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[kpontruckin]

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I'm new here too.

:new: Hi don't know if this is going to work for me but I am getting desparate! I have now reached the point where I can't stay sober for more than a few days. I feeling like I am in hell and the most frustrating part is that the only person that can save me is me.:upset:

[mollyka]

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Stiteal, you were some grumpy mare yesterday!! poor little cheerleaders! Hope the mood is better today, let us know. Kpontruckin, welcome, two positive points in your post yesterday,1st, you already realise that you are the only person who can sort out your problems, lots of us spend an eternity to get to that realisation and 2nd you say you can't stay sober for more than a few days, many people came here (myself included) unable to stay sober for more than a few hours. Grab your next few sober days by the neck and tag another one on. Don't worry about the day after that, its always one day at a time.
Best of luck this place is wonderful, keep postin
Molly

[stiteal]

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Mollyka, I am still fuming today too. I understand I am really wanting a glass of wine, but instead of coming out in the form of a craving, I'm just a raging bitch. My husband just went for a drive to escape my wrath. I am praying, praying, praying for peace. I'm completely up to date with my happy pills, I am just fully aware that this is a side effect from not drinking when I normally do. I really have no urge to drink, I am just absoultely filled with rage. I have excersized, gone for drives, walked some more, focused on my breathing, journaled on here...I know it will pass, I just hope my family stays in tact in the process, ha!

[mollyka]

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Believe you me I understand where you are coming from! just back from an evening out with my poor long suffering husband. He wanted a couple of pints before a meal and I was soooooo bored I was a cow, staring into space and 'suffering (not so) silently', a total bitch. Am home now and feel a lot better, cosy on the couch and away from that pub environment. Weekend half over reckon your family will survive till monday!!!! Have a nice sober morning/evening/night don't know what time you're on in Kansas!

[JackieClaire]

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Evening all,

Just thought I'd leave this for stiteal, so she can give it a good kicking later

:moon:.

The way I see it is just because I'm sober doesn't mean I'm a little ray of sunshine all the time.:rays:. I can still be a grumpy mare when the mood takes me.

J x

:l

:hiya: molly

[Doggygirl]

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stiteal, you are really wise for seeing this as it is - a side effect of your decision to ditch the AL. Hopefully this just confirms that you made the right decision. The good news is that 1) this WILL pass and 2) if you resist any urge to return to AL and STAY AF, you won't have to go through this again.

Hey JC. Can I come kick your ass?? Just a little? Pretty please?

DG

[JackieClaire]

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ok then, if you must

:moon:

J x

:l

[Doggygirl]

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I like that smilie. It reminds me of college when as a sorority pledge, we had to "serenade" our older "sisters." We chose the song Blue Moon. We all wore skirts. With nothing underneath and our butts painted blue. Then at the appropriate moment in the song......

And yes, drinking was absolutely involved.

DG

[JackieClaire]

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:shocked:
makes me glad I left school at 16 and started at the university of life

[mollyka]

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Me too JC me too visuals don't bare (sic) thinking about!!!

[JackieClaire]

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mollyka;802212 wrote: Me too JC me too visuals don't bare (sic) thinking about!!!

:H:H:H

[stiteal]

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You guys are killing me (in a great way)...this really picks my mood up!!! I talked with my husband and let him know what I was up to (kicking Al to the curb) and he's proud of me and will encourage me...I want to kill him less now! My little one just told me I was the best Mommy in the whole world, so I want to kill her less now too. We fly out for sunny Florida tomorrow afternoon and there is a very comfy hotel suite and spa waiting for me, so I hate life less now too...things are really looking up!!! Thanks for making me feel like less of a crapbag everyone!! I even hate the little cheerleader less now, however, that mooning smiley's gonna get it!

[JackieClaire]

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Now it's your turn

Here I am in the dark,cold north of England and you're flying to Florida tomorrow :upset::upset::upset:

[Doggygirl]

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AH so good to hear about your talk with hubby! Good that you know you have his support. Have fun on vacation.

:moon::moon::moon:

Blue Moooooooon
you saw me standin' alooooooone
Without a dream in my hearrrrrt
Without a love of my owwwwwwn..
:H

That's your send off song.

DG

[stiteal]

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You guys rock the party! My mood is almost 100% better now...AF6 is almost done and the big AF7 is almost here! 1 week AF is a big deal to me and I owe so much of it to the encouragement of my MWO angels! :thanks: