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[the bellinator]

Blah day.....the excitement of being AF is waning.........UGH! I'm hanging tough and looking to keep busy. :nutso::nutso:

[JackieClaire]

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Keep busy.
:b&d:

You never know when I'll pop up

J x

:l

[Guest]

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Hi Bell,

Life just goes on when you are AF - there's still ironing to do, bathrooms to clean etc but at least now we are doing this with heathier, healing bodies and minds.

Mother Nature has a very selective memory. (I've said this in another post.) Remember she can make child-birth a vague memory.

Before you consider drinking remind yourself of what AL does to you - makes you feel ill, makes you a dangerous driver, gives you diarrhea, makes you vomit, makes your skin look bad, impairs your judgement. (Sorry for the spelling mistakes.) And that's only a short list.

Hang in there.

Spam xx

[mama bear]

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Come on Bells!!!!!!!

[Lavande]

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Bellinator,

Quitting drinking is Step 1.

Step 2. is figuring out what you want to do with the rest of your life - pick whatever you like!
Ressurect old hobbies or try a new one, catch up on reading, gardening, volunteering, old friends or new ones. Use that new found clear head & the extra cash in your pocket & do something nice for yourself. Most of all, learn to appreciate & enjoy the freedom - it's the best part

Lav

[OverIt2007]

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Hey Bellinator,

I hear ya... I really do. I am at ONE WEEK AF TODAY (yahoo!), and I have experienced before the HIGH euphoria and EXCITEMENT of actually being AF a couple of days. Its like your walking on cloud nine and almost a "high" off being AF go figure!

But then it calms down, and you find yourself like, Oh Ok. SO this is what being sober is like.

I can hear the temptation in your post, but Im hear to tell you try to remember how badly you wanted to be sober. Remember how you dreamed about it, begged for it, cried about it (Im just assuming your like me???). I remember even praying to God many times, Please Lord. Let me get this drinking shit under control. I hate this. Please help me.

Then guess what. Just recently I got all my prayers answered and turned the corner into a sobriety that feels really lasting this time. I really do not want to go back. Even though sobriety may seem a little "boring" at times, the lie of the drinking as fun is just a huge LIE. If we are honest, we will remember the damage we did far outweighed any temporary pleasure we "thought" we had from it.

Im pulling for ya Bell!

Overit

[the bellinator]

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You guys are all right.......you know one thing I really don't miss is waking up feeling guilty and afraid. Did I do or say something last night that was crazy? Do I remember last night? I HATE the guilt and fear. The last 5 days I haven't had any of that. So that's a positive for sure! :yay:

[OverIt2007]

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Bellinator,

When I try to pinpoint exactly what I truly hate about drinking so much (wait, there are so many).

I think it has to be the waking moment. The moments where you are confused and the first thought comes to mind "Did I get drunk last night?" Oh God, I pray I am just dreaming I did.

Then the realization, "Oh shit. I DID get REALLY drunk last night". Then comes those awful rotton feelings that have to be one of the worst feelings in the world. Now guess what. You got a full day ahead of you with things to do, and you get to do it all with feelings of regret, anxiety, fear, paranoia, guilt, headache, and if your REALLY lucky, lets throw in a couple of major panic attacks thrown in there.

Lets start the day wishing we were dead.

(P.S. I am talking to myself when I post this friend. Its for ME TOO)

[KatieB]

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Bell,
You can do this! remind yourself why you are doing this.. maybe write a list of the negatives to drinking.. keep busy, active and motivated in this battle.. an AF life is a much happier life! Just remember the horrible hangovers, the remorse and guilt..
Keep positive.. we are here for you!

K xx

[universal]

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Bell,

you have to want this more than anythign - You need to accept that drinking is not an option - once you have accepted that, it makes it easer. I am truely afraid to drink now in case I end up in a downward spiral again. Once that true fear of AL kicks in, it really does kick in and remind you the reasons you don't want to drinnk.

You can do this.

[the bellinator]

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My friends,
Thanks for helping me through this testy time! I am off to bed and definitely AF!

xoxox
bell

[Twitch]

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hi Bel, Im on day six and the thought's are begining to creep in today, been so good, reward myself I deserve it, I really dont want to cave in today so am going to be here a lot today, really need the support I havent got past this day yet for 10 years, heres hoping, you can do it, I can do it, love and hugs Twitch,xx

[mama bear]

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GO TWITCH.....GO TWITCH....GO TWITCH......

[Twitch]

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Thank's Mama Bear, it really help's, xxx Twitch

[sidney]

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I am pulling for you Twitch. Be nice to yourself ...it helps. Give yourself a treat.
Quitting shouldn't have to be all about denial. I did whatever felt good but not drink.
Each day it gets easier.....believe me. Stay strong.