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[Summer09]

Hi All

I am not new.... just back....again! Think it is time for some changes, I have been really playing up over the holidays. I pretty much gave myself permission to go hard and have been drinking everyday from midday through till bed. My mother in-law has been staying with us for the last month and although she is nice it is stressful having all 6 of us living under one roof.... anyhow she left yesterday and my eldest son starts grade 1 on Wed, my little fella starts kindy next week. I really need to get myself together, for them and me. Thanks for listing!

Summer09 xx

[BUNNY]

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Hello Summer and welcome back. I just recently joined MWO and I`m so happy I did, you will find great support here from people who know exactly what you are going through. I also have young children so I know how stressful it can get. I am currently on day 5 and the support I get here has made a HUGE difference. Stay strong!

[Cinders]

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:welcome: Back.

I hope you have a good plan and definite goals. That helps a lot.

Cindi

[MissMerlot]

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:goodjob: coming back!

You know when that lil voice in your head is saying 'this has got to stop'......
i think it's trying to tell you something...

im just back after a break also....on day 6..

best wishes 2 ur boys starting back at school,be the mommy they deserve...they'l love you for it...

hugs
xx

[DisEase]

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Hi SummerO9! I am new here but have high hopes that you and I can make good choices for the little ones in our life and cut down/out the AL before anymore impact on our families. I have a 4 and 6 year old, and like you REALLY have nothing to blame this darn addiction on accept myself. From a loving and supportive family, have fabulous friends (both drinkers and non-drinkers), a wonderful hubby who would do anything for me (accept stay sober because he is an alcoholic and his sobriety is not in his possession to give me - unfortunately).

I do think there is a genetic link to this disease, and my grandparents were both alcoholics, but even that genetic connection can only be activated when I put a drink in my body - so again - I am the one who continues to allow AL to control and rob me of so very many things. I have read and learned so much on this site. I am on a plan right now with Nal that is really working for me. And if that stops helping, well I will try something else and something else and something else. Every day I wake up with my children with a clear head and a smile, not a hangover, on my face, it is like a gift from God.
THEY WILL leave one day, and no longer be here for us to hug in the mornings, no longer be safe and sound in their bedrooms at night where we can go in and gaze at their beautiful peaceful faces. I cringe at the thought that I will put wine in between me and them. You can bet I am no fun hungover in the AM. I am cranky and impatient in my treatment of them. I am less animated and less appreciative of who they are (cuz all i can think about is getting them to school so I can go back to bed and nurse my aching brain).

I often think of parents who have lost their children and what they would give for just one more day with their child. You can sure as heck bet they would not party like a rock star the night before. I can waste my life, fine, but how dare I waste even one precious moment of theirs?!? This can only end up one way, full of regret - so lets get on the right side of things, so that our sober moments/mornings/days with them outnumber our drunk ones!!!!

Get a plan ANY PLAN and keep us updated!

[OverIt2007]

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DisEase,

Wow, your post was very powerful and sure hit home for me. I too, have a young child at home who I feel is being "robbed" of the potential mother I could be. As a mother, feeling like you are failing and alcohol is winning the control over me. If your like me, you also carry around alot of shame and regret. Remorse.

The good news is that we have a chance to change. Our babies are still young (mine is 5 yrs.) Lets not get them into the teenage years still letting alcohol being misused in our lives. Your so right, they deserve the best of us we can offer.


Hugs,

Overit

[stiteal]

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I'm very happy to have found this particular thread. I am the mother of a 5 year old girl and swore that I am the only young person with kids who drinks like a fish. Finding out that I am not the only one "of my kind" makes me feel less horrible.