I'm very good at drinking...
Chill and Stirly,
THANK YOU and all so much for your supportive words! Sometimes I feel so alone, like I am here by myself. I have tried so hard to hide my addiction over the years - you can only imagine. It feels like I am having a secret love affair with wine (margharitas, cosmos, etc.). How can something that feels so good at first sip, cause so much heartache?
I know I am making the right move. I just have to get through it. I have planned another holiday party at my house for a another group of friends (Saturdays didn't end well) for TOMORROW night! I actually have to go to the store and buy my booze supplies today. I told myself that I am just drinking seltzer and if I can get through that it's on to the next thing.
I appreciate your advise with the friends. I know they mean well when they tell me I am being too hard on myself. I am strong in so many ways, why am I so weak to say no to drinking? It's like a little voice in my head says "you're being rediculous about this whole quitting drinking thing, just cut back, moderation.." Well moderation doesn't work for me. One glass is the same as 4 or 5. I can't stop until I am fully buzzed.
I am going to keep blogging guys, it may be it this time....
Cathy
Chill and Stirly,
THANK YOU and all so much for your supportive words! Sometimes I feel so alone, like I am here by myself. I have tried so hard to hide my addiction over the years - you can only imagine. It feels like I am having a secret love affair with wine (margharitas, cosmos, etc.). How can something that feels so good at first sip, cause so much heartache?
I know I am making the right move. I just have to get through it. I have planned another holiday party at my house for a another group of friends (Saturdays didn't end well) for TOMORROW night! I actually have to go to the store and buy my booze supplies today. I told myself that I am just drinking seltzer and if I can get through that it's on to the next thing.
I appreciate your advise with the friends. I know they mean well when they tell me I am being too hard on myself. I am strong in so many ways, why am I so weak to say no to drinking? It's like a little voice in my head says "you're being rediculous about this whole quitting drinking thing, just cut back, moderation.." Well moderation doesn't work for me. One glass is the same as 4 or 5. I can't stop until I am fully buzzed.
I am going to keep blogging guys, it may be it this time....
Cathy
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