squashing the fear!

[letgolaughing]

so...i have been modding pretty well...sticking to my plan mostly, and sometimes under by a drink. but last night, i went to dinner and although i had only 2 glasses of wine at dinner, and a half glass when we got home, (my plan was no more than 3, so i thought i had done well). it was in a shorter time than usual, about 3 hours. i had that weird sleep disturbance about 4 hours after i went to sleep where my pulse pounds and keeps me awake.
this has happened to me when i've overdone it in the past..usually it's the first indicator that i will be hungover the next day. but, usually that only happens if i have had 4 or more drinks. i wonder if a)it was withdrawals b)it was because i've cut back and my tolerance is lower or c)the pours at the restaurant were more than the 5oz standard and so i actually had more than i thought.

so, either way...i'm scared that i sabotaged myself. like i have to start my taper all over again. surely i can still do 2 AF days this week without withdrawal fears right? (i think this has really caused the ocd withdrawal fear to surface again. help me squash it)



thanks

[letgolaughing]

squashing the fear!

hello? anyone? bueller? bueller?

cinders...surely you're out there to put me in my place!! lol

[Lavande]

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Hi letgolaughing,

I'm here
What is your plan? How much time did you do AF? The general recommendation is to do at least 30 AF days before attempting to drink moderately. Did you do that?

When I quit drinking last March I didn't know at the time it was going to be for good!
I had intended to do my 30 days then begin moderate drinking. Turned out at the end of 30 days I asked myself honestly if I was ready for 1 glass of wine - the answer was a resounding NO!
In that 30 day period of time I learned some very important things about myself & the most important was that 1 drink will never be enough for me! I had to do a lot of soul searching & make a very important decision for myself - like many others here I can't stop at 1 drink.

For me it's just easier to be AF. No more worries, no fears, no decisions, no hang overs!
I'm enjoying the freedom & the peace of mind living a sober life

Hope you find what you are looking for.
Wishing you the best!

Lav

[Sweaty Betty]

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Hi Letgo,

Just from personal experience I know my tolerance level decreased dramatically after 30 days AF, to the point where two drinks now gives me a hangover. I don't think in your case this was withdrawals, so I think it may have been a combination of b&c (but of course I have no medical background ).

Maybe have an AF day and then just one glass of wine? It might help ease your withdrawal fears.

How did you deal with how you were feeling? How does it compare to symptoms you might have when you're drinking as you 'usually' would?

How do you feel about having an AF day and then having just one measured glass of wine and see how you do?

Lots of questions I know, but may help with your dilemma.

Take care,

Bets
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