Getting worse and I am just scared

[Twitch]

Getting worse and I am just scared

your stories are so like mine, I hid the amount i drank from my husband, I think he realised anyway,i have started and fallen so many times, this time i feel on a roll, altho i am sure i will slip at some point, but each time i start af again, its for longer, stick with it, stay here and chat, post and read, there are some good friends here for you, love and hugs twitch xxxx

[spuddleduck]

Getting worse and I am just scared

yep my partner drinks .. quite a lot, but can do the stopping thing. he hates me drunk and said he will stop drinking with me. i dont want him to as i know he enjoys drinking and it would make me feel very guilty as its my problem not his. he likes a good heated debate about anything after a drink and i cant get into that frame when sober so i will just have to avoid these situations. oh and the number of times i have sat with a cup of 'herbal tea' it looks just like white wine in the cup.. ha ha did i really think no one noticed as i started being silly and slurring. bloody good herbal tea eh. NOT ANY MORE, IM ON THE REAL HERBAL TEA X

[ATLThrash]

Getting worse and I am just scared

Made it through last night even when hubby went to play hockey and I was alone. Now to change my other bad habits with diet and exercise. I do wonder if I have irrevocably damamged my body by drinking (though it has been 5 years basically and not all of it was heavy even in the 5)-- but I am too scared to own up to it with the doctor as he is pretty judgmental and I certainly do not need that. I had some stomach issues (my dad does too so they may be inherited) and I had a test in August that showed all the parts down there were fine including the liver -- gall bladder had stones and this is probably what causes stomach issues wehn I do have them-- but alot of folks have gall stones and never pass them (with the cruddy insurance in this country we have to wait until it is acute to get it taken out)-- hoping between now and then it could not have gone totally off hte rails (because from November to now is when I really did).

[Buddysmom]

Getting worse and I am just scared

Good for you. I have also made it AF for the past 2 nights. Be careful not to try to change too much too quickly. That was my downfall in the past, and overwhelmed I eventually went back to drinking. Just try to treat yourself 'well'. I still have the mindset that I am still that party girl I was in my early 20's, and that I am missing out if I can't drink. Now, 2 kids and 20 some odd years later I still have it in my head that drinking means 'fun', and have to learn to have fun with out it. It's harder for me now because my kids are 18 & 20 and are less involved with me, so I have more time alone.

[mollyka]

Getting worse and I am just scared

Buddysmom, I too am a 20 year old in a 53 year old body! Yeah the kids growing up and moving on is a big transition in life isn't it and I think underestimated as a bit of a trauma. I know people talk of the'empty nest syndrome' but somehow all that trivialises the change that takes place. My adult children now sort of protect me and ( in the nicest possible way) talk down to me as a bit of an old fogey. The worst was last month we were having our bathroom done up and I was debating whether to get rid of the bath and just have a fancy shower and my daughter said to me 'you're not getting any younger you know Mum', I think she meant I mightn't be able to get in and out of the bath soon!!!!!
Drinking and fun went their different directions in my life after the 6th drink.
Have a nice Wednesday everyone
Molly:grannypants: