December Determination ~ AF

[Ijustrealised]

December Determination ~ AF

Gawsh yesh I forgot about xmas. Last year I was at my mother's with the family, the wife and child were there too. My wife doesn't drink but let me drink a few on that day. Once I started with my brother... I didn't stop. When it was time to go home to put the child to bed, he was only 1, I refused, I wanted to stay and have more drink.
She ended up going home on her own with the child, I didn't go home that night, stayed up till 7am with the brothers sister. (Just talking)
Went home the following day and was wondering why my wife was so angry with me, I thought it was normal what I did.. drinking xmas day was the norm, sleeping away because it I was too drunk to call a cab was the norm so I was right and she was wrong.
What a complete selfish arrogant pig I was.

[sooty]

December Determination ~ AF

Hi determineds - hope you're all having a very successful Tuesday whatever the time is with you! Its 2 p.m. here and its just stopped raining. I've been brushing and hoovering the dog today, he is covered in mud poor thing so I've given him an underneath trim - fortunately he doesn't mind the atttention or the indignity - he is a wonderful creature!
Cold weather is forecast for the end of the week here Lav - but I don't suppose we'll be as cold as you!
Lil I love that quote about broken patterns - thanks.
Hi to Ijust, Red, Dill, cuckoo and MM - hope I didn't miss anyone.
I'll be back later - have a good one folks
love sooty

[mighty mouse]

December Determination ~ AF

Good Morning All, Its nice to wake up to another AF morning. These mornings are one of the best reasons to want more AF days. It's a bit gloomy in michigan. we are expecting our first snowfall. I'm sure my youngest daughter will hit the sleddiing hill the minute schools out if we do get a few inches. Good clean fun!

Red, Again I like what you said. I never really thought of AL as all about me but I can see your point in that. I will reflect on this today.:thanks:

Lav, thanks for the well wishes and the websites. I will explore them latter. I love to read and research. I only wish this was a form of exercise. I would be in great shape!!:H

Lil, Great quote. Hope your drive is a smooth one. I'm sure you are greatly appreciated at meals on wheels.

IJR, Thank God you are realizing, the lights are turning on and you are starting to see Don't beat yourself up to bad about it,love yourself, try and stay positive, but start to learn and educate yourself. You're on the right path now. It may be a tough path for a while but the beauty you'll find along the way will slowly start to show you how much better it can be. I'm very happy for you. Try to stay strong and determined! MWO is here to help.

Dill, thanks for the answer and hope you have a great day.

sending af wishes to everyone and all else who sign on today..check in again tonight. MM

[mighty mouse]

December Determination ~ AF

Hello Sooty, we must have been posting at the same time. our hours are quite different. try to catch you latter today. wishing you a great rest of your day. MM

[PhoenixRising]

December Determination ~ AF

Hi everyone - looks like y'all are doing ok, that is good!

I am at 10 drinks for the week (not a good start) but I feel that Tues, Weds and Thu will be fairly easy to be AF, Friday will be hard as I usually have a bottle of wine on Friday nights, sometimes more. BUT! A friend of mine has invited me to an event at a local bookstore and though I don't usually like to go out after work I think I may as it will be a good way to break the cycle. I am not likely to stop on the way home (at 8:00) because I usually don't start that late (I am in bed by 9:00 - early riser here). So... hoping that will break the cycle. If I could keep it at 10 for the week that would be the lowest amount in 4 years. (I keep track of it on a spreadsheet, how OCD is THAT?? LOL!!)

:h to you all!

-P.

[sdlovespackers]

December Determination ~ AF

Good Morning Everyone!!

As I type this I'm chipping the ice off keyboard with my purple fingers....seriously, as i've gotten older when my fingers/hands get cold my fingernails turn a nice shade of blue/purple! Lovely! We had to keep the kids indoors today due to oue beautiful NEGATIVE 16 BELOW WIND CHILL here today!!!! Someone needs to remind me why I live here??? I think I convinced myself last year it was because the crime rate was at like zero percent because who the hell is going to go out in the this weather to commit a crime!??!

Anywho...everyone sounds good this morning....busy, but good!! I have to say Red, what you posted this morning really hit home with me. If I knew how to do that quote box thing I would show you exactly what it was:H but I could realte 100%!!! I need to remember my focus and what al does to my focus...I become focused on the buzz...not the people I love!!!

I wish I could say I did something to donate with my time...it's such a self-less act...I admire those of you who do!! That's awesome!! Being the lowest paid state in the US in education, can't what I do each day sorta be considered charity?? :H :H

Speaking of working...perhaps I should get to it, huh??! Had a great meeting with my counselor last night...really trying to get this Friday night party thing figured out...I think I may just skip it...I don't want to risk tripping up now??? We'll see....Have a great Tuesday!!! ((((BRRRRR)))))
SD:snowflake:

[ladybirdheart]

December Determination ~ AF

Hello ladies and gentlemen on the alcohol free path! I have my eyes propped open with sticks after typing much of the morning and a largely sleepless night as sixty-plus mile an hour gusts ripped a hose loose from my roof line and slammed it around. As it turned out I was glad to be up as I watched my first brief ?thunder snow? storm; big lightening and thunder which we never have in December along with snow. Beautiful and rare. But not as rare as I am these days. If I had looked out the window and seen instead a blistering view of the African savannah, it would not have been more astonishing than a sober me.

Dill, I have only gotten Lord Bird Heart out of his little Smart Car once, he adores it. This morning I wanted him to take my four wheel drive truck on the bad roads but ?no, thank you?, he is stubborn and the tiny car again proved brave and worthy. Last week I learned that it ?held firm at seventy-five up the hills? and last night its heated seat (yes like your car!) kept my emergency relief pizza toasty.

Phoenix, for me it was much more stressful day after day to taper down drinking than to stop all together. I don?t know if there would have one day been a better time or way to do it, I just had to get it over with as soon as possible. For me it is just easier to have the decision off the table. We are in your corner.

Sooty, I too think of you everyday whether our paths cross directly or not. You are leading our way from over there you trusty little scout! Lovely thoughtful post, Red. Thanks for the quote Lil and the associated mindfulness reminder, Lav. All of this helps so much. Hi all, be back later. Don't let your dear cold fingers snap off, SD. :l Love, Ladybird.

[sooty]

December Determination ~ AF

Hello all, nearly bedtime this end - LBH I'm very proud to be the scout, sleighdriver, whatever - its a joy to be with such lovely folk.
We'll talk with Santa tomorrow as its humpday but then we're going for some sun before Christmas cos lots of us need thawing/drying out (from rain not the other :H)
A couple of days in the Seychelles should do us all good!
Have a good rest of Tuesday see you all tomorrow
love Sooty

[choppersmom]

December Determination ~ AF

Good Afternoon Everyone! :welcome: to Ijustrealised...pleased to meet you! It looks as if everyone is doing well and trying to stay warm! After reading these posts, I am going to quit complaining about our 17 degree weather. We don't have snow or ice, just sunshine and cold! So for all of you in the snow, ice, and sub-zero temps...please be careful and stay warm :l

Lav, I agree about the teenage girls moving out...thankfully she is not mine!

Dill, the disrespectful teenage girl is my boyfriend's 17-year old daughter. It really upsets me the way she treats her dad. My son and grandson are doing fabulous...thanks for asking! The grandson will be two at the beginning of January.

Lil, loved both of your quotes. Thank you for sharing. You are so kind to be delivering meals. I need to start in with some volunteer work.

LBH, your thunder snowstorm sounds amazing. I wish I could have witnessed that. Glad you are enjoying the car! As always, it is a true joy to read your posts.

SD, are your fingers still purple??? :H Put some gloves on girl!!! Stay warm!

Hello to Sooty, Asp, Red, Phoenix, MM, Sheri, Finding, Cuckoo, and all others. I hope you all are doing well.

Will catch up with you all later. Back to work for me!! Take care :l

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF

Quote:
When patterns are broken, new worlds emerge."
? Tuli Kupferberg

This quote was in my Daily Inspirational quotes. We talk so much on here about the need to change our habits and thinking in order to remain af. For me, the rewards of all that hard work has been a new freedom that I never had when I was drinking.

Lil, thank you for that "light at the end of the tunnel".

:welcome:Ijustrealised


LBH: Heated seats! That's the 'bees knees'!

Soots, What is "Seychelles"?

SD, I am picturing your purple fingers on icey keyboard and it is not a pretty picture. This is looking like it may be a hard winter, friends. It is not even officially winter yet and and OMG! We will have an 'icy mix' tonight and 50mph winds tomorrow.

Lav, I'm driving carefully!:racer:

Mighty, Phoenix and all who stop by;

Peace and strength.

[sdlovespackers]

December Determination ~ AF

Hey!
Just so you all know I'm not just a big whiny baby....the janitor figured out that my heater doesn't work in my office and it actually is blowing COLD air in! (I got a new office this year...sux)! I dunno WHY no one picked up on that when they were talking to me and they could SEE THEIR BREATH!!!!!! Anyway...I'm at home in my nice warm snuggly sweats listening to the men bring in my impulse buy (new washer and dryer) from last night....so off to find some dirty laundry....bye, bye old 1990's stuff....hello cool one with all kinds of lights and buttons and cool stuff on it :thumbs: Yep...I'm THAT dorky!! AND BIGGEST LOSER GRAND FINALLY!!! I'll wake up in the morning and remember who won!!! YIPPEE!!!:H
Tah-tah!
SD:l

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ AF

I must be getting old - a new washer & dryer just don't give me much of a thrill these days SD :H

I took a little time this afternoon to visit the local pottery. Picked up a couple of nice gifts there I love the work they do, have many of their pieces around the house!

Well, the bad weather is moving in soon, flooding rains predicted for tomorrow - wonderful!! Looks like this storm is affecting most of the country.....it's a big one!

Well, I wish everyone a warm, dry, comfy evening.!
See you all tomorrow

[redhibiscus]

December Determination ~ AF

Brrrrr....it is so cold here and snowing too!! Don't get mad, but I love it. Right before Christmas this is the perfect weather. I don't have to drive far to work, so it is not a big issue with me. It looked so Christmassy on the way home and I listened to Christmas music, I had my own private party. Lots of people have their houses decorated by now too. this weather cn only last till January 1, then it needs to go away. It never does, but I can always hope.

Unfortunately I ate too much for dinner and feel stuffed. Well, I'll watch the biggest loser tonight and reinforce myself to eat less. SD, it will be great to remember who won in the morning. It was always somehow humilitating to me to not remember things, all kinds of things. I think for a good year I never saw the end of a movie. My goodness, what was I thinking.

Lil, thanks for the quote, it is so true. When we change, our world changes. Everyone else, have a peaceful warm night.:l

[Kimberley]

December Determination ~ AF

Hey all,
Just popping in to say hi. I have not been very good over the past few days. My ankle has got worse and I have been committing too much time to other people when I can't afford to and am not well enough to. Argh - why do I do that? It has made me tired and anxious. So I have been a bit stupid but back off on the right track now I hope.

I hope you are all doing better than I have been. You all sound like you're doing well having read back over the thread.

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF

Kimberly,

We are now on the Week 2 thread. Look for us there!