Was not successful last night but hopeful

[leaveinsilence]

Was not successful last night but hopeful

Meech honey just take it slowly and don't be too hard on yourself... I'm taking L glut and Kudzu and finding it really helps with the cravings...

After a few days I started finding little positive things that kept me going, nothing major just stuff like I didn't drink yesterday, I haven't thought about it today, I'm not the hungover Mom at school today, wow none of those empties in the kitchen are mine.. just little things that made me feel good. If I felt myslef slipping I've come here to the chatroom... Just stay strong:l:l

[JackieClaire]

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Chasing you about here, leave.

I can't believe the transformation in you. You're going great guns.

You should be hugely proud of yourself.

J x

:l

[allswell]

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Meech,

The supplements were well worth it to me and worked very well. Almost to 30 days after drowning in heineken for 18 years! This site has helped alot as well.

Best

[Jane Thompson]

Was not successful last night but hopeful

Hi Meech - just adding my support to this thread - I'm just starting day 4 AF and, as usual its getting harder! My booze brain is telling me I can't have a problem if I can go for this long with out a drink - so why not just have one tonight: we own a vineyard and have crates of wine in the shed so I don't have to go far... but I know I can't do moderation, not for a long time anyway. My whole adult life has been more or less controlled by my drinking urges and I'm so sick of it. I'm in my 40s now and feel I have wasted so much time and energy thinking about drinking, about not drinking, actually drinking, then hating myself for being so weak. I really feel this site is going to make a difference this time for me - every spare minute I read the posts, especially the tool box - so do that as often as you can. Our bodies have to get used to the changes of not having to deal with alcohol so we're going to feel weird for a while - although I've had the best sleep this week for months, I feel grumpy and edgy - hoping that won't last! Keep reading and talking to these amazing people!

[Meech]

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Last night I had too many beers again. I was extremely weak, didn't even attempt to come to MWO for support. Wanted to give in. And of course like every single other time I say just one or two and it turns into 6 then I feel regret, fatigue, self loathing and hopelessness today.

I did go buy the L-glut. When do you start to feel the benefits? Immediately, few days, a week? I am thinking of getting the starter kit. And the thought of making a Dr.'s appointment to discuss my secret problem too. It's so humiliating and tough I just don't want to go there, but if meds can help that would be good. I just don't know if I have the guts to make the appointment.

I often daydream about a life of sobriety and how amazing it would be, then I think it's too impossible a task for me to achieve. I know that may sound silly as many people have overcome. My Dad for instance. He was a hard core alcoholic but quit. I actually never saw him take a drink as he quit a few years before I was born. The serenity prayer and AA got him through. AA is not an option I wish to pursue.

So back to the drawing board. I am going to take baby steps. Try to go AF for 3 days - starting today. No booze in the house right now but my hubby is the "Beer Guy" on the team for Hockey so there's always a big stash that comes into the garage on Wednesday night. That's a serious tease for me. Trying to figure out how he can not bring it in to the house. That would help.

I like some comments about hunger. That's a real trigger for me. If I eat the cravings are cut hugely.

I'm going to try to visit MWO a lot over the next 3 days to find support and strength. I hate alcohol and hate that I crave it so much.

[lodestar]

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Hi again, Meech. 3 days is a great goal. You have to start somewhere, you know. Don't worry about an entirely AF life today, just focus on right now. That is the only thing you can really do anything about anyway. I know it sounds cliche and it used to drive me nuts ~ especially if "now" was particularly hard ~ but all those little now moments will add up to a day before you know it. Maybe they already have, as I see you posted this in the morning.

I totally understand being afraid of the doc. Sad, but true, we need to consider these choices heavily. Do you trust your physician to be compassionate and helpful? I hope so.

AA is not for everyone. It certainly isn't for me, but I appreciate that it works for others. You have to do what feels right to you. I found the support I needed here at MWO and hope you will too. I did almost all of the stuff in the MWO book, except the medication, and it really helped. Also, I joined a couple of threads and went to chat from time to time. I found people so welcoming and supportive. Post on any thread and you will certainly find lots of people willing to help.

Sorry to hear you're having a tough time getting started. I can practically guarantee you will feel so much better in just a few days of getting alcohol out of your system. Do whatever you have to do to get through the first few days...come here, eat well, treat yourself like you have the flu and watch movies, anything that makes you feel comfortable. You can do this and you will feel better. I didn't believe anyone either when they told me that, by the way.

C'mon you! :l

[mollyka]

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Hi Jane and Meech, Lodestar is so right I love the sentiment 'treat yourself like you have the flu' that is so wise, give yourself anything you want (except AL) within reason for the first few days never mind diet, eat and eat lots, comfort food chocolate, whatever takes your fancy, it Does help to eat. Rather unfortunate and ironic that one of you owns a vineyard and the other has a garage full of beer! On a more serious note tho, really the first few days ARE the hardest I'm not even a month AL yet and hours go by when I don't even think about the beast. I'm headed to my doctor in an hour, he's kind and caring thankfully, I need to get my bloods checked and have a chat about bad sleep (don't think its al related never have slept all that well ) don't be afraid to do to a Doc wouldn't it be worse if you had piles or an SID or something, we shouldn't be ashamed of having this disease, would you be ashamed to go to a Doc if you were giving up smoking? Just a thought. Good luck today everyone

[Elsa]

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Hi
Just wanted to add my support, I can't give you any more good advice than you already have from the others on this thread, but just to say I'm wishing you well and I hope you start your AF goal and that you feel better for it.
Take care:l

[Meech]

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Thank you everyone!

Well Sunday night is my night to play hockey and as luck would have it the "beer girl" called me to be in charge of that as she couldn't make the game. So I thought beer would be out of the garage and out of my hands until at least Wednesday but I guess I was wrong.

GOOD NEWS - I never had a drink. I took the cooler of beer, played hockey, drank water, brought cooler home and returned it to the rightful owner without a drop in my mouth.

I did think about having a beer and how refreshing it would taste. BUT THEN I thought about being able to say tomorrow morning that I have Day 1 AF under my belt.

I read on another thread that you just have to fight only one drink.... and that's the first. I like that saying. I'm going to repeat that to myself tonight at 5pm when the cravings start and think about being able to say to myself Day 2 AF tomorrow.

Thank you everyone. Day 3 on L-Glute and by golly I do think my brain is a little happier and clearer!

I'll keep learning from you all everyday. Gotta fill up the brain with the good thoughts so there's no room for the bad ones.
M

[BPleasant]

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Congrats on putting the beer away! Wow, that's great.

I am looking forward to going out tomorrow to pick up L-Glut. Are you taking anything else, Kudzu? Hope you do well tonight. Did you get the book or write out a plan?

[Meech]

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Hi BP

Thanks everyone who posted on my thread! Tonight was really tough between 5:30-6:30pm. Wanted to cave. Still want beer but the current cravings are much less then an hour ago. I keep saying "I just have to fight off the first drink" plus I really really want to wake up tomorrow saying Day 2 AF not reseting to 0.
I bought some sparkling peach drink at the grocery store and put it in a wine glass. It allowed me to go through the routine of sitting down putting my feet up while supper cooks in the oven and have a drink. It took the edge off because I did everything that I normally do except it was carbonated peach not Budweiser.
Supper is about to be served so if I have a good meal I think I will have beat the alcohol beast another day.

Coming here helped with that too.

Oh yeah, I am considering taking the starter kit which includes the Kudzu but haven't ordered it yet. I guess the L-glut takes a few days to kick in and this is just day 3 so I may weight and see how I do this week.

My only plan at the moment is to be AF till at least Wednesday.... when the beer cooler arrives in the garage. ugggghhh. I wish my hubby wasn't designated "beer man" for the team on Wednesday night hockey league. We shall see what will be, until then I will keep fighting off the 1st drink!

Good luck, hope my yammering has helpful or at least shared words in our battle for AF!
Meech

[Audrey14]

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He Meech!!! You're doing great!!! Yes, last saturtday i was on my wonderful Day 3,but approximately at this "magic time" (i tought that's only my biological clock) 6 p.m. i drunk my first glass of wine..I know what was the matter - i felt lonely and really was alone...Now i know all these triggers and situations which are dangerous for me and perhaps others too..
Now i'm again on my second round Day 2..
I wish you to overcome cravings and reach at least Day 5!!!! Sounds promising!!! Good luck!!!

[gyco]

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Meech;799763 wrote: Hi BP


My only plan at the moment is to be AF till at least Wednesday.... when the beer cooler arrives in the garage. ugggghhh. I wish my hubby wasn't designated "beer man" for the team on Wednesday night hockey league. We shall see what will be, until then I will keep fighting off the 1st drink!

Good luck, hope my yammering has helpful or at least shared words in our battle for AF!
Meech

hi meech,your doing great,work on the present day,dont think to far ahead,you mt find it makes things a bit easier,as far as the the beer man goes,the outlets where you get it are not going away,so in the long run we have to lern to deal with its presence,youve found a great back up,HERE,keep using it,i wish you well gyco

[Meech]

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Today's going to be trickier

Thanks Audrey and Gyco and everyone else,

Today's day 3. I'm hopeful, nervous, anxious and a wee bit grouchy today! Kids were biten with the miserable bug last night in their sleep I think and of course they must take out their frustration on Mommy.

Went for a snowshoe this morning, (I actually teach the class). It's a good motivator to behave the night before as I have to be awake and energetic for my participants. It's always nice to get fresh air in nature. Good to burn off the steam generated from my moody kin too.

I am on day three of L-glute and last night I poured myself a wine glass full of sparkling peach drink and I was amazed how it made me feel. I could put my feet up, relax and have a drink (and it was actually alcohol free). I seriously didn't think it would satisfy me as much as it did. I still craved a cold beer but it wasn't that closed in feeling, you know that gnawing craving that takes over your entire mind, makes your senses on edge.

Hope the carbonated peach drink works for me again tonight. I really want to wake up tomorrow saying DAY-3 AF completed! Wish me luck!

I don't think I have had 2 "3-day AF's" in the span of 10 days in quite a few years.
Meech

[Elsa]

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Hi Meech,
You are doing so well, good luck for tomorrow, keep going - you should be proud of yourself.
Take care:l