I have good intentions of just drinking on Fri, Sat, Sun - but our supermarket has these deals where if you buy 6 bottles of wine you get 30% off. And those extra bottles don't last until the following weekend - I drink them through the week. Wake up every morning feeling like crap. I am healthy but still live like a sick person because of the hangovers. The rare days I am not hungover I feel FANTASTIC. I want to feel like this everyday. Problem is when I feel good I start to think about wine - what is that??
I also have a weight problem - happy to say I have lost 18kgs in the last 12 months but still have about 25kgs to go - the wine makes my WL slow and it stops me from exercising when I should.
So I have 3 bottles of wine left in the cupboard - I think I need to empty them down the sink. Otherwise they will be emptied down my throat.
I hate how alcohol controls my life. I am missing out on so much more than what I get from alcohol. My kids want to do things after dinner - play games etc and I am not sure if they realise I am too sluggish to do these things by then. I am sure as they get older they will understand what is going on more and I don't want them to see their mum as a drunk. They are 10 and 13 now - they won't be home for that many more years and I want to spend time with them that they will cherish later on.
I could go on and on - but it feels good to write something and actually admit to myself that I have to stop NOW...not January 1st.
I am hoping this site and the support will help me make it THIS time.
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