Good Morning ODATers....
I came VERY close to caving yesterday. After more than a month & half. Got into that "I deserve it, I've been good, etc." mindset.
"I deserve"... ruining my day, maybe making a fool of myself, getting nothing productive done and feeling like CRAP the next day?? Helllooo.
It was a gloomy, cold day, and I had nothing planned to do (unemployed) - perfect day for drinking (huh?)...
It helped, too, talking to my 3D MWO friend. The one thing she reminded me of that I was forgetting is that the "pleasure" part of drinking is very short-lived (if at all).
And then I set about doing some kind of fun/productive things. Used a new deep conditioner on hair, put fresh sheets on bed, played on internet... and soon those thoughts about drinking went Poof. (The "distract" manoeuver Works!!)
Also, I learned late afternoon that I will have a phone interview today. Had I been drinking, I may not have been at my best. The moral of that is we can never know what moment in the future will need us to be Sober. Other things, like being able to drive. That's a BIGGIE!! We tell ourselves that we have the free time, but how do we Know we won't have to drive for some emergency.
Sorry for the LONG post. I write this stuff to help others, but also to help myself -- seeing things in writing helps!
Have a great day, all. :l
I came VERY close to caving yesterday. After more than a month & half. Got into that "I deserve it, I've been good, etc." mindset.
"I deserve"... ruining my day, maybe making a fool of myself, getting nothing productive done and feeling like CRAP the next day?? Helllooo.
It was a gloomy, cold day, and I had nothing planned to do (unemployed) - perfect day for drinking (huh?)...
It helped, too, talking to my 3D MWO friend. The one thing she reminded me of that I was forgetting is that the "pleasure" part of drinking is very short-lived (if at all).
And then I set about doing some kind of fun/productive things. Used a new deep conditioner on hair, put fresh sheets on bed, played on internet... and soon those thoughts about drinking went Poof. (The "distract" manoeuver Works!!)
Also, I learned late afternoon that I will have a phone interview today. Had I been drinking, I may not have been at my best. The moral of that is we can never know what moment in the future will need us to be Sober. Other things, like being able to drive. That's a BIGGIE!! We tell ourselves that we have the free time, but how do we Know we won't have to drive for some emergency.
Sorry for the LONG post. I write this stuff to help others, but also to help myself -- seeing things in writing helps!
Have a great day, all. :l
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