But I wanted to prove to myself I could go to bar and be around people both smoking and drinking. And not do either ? which I didn?t.
HERE?S THE BIZARRE PART: My gym was on the way home. I didn?t feel like working out, but thought, wellll, I might as well stop in & go on the hydromassage bed to relax. I walk in the room? and right in the middle of the bed is a CIGARETTE!! OMG. Talk about a test!!!!
I?ve been whining like a baby on my quit smoking site for the last two+ days? (I'm on Day 41) how I just want to give up, etc. And here is a cigarette just Presented to me. The only way it would?ve been More bizarre is had it been my brand with a lighter next to it! So weird?
I picked it up and looked at it. Wondered what it ?meant?. Maybe it was a Gift? I could just smoke that ONE. But I set it down on the little table & got on bed.
I guess I'm proud of myself... Maybe I needed that HUGE temptation to really reinforce to myself that I DO NOT SMOKE!
(At least not Today!)
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