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[notcarmen]

Hey everybody. I havent been here in awhile. At this point I cant remember the last day I didnt have a drink. I take most of the supplements and every day I think im going to do better.. But by the end of the day I feel guilt for my failure. I have a lot of anxiety and stress. And very little spare time. Trying to keep my head up about things I cannot control yet the things I might be able to work on I cannot find enough time to do them all.. Kinda feel like im drowning. Never going to quit trying but very overwhelmed at this point. I dont even know where to start. Like I said.. I take the l-glut. and the other vitamins. Cant afford the topo anymore. Tried therapy and it eventually it was just regurgitation of the same thing. Have noone left to vent to.. So its your turn!! Thanks for reading.. Ill be hanging around.

[Pipaguila]

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Hi Not,

it is easy top relate to your comments about stress and fear. i don't want to never be able to drink again but I sure don't have much control. Started taking the vitamins and Kudzu again...want to feel better about myself and my life

[YoungAtHeart]

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It took many slips and many "I'll start again tomorrows" before I started to get it right. Keep trying. You'll eventually make it--hopefully it will be sooner rather than later--but it takes how long it takes. Good on you for not giving up!

[peacenik]

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keep trying...that's all i can say because that's what i've done. its come to the point where i'm tired of slipping and feel like it's sticking this time.

do you have support?

keep trying and coming here to vent, we are listening.

:l

[Lavande]

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Hi notcarmen & Pipaguila,

Welcome back to MWO!

I joined exactly one year ago & will have one year AF next month!
The trick for me was taking steps to get my chronic depression under control. I got rid of the AD I had been off & on for years & replaced it with an Herbal supplement called Amoryn - worked great!

I did not use any meds or even the supplements recommended here. But I did use the Hypnotherapy CDs, they were very helpful, I highlt recommend them. Make yourselves a good workable plan. Look in the Tool box (located in the Monthly Abstinence section) for good ideas.

Jump in & post every day on a few threads. It is very comforting getting to know others here. Stop in the 'Newbies Nest' thread - I'm still there after a year We love to get to know you & help you along!

I did it & so can you.
Wishing you the best!

Lav

[Twitch]

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Hi Notacarman just to say welcome and just keep trying, it's what I'm doing,a few af day's here and there but I am trying for longer stretches, keep coming here and vent as much as you like, love and hugs Twitch.

[greeneyes]

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Hi notcarmen! Keep trying no matter what! When I was .... let's just call it not doing well, I managed to get so far behind in everything. I swore I was busy and I was, I was just misdirected but couldn't see it. When I quit drinking, I straightened everything out and got on top of my game and stayed there. I just could not do it with the fuzzy alcohol brain. With alcohol out of the picture, things that are possible for you to manage are much more so. Keep at it!

[Guest]

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Hi Notcarmen,

I'm new here too and was probably in the same situation as you are a few months back. I was seeing a counseller and then going home and opening a bottle or two of wine.

Keep trying, keep talking to us. I just got to a point were I couldn't drink excessively any longer.

My counselling sessions must have been 6 months ago. Work on fact finding and ways to quit and you'll be starting your AF journey soon.

There's so many lovely people on here to help you out.

Good Luck

Spam xx