ODAT - Wednesday

[universal]

Hi guys!

I haven't been posting much because I've been so busy but have noticed our little thread has dwindled!

I had a revelation on the weekend. It was a hard one to accept. I am an alcoholic - not a moderate drinker, not one that can control it - hard core AL. I need some help to get through this. I have reached out. Wow. It was amazing how much of a weight was lifted off my shoulders when I finally realized that this is just what it is.

So I am on day 4 of sobriety today. Not again this time. Day 4 of sobriety. I've got my supps, I've got my phone #'s to call and I don't have a choice. Drinking for me is not an option anymore.

Okay - on a lighter note, it is snowy and cold here and I am going to work from home today so I can stay in my snugglies! I have a ton to do and I really quite frankly am not in the mood to do it at all but hey, what ya goona do.

Love you guys! :l:l

Uni

[savon19]

ODAT - Wednesday

Hi Uni - and other ODATers...

Well, I made it two months last Sat. And then drank. I told myself it was a sort of "experiment". To see if it would "cause" me to smoke! (WHAAA??) Happy to report that I didn't smoke. But, really, what a lame excuse!

Then... yesterday after seeing what turned out to be a Surprisingly depressing movie (Up in the Air w/George Clooney... well, he was nice to look at , at least!)... I decided to buy a little bottle. Didn't get drunk, but it shows that once you open the gates, this is what can happen. My experiment has gone awry!

Not to say that this means I am back into the old routine... But it's just another lesson to be learned.

It's 47 (bloody) degrees here in Florida! Snugglies sound good!!

[redstar]

ODAT - Wednesday

Hi there..well I am on day one and I must say it feels good to be on the right track

[Luvwins]

ODAT - Wednesday

Welcome redstar and hi uni, savvy and ODATers to come. I was glad to see this thread this morning - thanks for starting it uni. Uni, I'm curious to know what constituted "reaching out" for you. I have been keeping my struggles with alcohol completely hidden from any 3-D people but I think I need to change that in some way. Just don't know how.

Savon, thanks for sharing the bumps in the road as well as the success - that is very helpful for me as I reflect on my frequent bumps.

I'm aiming for an alcohol free day. This part of the country is having a blessedly mild winter which I'm loving. Warmer than Florida!

[universal]

ODAT - Wednesday

Hi Luvwins,

I called my best friend and my sister and told then that I needed to stop drinking and needed their help. They were both surprised at how much i had been drinking but were also very supportive and willing to help. I went on some sites to find a list of meetings in the area that I could attend if I felt I needed to or want to. So far I have the list and that actually seems to help as it is right beside my computer and I know I can go if I want to.

And now it's pretty much me having to do this. Today I've been craving a bit (day 4 and 5 I usually find are hard days) but I have taken an L-Glut and I will call my BF this afternoon to chat.

[Luvwins]

ODAT - Wednesday

Thanks Uni

I need to take inventory of family and friends and see who could hear it without being judgmental. I definitely think at least making a list of meetings would be a great idea - don't necessarily need to make the commitment to go (that's too scary - sigh) to just make a list!

Ironically I just had to hide this screen from my husband who came home. OK what's so scary about telling him??? (another sigh)