Beginng Day 2 AF

[jaw856]

Beginng Day 2 AF

I am currently drunk and cant find where the hell to post it.... Maybe there should be a sppot to put that...Its crazy how I can still type cohertly...i just need to stop... I cant... Not on my own... My girlfriend (fiance)and I got into a fight about past relationships and documentations (cards and letters and as I was putting the letters and misc shit in a pile to burn I read them an realized th e problems were at the late hours in the morning... i hold job high in the military and function well if not well above the average.... I drink cuz I think that drinking helps me to focus,I know thats wrong... I know that one day it will cost me everything... Im going to stop tying now cuz its hard for me to type cohentyly

[Panno]

Beginng Day 2 AF

Why oh why !! Left work last night around 6 and went straight to the shop - I knew exactly what I was going for and even though I kept telling myself to turn around I didn't - so hence I am now back to day 1!! What makes us do that? I did not get drunk and I can't even say I enjoyed or disliked it I don't know what I felt but I did drink the full bottle (wine!!) I don't even have a hangover!

What makes it worst I work in a place where there is a gym and a pool no less than 600 yards away!!! Tonight I will use it!

Anybody got any answers as to why I did that - I was feeling so good, I was catching up on work, I am feeling healthier and less tired so why did I risk throwing that feeling away?:upset:

[JackieClaire]

Beginng Day 2 AF

Panno,
When I used to drink (I love being able to say that). I would know from the minute I woke up I was going to get a bottle of wine (or 2) come hell or high water regardless of how long I'd been sober.
It may have been that you were feeling so well you thought a little drink would do no harm
Still onwards and upwards.
J x
:l

[Panno]

Beginng Day 2 AF

Hi J

I am determined to beat this and my plan is one day I will be saying 'when I use to drink'

P x
:l

[JackieClaire]

Beginng Day 2 AF

Panno,
If any one here got it right the 1st,2nd,3rd........ time round. This place would be empty.

Planning,changing routines there's the key.

J x

:l