Hi everybody, I am new to this site, thank god found it last week after a disasterous drinking session the day beofre. have asked a couple of question, but looking around realise I would benfit from making some contacts and friends on here as I have kept my drinking very much a secret ( although I am probably kidding myslef as I think people have noticed if I am truly honest not something that comes that easily over drinking !)and have ony confided to one freind about my concerns over my drinking being on here and as she is not s drinker although she offers support she cannot really understand it. Would love to be able to bat feelings etc off others who understand. I have ordered all the stuff from this site and am eagarly awiting its delivery in the post. Have been able to control my drinking since finding this site last week, just knowing that there is hope for me to change has been great in its self. But I have found myself really tearful ( want to cry as typing this),part of it is anger " the why do I have to be the way I am with alcohol" thing I never asked to be like this it feel like I must be a terrible person who have been given some terible affliction which has blighted my life , i just want to be normal and live a happy life, not concerned with a high flying life style, just to go out and know that i will not get drunk and do and say awful thing that make me hate myself the next day would be like winning the lottery to me.And the other reson I want to cry is that coming on here has made me realise that I am not the only one, as in my day to day life I am not aware of anybody who is like me and that there is s solution to all off this and that I will one day be able to live my life out off the dark cloud. Just wanted to ask others if they had experienced similar emotions as me, and will they all level off. My boyfriend (new relationship only been together 7 weeks don't want to mess this one up which is one of the reason I found this site) has said I have not been myself the last couple of days, its since I have been on here, can't tell him why . Would relly appreciate some feed back from other on all of this
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Ps I am in England 9.45 in the morning here. was wondering as a lot of people seem to be from America what the time difference was and whats a good time to log on .
Thanks
Ps I am in England 9.45 in the morning here. was wondering as a lot of people seem to be from America what the time difference was and whats a good time to log on .
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