My First Day - encouragement needed

[Klrsr77]

I come from a long and glorious line of alcoholics. Of my six siblings, two have successfully given up alcohol, two are in the depths of drinking, and the remaining two are hard to assess.

I have reached a point where DAILY I think, this is not good in my life. I started running last year, and I'm up to 8 miles now. It is awful when I'm dehydrated from drinking. I have a great job which allows me to work from home. Only that's where the wine is. So at lunch, I'll say, one glass would be nice with this meal. In the last month, that glass has become a bottle. Then I take a nap. Then I think about how my boss should fire me. Only I'm good at getting work done before and after these episodes. Then I get on a scale. I'm five pounds heavier than four days ago. What the hell is going on with my body? I'm too vain to let this continue. This is not who I want to be.

Yesterday, I woke up from my mid day binge, and went running. It was a great run. No drinking last night. Now it's 10:00am. 24 hours since my last drink. I took some L-glutamine which I discovered previously for alcohol cravings. I checked the web for dosage. That brought me to this site. So, I'm finally here.

PLEASE send me notes of encouragement. What do you do when the urge just moves you to the bottle? How do you stop?

Many thanks,
K

[JackieClaire]

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:welcome: Klrsr77,

You've made a huge step today by reaching out for help. I was another home drinker. A very lonely existence.
You'll find masses of support and loads of advice. Have a look in the link below to get yourself a plan together.

https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html

Keep reading,keep posting. Let us know how you're getting along.

We're all in this together.

J x

:l

[mario]

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hi & welcome k77,reas as many posts as you can and as jc says check out the tool box.
Today is the first day of a new life. Use it wisely. If you have not done so already, You may find many things about yourself that you don't know, and who knows over the course of this time you may find things about yourself that you really like. Change may be scary but it can also be exciting.hope you stick around

" No one can go back and change a bad beginning but one can start anything, anytime and create a successful ending."
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[Klrsr77]

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Thank you so much for replying. You really hit the nail on the head - a lonely existence. There have been so many days recently where I'll think - I need to get out of this house. There is a beautiful, vibrant world out there. But I'll drink instead. It is LONELY.

If you're having a bad moment, are there chat rooms to get support?

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Hello Klrsr and welcome to a fantastic place. There is a live chat which you can access at the bottom of the community page. It will tell you if there is anyone in there by a list of members names. It is usually active from this time in the evening. There are people from all over the world and time zones so there is always some about on the threads. What country are you in?
Anyway congratulations for taking the first important step, realising this cant go on and doing something about it. Good luck on your journey.
Keep safe
KTAB

[Zeppie2]

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Hiya K77 - stick around this is a great place to be, and there is usually always someone up if you need to chat.

[the bellinator]

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:welcome:

You have found a terrific place! Stay logged in and read all the posts. It's very therapeutic and supportive. There is no guilt and nothing to fear. All of us have been in your shoes--therefore there are no judgements!

Good luck to you--I'm sending positive thoughts and strength your way. Keep in touch.

the bellinator

[overittoday]

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Hi K77 and welcome,:welcome:
I was also a home drinker but at night after work! It is a lonely existence....Yes jump on chat or read the boards you can really get some good stuff. Read as much as you can about staying positive you just dont know what you will that will click for you.

I have just purchased the Allen Car book Easy way to give up alcohol - ive heard from others here it is a great book.

Have you got rid of all the alcohol in the house?
Its great that you run! exercise def. puts in a a great frame of mind.

Let us know about your progress - stay positive you can do this!:l

[Mazzie]

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Hi K77

I found this this place to be the best thing for me. Everyone has helped me so much with their willingness to share themselves and what has worked for them.

There always seems to be something in the posts which really stands out at the time I need it. One of those comments I'll always remember and do remind myself of is that if my drinking is bad now it will only get worse unless I make some changes as al is a very cunning entity and will progressively take over and not be satisfied until it has destroyed everything good I have including myself.

I am making changes!!!

Hope to talk to you some more. Have a good day/night. Oh and my No 1 rule is not to buy any al and have none in the house. A big glass of water with lemon is more my style now.

[jessie]

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:welcome:Hi K77, this is a great site, and I also fall in the " secretly - at - home" category. All the best in beating the beast.

[spuddleduck]

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:welcome: hi K77. GLAD YOU HAVE FOUND US. this is a great place to be for support, encouragement and advice. lots of information, just keep reading as much as you can. we are all here for you x

[mollyka]

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Welcome K77 ditto what everyone else says, stay here and keep posting. Can't believe you run 8 miles and drink wow! When I was drinking I was lucky to get up the stairs to bed at night!!

[KatieB]

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Hi K77,
I'm glad you have found this place.. i've been here 2 weeks, though I feel I have 'known' alot of people on here for ages, as I have been given so much wonderful support, understanding and advice..
I used to be a big party animal.. but the last couple of years have been drinking at home, on my own - it IS very lonely.. though I have a young son.. and thats a big reason I wanted to change.. that and I am tired of ruining all my friendships and relationships with people due to low self-esteem and AL making things ten times worse..
Come on here as often as you can to get advice and support.. its helped me so much! Just to have reminders as to why AL makes things so much worse in your life, and its best to deal with problems - life issues or personal issues sober.. AL does not solve anything! I have a very long list of things I have wrecked by turning to AL.. I see AL as my enemy now.. it hasn't helped at all..
Take care, feel free to PM me if you want to,
Katie xx

[Lavande]

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Hi K77,

Welcome to MWO, this is a good place!

If you haven't already, download & read the MWO book from the Health store, it's about $12. It's full of helpful info about the program. This is a lot of support available, stay close, read & post on the threads.
Feel free to drop in the Newbies Nest thread for support.

Wishing you the best on your journey!

Lav

[LVT25]

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:welcome:
Lots of great advice above. I would agree with Lavande to read My Way Out. It is an excellent program. Get the booze out of the house and substitute with something else. Go for a walk at lunchtime. It takes awhile to turn bad habits into good ones, but you will be free from the guilt and shame. It is so worth it!!