I'm so paranoid, I usually post under a different name, but I shared some posts with my husband and became afraid he would read this. But I really needed to communicate with you guys.
I had a rule not to drink during the day, but then I felt like a beer around lunchtime, and then all my good intentions went out the window. The first couple barely affect me because my tolerance is so high, but then I keep going, and my poor 5 year old daughter...hope she didn't notice, I don't want her to have the messed up childhood I did! My husband travels a lot. What if he had called? He thought I had this under control, and I did too. I took the supps yesterday, and even a topa. Had the All One. Haven't listened to the cds in a few days. Maybe if I had done this consistently back when I started in Oct. I'd be in a better place by now.
I'm stubbornly clinging to the idea that I can learn to mod, but sometimes I wonder if it's just holding me back. But the thought of total ab just seems too extreme. I have tried an outpatient rehab thing and I didn't like it - felt like high school. I've never had a dui or lost a job or anything like that, but it's a problem.
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