know and believe it's best for myself and I deserve it 100% as well...but for now if it's to help someone else (my son, or my sister)...and it keeps me going AF...then hey...I'll take it!!! Ok---gotta run!! I'll check back in later!!!
Way to go Determinators!!!!!!!
SD:l

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ AF

Good evening Determinators,

I DID start my decorating......yay for me
Also squeezed in a trip to Toys R Us to buy a gift for my grandson. Now I remember why I was so happy when my kids outgrew toy stores - what a crazy place, filled with crazed shoppers - all of us with a 25% off coupon in our hands..........it's done now!!!!!

Our rain did indeed turn to snow - it's quite pretty outside, the first snowfall of the season

Sheri, I'm reading up on alkaline diets - one of the changes I need to make on the bone improvement program..........this should be interesting, to say the least.

SD - hitting 30 days, very good for you! I'm smiling at the D-fuzzy thinking reference......it sure is true

Red, feel better soon!

Tylyr, learning the art of distraction is essential. Whenever a drinking thought enters your head just distract yourself for 5 minutes or so & the thought leaves - you win!!

I hope everyone is having a peaceful evening.........we all deserve it

[cuckoosnest83]

December Determination ~ AF

Good morning, all. Another night with out alcohol but feeling groggy from lack of sleep. I bought melatonin yesterday but didn't do much to help. Oh well, I guess it is better to wake up with red eyes, feeling groggy, and not quite with it due to not drinking than it is to wake up that way due to drinking.

It is 6:20 am here and I'm heading out to the grocery store then home to finish decorating. Prefer shopping when store is less crowded.

Hope everyone has a good day.

[cuckoosnest83]

December Determination ~ AF

Sheri, thank you so much for your post. I'm so tired I feel as if I have been drinking and my mind is trying to rationalize: Well if you feel this crappy not drinking then you may as well drink. I know this isn't the solution so knowing with time it does get better helps although I must admit 3 months seems like a long time to go without sleep. I can't begin to imagine what I will look like after 3 months of sleepless nights. :H

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF

Greetings Determined Ones!

SD, The event with your sister sounds very upsetting. It is good that you were sober and level-headed and "present" for her.

amazing how D-fuzzy your thinking becomes once the poison is gone!

I have been noticing this too. My perceptions about drinking seem to be changing as my thinking seems to be changing. I am looking more clearly at my past drinking habits and past behaviors and am having a feeling of revulsion as I see more clearly.

Sheri, thanks for the link to the Alkalising Superstar site. I have never heard of this alkaline water, alkaline diet, etc., until you all started talking about it in this thread. Very interesting.

Lav, I am curious about your water. You live in the country, as do I. We drink well water. We sit on mostly limestone around here which provides alkalinity. Have you ever had your water analized? I went to the alkaline diet website and saw a list of foods that are alkaline. Cucumber was on the list. Have you ever put a slice of cucumber in your water? It's very refreshing.

Cucks, I'm sorry you are having trouble with your sleep patterns. It will take some time to adjust, but the sleep I have now is genuine and rejuvinating. It didn't take me much more than a week or two to get back to a somewhat more normal sleep. I think you might try adding valerian and l-tryptophan to your melatonin. It works well for me. I also sometimes take a half dose of diphenhydramine. It is the ingredient in allergy meds that makes you sleepy. Problem is, it can act a bit like alc, in that it helps you get drowsy and go to sleep, but it may cause wakefulness in the middle of the night.

[cuckoosnest83]

December Determination ~ AF

Thank you, Dill. Tonight I am going to get on-line to do some shopping and I will look into alteril which is suppose to combine melatonin, valerian, and l-tryptophan. I have valerian and melatonin but can't find l-tryptophan in the vitamin shop. I bought it before but I think they took it off the market here in the US.

It really is nice to have people to rely on when I am feeling like this. Thanks all.

After I posted this, I went on-line and found l-tryptophan. I don't know why I can't find it in stores. Anyway, like I said I have the valerian and melatonin so we'll see what happens when I get the l-tryptophan.

Again, thanks.

[Kimberley]

December Determination ~ AF

Cuckoo I'm sorry you're not sleeping- I had that too after getting off the al. Trazodone/Molipaxin knocked me out in the past. These days I can have chatter in my head but it's easier to ignore and just go to sleep.

Wish you well with it X

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ AF

Good morning Sheri, Cucks & Dill,

The sun is out melting all the pretty snow we received yesterday!

Thanks for the link Sheri. Apparently cinnamon & ginger are good to add to your diet as well. I drink a lot of decaf green tea so I've been stirring ginger in - it's pretty good

Dill, I actually got the Dx of osteoporosis 5 years ago.........this latest Dexa Scan showed that it's gotten much worse, I'm at the highest risk now for spinal fractures now & moderate risk for a right hip fracture. God, the nursing homes are filled with little old ladies post hip fractures - I don't want to join them!!!! I lived all my life using city water. Moved here 6 years ago, switched to well water. We had to have the water tested when it was drilled, it passed all the tests for bacteria, etc. I guess it wouldn't hurt to have a sample analyzed for mineral content. I just may look into that. I think my biggest problem is genetics. My Mom had very severe osteoporosis, suffered terribly painful spinal fractures. That motivated me to get serious about taking calcium supplements but they apparently haven't helped. This is very frustrating, to say the least!!!!

Cucks, sorry about the sleep problem, I do understand. I suddenly acquired insomnia at the age of 42 when my first perimenopausal night sweat occured - and that was BEFORE I started drinking. I won't try sleeping pills but have tried just about everything else. Just keep trying, something will work for you, at some point. I'm still not an excellent sleeper but much better these days. It really does take a bit of time for your body to adjust. Chamomile tea at bedtime is helpful too

Wishing everyone a terrific Sunday, enjoy!
Lav

[sooty]

December Determination ~ AF

Good afternoon friends, I spent most of this morning shouting at the internet people - no connection at all yesterday in case you thought I'd gone AWOL.
Anyway it seems to be back now - but I'm losing faith in it by the minute, so frustrating.
Its amazing how hard it is to be without the internet - which considering I didn't have it until a few years ago just goes to show something ....
So in summary I'm ok and its lovely to have a quick glance at the posts and see that we're all doing fine.
Hopefully I'll be back later but if not I'll be back as soon as I can!!!
Take care and have a good sunday folks
Sooty

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF

Cuckoo, I take alteril! I also have taken the supps individually, but the alteril is convenient and it works. I should have mentioned it earlier. I have found at at our local GNC.

[cuckoosnest83]

December Determination ~ AF

Dill, Kim, Lav, and Sheri, thanks so much for your suggestions. I'm already feeling much better as I went and did a few things outside. The cold, brisk air helped clear my head and wake me up a bit. Dill, there is a GNC not far from me so after I finish decorating, I'm hopping in my car and heading there. I don't want to wake up tomorrow feeling the way I did today because I don't need the temptation to "cure" it with a drink.

Sooty, sorry you are having such trouble with the internet. It is very frustrating.

Lav, it's a shame your "pre-white Christmas" is already melting. We had some snow here to but nothing that amounted to anything.

[mighty mouse]

December Determination ~ AF

Hello to all, I havn't had alot of time to post lately but have been reviewing many of the posts I missed. Everyone seems to be doing well. Are we going to start a new week for DDs like they did in november?

[sdlovespackers]

December Determination ~ AF

WOW!
It's 10AM here and already lots of Sunday action here...we got some early birds on our hands!!! I'm only up cuz my dog was whining to go out and my son came in barking orders at me for breakfast...pancakes, eggs and toast....I said this aint IHOP sweetie...how about you take my order and go back to bed?!:H So he's happy with his cereal and toast!! Me, I grabbed a banana and an oreo cookie and took the dog out!!

Cuck-I hear you about the sleeping...I'm really hit and miss with how well I sleep...last night, not too bad, but some nights geesh, I doubt I get a good 2-3 hours!! I think mine (after not having the al is over) is mostly stress related or when my son gets scared and jumps into bed with me...that foot in the ribs makes it hard to get a good night rest!

Sooty--It was good to hear from you, even if it was only briefly...do they know what is going on with your internet or why it keeps shutting down??

Lav-sorry I have no medical advice what-so-ever...although I must say you sound like a very healthy person to me....I looked up those anxiety supps you take...I'm going to share them with my Dr. tomorrow (if I remember) and see what he thinks...I'd rather do something more natural than what I'm taking now...so thanks for that!!

Sheri and Km--Nice to see you here this morning...hope you both have a wonderful Sunday!!!

Dill--As I get closer to that 30 days, much like last time I reached that 30 day mark I start the questioning period of what to do next....what I mean is...I have a Christmas party on Friday...no son there....grrrr.....just don't want to ruin this good feeling or give my self 'permission' to screw up...you know what I mean? This is so hard!!! The best thing I'm doing is keeping AL out of my house and away from my son!! That I will continue to do!!!

To everyone that follows....HAPPY SUNDAY!!!! I have my son's Christmas Program at 2:00~~~so that will be adorable!!! I'll check back in later!!
SD