Hi-
I've been reading this board for days now, and talked a bit with others, but haven't posted my "story" yet. I've been scared to! Not sure why, maybe it's like standing up at an AA meeting and saying "I'm an alcoholic". I've never gone to a meeting. I ordered the supps and they arrived yesterday, so started them this morning. However, I'm washing them down with wine (well, not the morning ones). I ordered Topo from Lifehaus in Canada, and they called the day after I ordered, and wanted my Rx faxed. She said she couldn't ship until they received a refill or new Rx. I freaked out, thinking I wouldn't get any, so, very drunk and very late at night, I ordered some more from RiverPharmacy. Next morning, I wasn't sure if I had actually placed another order, but sure enough! I had to laugh-I'm completely drunk and still ordering "stop drinking" pills. I'm so desperate!
I'm 46, mom to 2 daughters, 19 & 16, married to a non-alcoholic drinker. We're both in health care, so we're *very* aware of the destruction alcohol does to the body. We live in Northern California, in the wine country...but I don't limit myself to just wine. We have an unspoken saying in our family: "You're either an alcoholic, married to one, or both". My dad was the worst, though. He's dead now. And today is his birthday. So, a toast to Dad.
Thank you all so much for being here! I'm crying, and I'm not sure if it's from fear, sadness, or just feeling shitty from last night's drinking. Since I ordered everything, I've drank more than usual. Is that unusual?
I've been reading this board for days now, and talked a bit with others, but haven't posted my "story" yet. I've been scared to! Not sure why, maybe it's like standing up at an AA meeting and saying "I'm an alcoholic". I've never gone to a meeting. I ordered the supps and they arrived yesterday, so started them this morning. However, I'm washing them down with wine (well, not the morning ones). I ordered Topo from Lifehaus in Canada, and they called the day after I ordered, and wanted my Rx faxed. She said she couldn't ship until they received a refill or new Rx. I freaked out, thinking I wouldn't get any, so, very drunk and very late at night, I ordered some more from RiverPharmacy. Next morning, I wasn't sure if I had actually placed another order, but sure enough! I had to laugh-I'm completely drunk and still ordering "stop drinking" pills. I'm so desperate!
I'm 46, mom to 2 daughters, 19 & 16, married to a non-alcoholic drinker. We're both in health care, so we're *very* aware of the destruction alcohol does to the body. We live in Northern California, in the wine country...but I don't limit myself to just wine. We have an unspoken saying in our family: "You're either an alcoholic, married to one, or both". My dad was the worst, though. He's dead now. And today is his birthday. So, a toast to Dad.
Thank you all so much for being here! I'm crying, and I'm not sure if it's from fear, sadness, or just feeling shitty from last night's drinking. Since I ordered everything, I've drank more than usual. Is that unusual?
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