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[spuddleduck]

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hi all. last night was looking though some old photographs. some great times doing some great things. so many hobbies and happy smiley times. travelling, walking, making stuff, climbing trees (hmm should i admit to that one), my lovely garden, etc etc so much. what happened to all of that . yes i know. AL took over... slowly .. very slowly creeping up behind me until it overwhelmed me and all of my interests. last few years ive rarely done anything that didnt involve drink, either during of after as a wind down/celebration or whatever other excuse i wanted to call it. i found no enjoyment in things that used to make me gloriously happy. today i want to find the old me ( the one without the demon looking over my shoulder). my friends stopped inviting me to things as they knew what would happen, i could spoil things for everyone with my selfish drinking. determined to to re find me, i know deep down that im still in there. keep strong and go for it x

[OverIt2007]

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You will get back to you, Spud.

Your making the efforts, and you want it, so I have no doubt you will find your way again.

Dont give up!

[Twitch]

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Hey I'v just realised this is day 7 not day 6, wayhay, I'm really doing it !!!

[mama bear]

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YAY Twitch.....I ,alas,am starting over.....but at least I'm doing it!!

[overittoday]

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Great thread - this is the reality of it! there is no in between. I agree write down all the reasons why you want to quit so badly. Do a pros and cons list - is it worth picking up another drink? will it make me happier? ask yourself questions. Try and visualize yourself in a AL free life 6 months down the track - we cant expect to get there will little effort - keep your eye on the prize and no matter how bad you feel right now it will pass. Hang in there buddy, you deserve to be happy and free.

[Cecelia]

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A "friend" of mine seems determined to try and undermine me at every turn of late. If not inviting me over and offering me alcohol, she texts/calls to invite me out on the weekend...the last invite being a wine tasting festival! I have told her repeatedly that I have stopped drinking, especially wine, but she continues, even as I am wrapping up Day 16 AF. At first I felt angry with her, but I now feel she is not trying to be malicious. She too has a drinking problem and struggles with her demons. I think it would make her feel better if I started drinking again. What do you think of my pop psychology?

[mama bear]

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I think you should be honest with her and ask her if she's concerned about her drinking and tell her about this fabulous place. I think you are right...it would maker her feel better about herself if you were drinking with her. If she;s a true friend, she will understand and support you

[Twitch]

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keep going Mama Bear, you'll get there xxx

[mama bear]

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you bet your sweet :bum: I will!!!!!!!!
:H:H:H

[Chillgirl]

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Cecelia - I think you are spot on with your analizes.
When I stopped I was very concerned about what to tell my friends and what they would say.
I decided to begin with by just saying I was having a bit of a detox so no one said too much. The ones who did make a fuss are all heavy drinkers themselves. The others couldnt have been sweeter and were full of "good for you". Since then I have told everyone I just feel so good im carrying it on and now everyone has accepted it even the big drinkers.

Your friend probably knows deep down she drinks too much and you are a reminder of this, well done for persevering.....

[Funny Girl]

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Cecelia - the ones who are most bothered really hate looking at themselves in the mirror and having YOU be the one to make them have to actually look . . . . Just avoid her if it continues. I told a friend of mine today at lunch that I stopped & felt great. She said that's fab! and we ordered lunch - that was that! No fuss no muss . . . . but, she doesn't have this particular problem & isn't miserable, so she doesn't need me to be miserable with her - she's here to support me. Big difference - I'm trying to only have people like this around now.

[sisley]

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Your not alone..Im bored, really craving a drink..thinking I can handle just one or two tonite...get back with it tomorrow?? fighting the urge to go to the store..was gonna go buy M&M's still havent left the house..feelin immobilized, debilatated the brain is obsessing its all I can think about//this really sucks..
trying to post been on here since 3;30 this afternoon its 5:45 now...got a ton of things to do..especially prepare paper work...the numbers for accountant to do my taxes...cant get started...the stuffs all over the dining room table..been there for 3 days now..oh my god this is soooo oh so hard..maybe it was the little slip up tues..when I found the wine..???? dont know.

[mama bear]

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don't do it sis....you will regret it tomorrow...I have been miserable all day cause I slipped last night.....