ODAT - Tuesday

[savon19]

'Morning ODATers!

Day 18. The 1st will be beginning of week 3. After 30 days, I'll start counting in Months. OK, I'm feeling optimistic this morning!!

Hey - I have a question: Since we have to take off shoes in airport security due to the shoe bomber... now that we have an Underwear bomber, does this mean...???

Molly - I read your post on ODAT from yesterday, but wanted to comment here to get this thread started. But I know Exactly what you mean about feeling like you have a Better personality, more funny, etc. when drinking. Something I wrestled with...

IF we could stop at that Exact point of being a little bubbly EVERY time we drank (on a rare occasion) - welll, that would be the Perfect world. I guess I decided that I don't feel like risking being the OPPOSITE of the girl with good personality... the one who is an Idiot ! Who says things she doesn't mean and half the time doesn't even remember what she said.

I'm thinking that our real personalities have been overshadowed by that boisterous one. As we get stronger, that one will revive and be able to be "the life of the party"... AF!

And, you know, we often think we're so cute & funny when drinking... when if we played it back sober the next day, we'd often think - not so much.

Anyhooooo.

Hope all have a great Tuesday!

PS - I chose that new avatar due to the "Carpe Diem" -- but it's SO small, you can barely see it.

[greeneyes]

ODAT - Tuesday

ODATERS!!!

This is when I get into day confusion. Been on vacation, came home on a weekday. Where am I?

To answer your question Savy, I guess that depends on whether you are commando.

Time to sort through the bills. Good thing about being AF is you don't let that stuff get away from you. Wow did I ever create disasters when drinking! As if the drinking itself wasn't bad enough, you sort of self-sabatoge everything around you. So.......

Let it go and go for the 0!!!

[greeneyes]

ODAT - Tuesday

Molly, while fun and humerous and a bit wild is certainly an aspect of a person, there are so many other components to you that are waiting to be rediscovered and shared. After a bit of settling in, I realized that I was still that same person and much more. I became comfortable with me and my friends a family prefer the sober me. I can still be off the wall, but not over the edge. I can listen and remember. I'm more settled. Probably because I'm not running around sneaking alcohol. Trust me, you will be grateful for the absence of alcohol in your life. You might read some threads (or pose questions) in the monthly abstinance (some are long term abbers) and long term abstinance sections. BTW, I am AF. I cannot mod. I marvel at the modders and normal drinkers and I differentiate between the two because well, first of all the word modders wouldn't exist if there were not some qualifiers. Modders have to think about consumption, at the minimum. Plan for it, count, whatever they do to be successful. It isn't a natural state of being. Give it time, and in that time try to find that place in which you realize you are MORE, not less and you are not missing out on anything. Wishing you the best!