HI Everyone,
Just wanted you all to know I have made it 14 days! I have not been posting much lately, so i wanted to say thank you to all of you. I do a lot of reading, and have benefitted greatly from that, but have been just exhausted! Too tired to do much except the very necessary things in life, like, oh, work full time and take care of two kids!
But that will change, my plan is to post more and to keep AF for 30 days at least. I am feeling so much better physically-just tired, and evidently still in need of lots of deep, dream filled sleep, because I am dreaming like I never have before! (Last night I was at a party at Ronald Reagan's house and was looking for white wine-all he had was some scotch with wood chips floating in it!-god knows what THAT dream means!) Well, his maid did find some champagne, already opened, and old and flat....
It was really hard to get through the withdrawals; I'm glad that's over. Emotionally I feel much more stable and way less anxious. This alone is worth going through whatever it takes to quit, or cut way way back. I am less irritable, have enough energy in the morning to run, and no longer feel completely doomed. Depressed at times, but not doomed.
I was a two bottle a day drinker at best, and had escalated to drinking in the night to go back to sleep, and then in morning at times. If you ever see yourself doing that, take it from me, it's a big problem. I figured I could stop that behavior any old time, but it's really a sign of having crossed the line (in my mind) from a bad problem to an horrific one that must be dealt with immediately. I pretty much scared myself into stopping, because there was nothing in my future except more of the same.
Enough rambling. I will post more frequently, and again, thank you all for sharing your stories, and for supporting me and each other.
All the best for a wonderful rest of the weekend.
CFW
Just wanted you all to know I have made it 14 days! I have not been posting much lately, so i wanted to say thank you to all of you. I do a lot of reading, and have benefitted greatly from that, but have been just exhausted! Too tired to do much except the very necessary things in life, like, oh, work full time and take care of two kids!
But that will change, my plan is to post more and to keep AF for 30 days at least. I am feeling so much better physically-just tired, and evidently still in need of lots of deep, dream filled sleep, because I am dreaming like I never have before! (Last night I was at a party at Ronald Reagan's house and was looking for white wine-all he had was some scotch with wood chips floating in it!-god knows what THAT dream means!) Well, his maid did find some champagne, already opened, and old and flat....
It was really hard to get through the withdrawals; I'm glad that's over. Emotionally I feel much more stable and way less anxious. This alone is worth going through whatever it takes to quit, or cut way way back. I am less irritable, have enough energy in the morning to run, and no longer feel completely doomed. Depressed at times, but not doomed.
I was a two bottle a day drinker at best, and had escalated to drinking in the night to go back to sleep, and then in morning at times. If you ever see yourself doing that, take it from me, it's a big problem. I figured I could stop that behavior any old time, but it's really a sign of having crossed the line (in my mind) from a bad problem to an horrific one that must be dealt with immediately. I pretty much scared myself into stopping, because there was nothing in my future except more of the same.
Enough rambling. I will post more frequently, and again, thank you all for sharing your stories, and for supporting me and each other.
All the best for a wonderful rest of the weekend.
CFW
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