I cam close to giving in

[rosepetal]

Day 9
Hi all well i came close to giving in this evening i had to go to the store and i passed the liquor store and it automatically hit me it sure would be nice to have a beer. it took all the self control i had in me to say NO! Wow it was hard it was like this crazy voice inside my head saying yeah go ahead just tonight it's Friday you go back to AF tomorrow. i know that isn't what would happen if i gave in i would be drinking the whole weekend because that is just how it is with me. i have a problem with al and that will never change. so i am here very thankful i fought the urge and i feel very relieved that i managed it. once i was past it i let out a deep breath and said to myself see i knew you could do it. i know i am so fresh into recovery that this will happen again. i just hope that i will be strong the next time. well i just had to get this out i know this is a great sight to share what is happening with AF days and that was mine this evening.

hope everyone else is doing great!

[JimBeam911]

I cam close to giving in

Congrats Rosepetal for resisting the urge! You highlighted something very important, namely, that had you given in tonight, this would've paved the way for drinking on Saturday as well. I don't even want to think about how many times I've done that. I've been in the very situation you just described many, many times, so I figured I'd mention some strategies that seem to help me. For starters, each time I successfully resist a drinking urge I focus on how good I feel the next morning and compare this with how I've usually felt in the past when I've thrown away a solid AF run for a night of bingeing. As you can surely guess, I am always at a loss to recall a single occasion where I haven't regretted my decision to drink. Secondly, one thing that has really helped me lately is delaying the decision to drink. I did this earlier tonight. After 13 days AF the voice in my head was urging me with, "You deserve it, come on, it's the weekend, plenty of time next week to be sober." I reasoned to myself that if I do choose to drink, it shouldn't make a difference if I postpone it for another hour. Much to my delight, after delaying the decision to drink and getting something to eat, the immediate urge calmed down and I was able to reconsider the situation without being in the immediate grip of passion. As a result, I was able to refrain from drinking. You're doing great with your 9 days. Try to remind yourself that the weekend is far tougher than the rest of the week and that by refraining from drinking for another two days you can start off next week with increased confidence and pride. Good luck!

[openheart]

I cam close to giving in

Way to go, Rose!:goodjob: You are stronger than you think. It does get easier--I know that's kinda hard to see sometimes, but it does. JimB gave some great strategies--find what works for you and keep doing it.
One thing that I've found works for me is to try to find something else I can look forward to--I used to just look forward just to drinking, but after some af time I gradually found some other things to look forward to--like a special food or af drink/reading the paper/going out for a movie and not stressing about buttered popcorn cuz it's better than al/surfing the net/crashing on the couch with a book or movie guilt free/a bath at 5pm with candles......just something that sounds appealing depending on the mood I'm in.
Keep going you're doing great!
Openheart

[Meech]

I cam close to giving in

Keep going Rosepetal. Wake up tomorrow knowing you hit double digits! 10 days! You are giving me inspiration and strength and I hope I can be on day 9 then 10 soon.
You can do it. You want to say 10 tomorrow not be back at 0. You have done so well. Just think, tomorrow waking up fresh and energized!

From one Canadian to another good job!

[Winefree]

I cam close to giving in

Day 9 was tough for me too. I gave in once or twice in the beginning, but just like Meech says the double digits are a great start and 10 soon becomes 20, 25 goes to 50, and on and on. It can be done, just don't give in to that voice, take it one minute at at time, change your thought, go for a walk..........
it is all worth it.
Keep up the good work.
Winefree

[OverIt2007]

I cam close to giving in

Wow, some super great advice I can use too. My problem is also, once that urge strikes, then I make the decision in my head, Good luck changing that obsession!

The other day this worked for me. I was sweating for a drink bad, but ate a piece of cake. Suddenly I had no desire for a drink. Cake and booze, not a good mix.

Good Luck!

[mollyka]

I cam close to giving in

That 'urge' moment does go quite quickly as everyone else here as said just distraction works. I agree with being proud of the days done, get to double digit days, then weeks. I am actually AF for 47 days except I'm not because of giving in to ONE STUPID URGE for one day and now am on day 22 I would love to own those 47 days and the stupid day only made me feel rotten and my family were so cross with me!! Good luck and good distracting!

[stiteal]

I cam close to giving in

I'm brand new here...what is AF?

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