I really wanted a glass of wine and my little brain was just searching for a way that I could. I knew down deep that the antabuse would not allow it, but well maybe? It had been 36 hours, blah blah blah. It went on and on. I actually toyed with trying! How dumb is that? In my one teeny tiny moment of clarity I popped an antabuse and then immediately regretted it, then about an hour later really thanked the universe for that one small moment. That all it took for me. That is also all it took to start drinking.
During the day, when I felt like drinking I just did something else. Like many I have a list and I just pick something and do it. I got some great stuff done. Not everything on the list, that would be totally impossible. However, I did get some things done that have been hanging over my head.
I want to say how much I really admire you all that are doing this without the added crutch of the antabuse. Those little pangs of desire creep up and can take over. I am trying to use mine to do something else. It feels nice to be a bit accomplished and feels really good NOT to be drunk all the time.
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
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