December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

[sooty]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Jannock is an archaic word in use in the early 1800's Lav - I don't really think we should use it I just threw it in cos I thought it was interesting.
We want a word that invites people to join us and people won't know what that means so scratch it from the choices!!
I've had a bit of an epiphany today - you know I've had this horrid bug that's given me a bad stomach, nausea, etc etc - well I've been lounging around today feeling sorry for myself and it dawned on me that I feel like I have a hangover (even tho I don't) and that caused me to think of the millions of time AL has made me feel like this and that in turn has made me even more determined to put it behind me.
I would not wish this bug on anyone - I have had 2 wasted days because I feel so rough - yet in the past I have felt like this and its been self inflicted - daft or what?????
Anyway its made me realise that being AF is the only way to go, no more toes in the water - I'm committing to staying AF from now on. I can't wait for this bug to go so that I feel normal again and I sure as heck aren't inflicting this discomfort on myself again!
Have a good rest of Monday folks - we're all jannocks here!
love Sooty

[spedteach]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Good morning all,
Just checking in. Monday morning and I am actually wishing I could go back to work.
Red, I'm with you. I do much better with a normal routine. I'm sorry you are having a hard time. It's hard to stop drinking in the midst of entertaining a houseful. For me grazing always included the half empty/half full bottles of wine. Good luck. Know that a lot of people are thinking about you.
Cyn, I live in the desert too although it's a pretty cold desert. Feel envious when I read about all you snow bound people.

My mind is in a sorry place this morning. Kind of blank, empty. Sounds like depression,huh? This is why I drank, this feeling. But now I don't drink anymore (never again) so am going to have to deal with this without any outside "help".

I can do this.

Thanks to all of you on the other end of this post.
Shelley

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Good Morning/Afternoon,

Soots you are so right about January coming faster than we realize. I like the word "jannock".
Red, I totally agree with Lav. There is no sense being down on yourself, it only makes things worse. Just stick with this group and keep moving forward. That's all any of us can do.

Hey, I have a big question. We have been at this awhile now and I was wondering how you all would feel about moving this thread to General Discussion? I don't think we qualify as "just starting out" anymore. I mean, in my case, it's been a year here now, and I no longer feel like a beginner. What do you think?

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Hi Shelley! Cross post!

[ladybirdheart]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

It?s fine with me, Dill, if we move the thread and we do seem more suited for General; I actually don?t care at all where it is as long as you folks are on it. Don?t despair, dear Red, about the turns the holiday took; it?s all part of learning our way out, all grist for the mill:l. Sorry you?ve got a case of the blues, Shelley, a large part of what intrigues me about this process is learning to manage all sorts of things without alcohol as an option. People who have been on this thread a while can tell you that I have been overwhelmed a couple of times with a seemingly bottomless bleak despair and anxiety. I am focusing on prevention at this point and am taking an herbal medication (Amoryn) that Lav likes as well as practicing cognitive behavioral skills from the MWO and other CDs. It?s all helping but it?s also dependent at its core on sustained abstinence as we each have learned in our own time. I had a good day yesterday getting back on more of a routine and ended the day with a further revisiting of films in our collection that I had compromised by watching them while drinking. This time it was a wonderfully imaginative dark satire, ?Adaptation?, certainly diverting and wildly creative, got me through my witching hour(s) in fine form and stimulated conversation with Lord Bird Heart that was considerably more thought provoking than our usual, ?did the dog go out yet?. Have a good strong day. Welcome home Cyn. Hi Sooty. Hi Lil. Love, Ladybird.

[mighty mouse]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Hello everyone, Happy monday. I love mondays. They have always been a day I never drank so they always have an extra bit of comfort for me.

Dill, I love the roses quote! were do you find all of them?

Red, My house is still a bit busy and will be crazy again on NY eve and NY day. I too am longing to get back to my routine. Like you I am learning alot. try and stay positive :l

Mario posted a thread about the affects of AL today that is a great read. I hope all can check it out. I'm going to print it.

Sooty, i like that word. never heard it before. Thinking of January and looking forward to being there and done with all these holidays!

How about, January Just do it! Look forward to reading ideas,

Shel, Lav, Lil, Lbh, TW, Cyn and anyone else I may have forgot. wish everyone well, MM

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Mighty, that is a good one from Mario:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...hol-39252.html

I find my quotes at:

Daily Recovery Readings

I'm happy for some quiet time today, that's for sure! I kind of like January Just do it! or Just do it January! Jannock January or January Jannocks would draw attention though. Am I using the word properly, Sooty? Think of the thousands of people that would have to look up "jannock"!:H

[sooty]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

I really like January Just Do it - and that might attract some interest - I was also thinking of January AF journey or what about Jubilant AF January or even AF January Jubilations?
I'm getting all carried away now I love words and playing around with them!
Its getting cold again here and snow forecast again, might be as much as 2" - are you jealous Lav? :H
Dill I'm very happy if you move this thread ~ as long as we all stay together I don't care where we are!
Well I had a meal about an hour ago and haven't gone rushing to the loo yet - fingers crossed the bug has departed. Hopefully I'll be firing on all cylinders tomorrow!
btw I saw an article about a website in Today's Times called SparkPeople.com - its an American site and reportedly the best (free) website to help people lose weight, get fit etc. so I signed on earlier but it seemed a bit complicated so I thought i'd try again tomorrow - just wondered if any of you had heard of it/used it?
Have a good rest of Monday my lovlies,
see you tomorrow
Sooty

[lilmea]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Dill-I like the idea of moving to general. But as LHB said, as long as all of you are on here. Just let me know the name and the where and I will be there!

Mario's post was really interesting. There really is more to being af than just not drinking.

Hope everyone is having a good Monday.

[spedteach]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Well I rallied and got through the day. Rounded up the family that's still here and we went to a nature preserve. It's interesting that despite years of heavy drinking, it seems my husband and sons are always waiting for me to organize an outing, a trip, a meal,etc.
Anyway we saw snow geese, sandhill cranes, hawks, an eagle. Ended up eating green chile cheeseburgers at a cafe.
It's very grey here with snow/rain in the forecast. My kind of weather.
Everything seems different to me without alcohol, especially relationships. I've quit many times before, but never felt so certain that this time it was truly forever.

Guess Juggling January doesn't sound hopeful, promising enough, does it?

As I said before, am so happy to have connected to one specific thread, after a couple of years of just hanging around MWO.
Thanks.

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Evening friends,

January Just Do It in General Discussion - sounds good to me

Sooty, I have heard of SparkPeople.com but never bothered to look at it until just now. We probably all could benefit (a little) by signing up. I think I just may do that!! Hope you are feeling muh better by now!

LBH, working on those behavioral skills is much easier with Amoryn helping us out, don't you think? I really don't think the CDs would have been much help to me prior to starting on Amoryn. My anxiety was too great to listen to anyone's suggestions......

MM, you love Mondays? Huh?

Shelley, I'm really glad you have settled in with us This is not an advertisement but if you think your anxiety/depression is interfering with your progress - I'll PM you the info about the herbal product that LBH & I both take (and several other people on MWO). It really did a good job on me, has no side effects. You mentioned that everything seems different without AL - that's very true & it actually takes a while to get used to that!! You will actually learn to enjoy it, promise!

Dill & Lil, hope you are both relaxing today........I plan to any minute

See you all tomorrow!
Lav

[sooty]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Morning everyone, hope everyone is doing ok.
I am feeling better thanks lav, still a bit fragile, but on the mend. Weather here absolutely vile - freezing cold and pouring with rain!
I haven't been back on SparkPeople yet but I will do it - I always come on here first!!!
My vote is for January Just Do It - its positive and "no nonsense" just like us jannocks and I think it will start us off in 2010 with fire in our step, blazing a trail, reaching new heights .... etc etc :H
I need to get going cos the house is a tip after 2 days of non activity by yours truly - have a good day everyone
love Sooty

[redhibiscus]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Thanks so much for everyone who responded to my plea for understanding about again drinking too much. Dill, Lav, LBH, sooty, MM all your responses are greatly appreciated. Yesterday was a really crabby day. You know, everyone is together, day 3, snowing out and just too much free time on our hands. We went to the Mall, then I took my daughter to get her hair done. Came home about 6:30 and the three guys were sitting there in filth, waiting for me to figure out dinner. Or, as my husband said, "let's go out." We don't have the money, and would drink. I was not going for that, so asked him to go to the store for some frozen pizzas. He did, but with a bad attitude. I was furious and I am ready to go back to normal. The rest of them drank the remaining booze so that is out of the house, and I am greatly relieved for that. So, today my daughter is leaving and I go to work, and that is OK with me.

I like the suggestion to go to General Discussion. January anything is great with me, just so long as this group continues on our AF January journey together. I too am so happy to be with a group on a daily basis. It may seem as though I keep messing up, but I have made progress overall. I also deeply care about every person that visits on this thread. It is helpful to hear others stories, and keep up the strength and hope. Another important aspect is learning from others - their plans, hopes and dreams, successes and failures. Interaction and relationship are everything, it is too hard to go this path alone.

This year, starting yesterday, I am going to be AF. I want to, I have to, and I will.

[dill]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Good Morning/Afternoon,

Red, you are not the only one on this thread that messes up, that's for sure. I've had my share this year. But like you, I have made progress overall and I will continue. My problem is that deep down I have not let go yet. I like hearing your commitment. I want it to rub off on me. And Sooty, the other day said:

I've had a bit of an epiphany today - you know I've had this horrid bug that's given me a bad stomach, nausea, etc etc - well I've been lounging around today feeling sorry for myself and it dawned on me that I feel like I have a hangover (even tho I don't) and that caused me to think of the millions of time AL has made me feel like this and that in turn has made me even more determined to put it behind me.
I would not wish this bug on anyone - I have had 2 wasted days because I feel so rough - yet in the past I have felt like this and its been self inflicted - daft or what?????
Anyway its made me realise that being AF is the only way to go, no more toes in the water - I'm committing to staying AF from now on.

LBH has stated unequivocally her commitment. Lav and Lil are both committed, without doubt. Shelley is, too. You don't get 6 months AF without commitment. This is where I need to be. I'll keep working at it. Maybe I'll get it by osmosis!:H

If you are looking for a bit of inspiration to keep going this thread is really good:

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f4...ing-38903.html

Hey, everyone, I had a thought. What do you say we all try to be together on New Year's Eve? We could all be on line at say 3:00pm Ohio time. All our little green dots would be lit up at the same time! OMG, we could even go on chat! Well, maybe that's pushing it.

[Lavande]

December Determination ~ AF ~ Week 4

Good morning Sooty, red, Dill & everyone!

Wow, what a night! We're having 40-50 mph wind gusts, temps in the 20's & wind chill in the single digits!! The windows kept rattling, waking me up!

I truly hope that this thread is infectious - in the sense that everyone catches the AF bug
Once you finally get there, you just want more & more! I find I have much more time to do the things I really want to do. I hadn't realized how muh of my time was sucked up by my addictions! I really do feel free for the first time in my adult life - it's amazing!!

Work is quiet for me right now but I do have one job to get started & of course the dreaded paperwork.

A virtual New Year's Eve party at 3 pm sounds good to me Dill. At least I'll still be awake
Have a great day everyone!

Lav