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[mollyka]

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HI Pam
yeah I find antabuse brill, it just forbids you from drinking cos believe you me if you break it its a nightmare, this is from one who knows, was three days off it and decided to see how a few vodkas would go, it was awful, and nearly two weeks AF down the road from that mistake I reckon I'm only getting back to where I was beforehand. Give it a go (would go to the doctor for it tho) it breaks the never ending spiral of madness Good luck

[Little Owl]

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Day 3. My daughter came round and I took her to her Red Cross Volunteer class and then had to get some tablets for my husband so I had to drive, there was some tv I wanted to watch when I got back, alcohol crossed my mind briefly. The trouble is with no alcohol to blur things everything comes crashing in. I just want to hibernate. I don't want to see anyone. I'm neglecting my friends. I only made it to work because I had to.

My mum used to collect owls, she loved them, thats where my name comes from. My cousin in law now buys them for me! She bought me a years membership to the World Owl Trust the year my mum died and I have kept it up ever since. The headquarters is a lovely place I shall visit one day.

Thank you everyone, I have been reading a lot on here and I'm releived I'm not the only one who has drunk a bottle of wine and still carried on drinking. And had no idea why I was angry or cried or shouted and felt an idiot the next day and regretted everything. Good luck to you all and much love.

[JackieClaire]

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Hi Little Owl,
:goodjob: on day 3.

The feelings of wanting to hibernate and hide away will pass.
You'll soon find that even the simple things in life will amaze you. I can now open the kitchen blinds first thing in the morning. Make a cup of coffee without my hands shaking. Look in the mirror and see the real me that I've been hiding in a bottle for many many years. Little things, but they mean so much.

Take in one day at a time. Be kind to yourself. Treat yourself to something you would never dream of buying. (nothing too extravagant like a sports car or a race horse )

Take care.

J x

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[Little Owl]

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Day 4. Went line dancing and had diet coke instead of a beer, even though my daughter had one. I just said "I need to lose half a stone". I keep crying! Its funny, I need something to think about because I'm not thinking about having a drink. I had a wierd moment at work this afternoon when everything suddenly seemed crystal clear instead of blurry. An element of evil determination has crept in. I'm saying "I'm not having a drink!" instead of "I'll drink if I want to!".

Wish I could afford the sports car! And a horse, but not a racehorse, one that I can ride. One day maybe.


I love Paddington, he was 40 the same year I was and my mum bought me one. Actually I'm 51 now so he must have been 50 the same year I was too but I didn't notice!

[JackieClaire]

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Hi Little Owl,

Your favourite stalker here
:goodjob: on 4 days. You're over the dreaded 3 day hump.

Being a complete ignoramus about computers I've only just discovered how to fiddle around with my avatar. The Rocky Horror ones were a bit scary. So I've decided to be a bit more gentle.

I got my Paddington Bear for my 21st. He would be worth a fortune now but I lost his wellies.I let my daughter wear them when she was very little. She's now 23.

Believe me it gets better.

J x

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[jessie]

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Hi Dillybar, nice to meet you. Little Owl, I think there must be hundreds of thousands of women in our age group that grew dependent on AL - nasty beast him.
We can enjoy the retirement years sober and clearheaded - what a liberating thought.

[Little Owl]

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Hi JackieClaire. I guess over the hump is better that over the hill! Its a shame about your paddington's wellies. Line dancing was better with a coke. Clear headed and remembered the steps. We've moved up to improvers so its getting complicated. I've seen Rocky Horror at the theatre! My daughter got us tickets to see it again in June for Christmas. You have to be in the mood though, your picture was a bit scarey! I will be sober this time. Its funny how alcohol seems to compact time. You only remember bits of an evening, if anything at all.

Hi Jessie. A sober retirement sounds good. A sober anything sounds good. Just looking forward to the grandchildren to go with it now!

[lodestar]

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You're doing great, Little Owl. That determination isn't evil ~ it is fabulous! Just put one foot in front of the other and line dance your way around soberville. That clear-headed feeling is a great one. It will only get better for you and when times are low, you know that they will pass more quickly without the sauce.

Good job you!

[Little Owl]

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Day 5. Very tired. Didn't really think about having a drink all day. It seems to be going too well! Fell asleep on the sofa all evening. Slept all night and woke up late.

Day 6. Lot of stress at work. Not speaking to husband. Very hot in the office this afternoon. Thought about a nice cold glass of wine. Then remembered I was hardly sober for weeks over christmas, was awfully drunk at the office christmas do, and the whole curtain thing last friday night which made me decide to stop drinking. Came home and had a diet coke instead. I'm not giving in now!

[Little Owl]

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JackieClaire, I love your new pic!

[leaveinsilence]

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Well done:goodjob:

Just keep focussed now:l

[JackieClaire]

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Crikey Little Owl,

Missed 2 days, so

:goodjob: on 5 days and

:goodjob: on 6 days.

J x

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[rosepetal]

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Starting Over

Hi I am working on my Day 1 again as of today so I know how it feels. It is hard I stopped for 33 days and some major stuff happened in my personal life and I started right back again. What really concerned me was that my tolerence for alcohol increased so much that i was actually drinking more and more on the weekends which have been a blur. i don't even know how i managed to go to work the following Monday. I really feel sick just thinking about it. :new:

[Mazzie]

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Hi Everyone

Congrats Little Owl. Well done on the af days. Just keep reminding yourself why you never ever want a repeat of the past and that's why you never ever want to drink again - not even one! Also look to the future and get excited about what a totally al-free detoxed Little Owl will be like!

Rosepetal :welcome: Congrats on day 1. You've already done 33 so you know you can do it and are already on the right track just took a bit of a detour! This al is insidious. It is really scary the way it escalates.

I'm on day 20 today and must say I'm pretty chuffed about that!!

[Little Owl]

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Ok, I tried to post something and my computer shut down to install updates. Then I did it again and I couldn't post it. What is going on?!!!