I am posting BEFORE I drink (the wine I just bought)
First, thanks for saying you'd wear sparkly stuff! I just lengthened this beautiful orange, amber and green two strand crystal necklace. Now it fits. Now I just have to wear it!
AA - Hmmm. I did meet my good friend - one of two whom I called at an AA meeting. He is different though. Very open minded and tolerant of my differences. I think I'll call him again and tell him I am not going to drink.
Yes, you are right. You are all "real" here. I know that. And I know that you felt very lonely that day you bought the low AL wine and I do also know you felt very bad for drinking it. All I have to do is to make it through tonight and then sleep and then wake up tomorrow (without a hangover!) and go to my therapist and give him the wine. He will be quite impressed with me. I just know it! Not that I need to impress him or anything....I don't. But it never hurts that he thinks I am sincere about all of this. And that is another thing. I am paying him $60 an hour and I've told myself that I need to not drink and save up my "stuff," work through the "stuff," in order to make this whole thing make sense.
Don't ask me why I had no issue spending thousands on rehabs and drinking and for some reason $60 seems like a big deal, but it does. Plus, there is the added pressure to be completely honest with him knowing he can call my shrink at any time and be honest with HIM and my shrink can, in turn, get upset with me if I drink and fire me at any time.
Well, I am off to look for another necklace to lengthen. Yes, Ebay is a lot of fun but it can get to be a bad vice too!
Katie, I just thought of a hobby for you! Beading! If you have a store like we do in the States called Michael's or Joann's where they sell beads and craft type stuff, they also have beading classes where you can learn how to make necklaces, earrings and bracelets. I must have 50 sets myself! While not as nice as the vintage stuff I buy off Ebay, I have made some lovely stuff and it's quite creative and easy to do!
KatieB;823420 wrote: Anotherday,
Even though I am younger than you - we seem to have similar issues.. I isolate myself too and have difficulty making friends with "normies" as you put it, and feel lonely too at times.. but being on here and making friends here is a good start - even though the medium is "virtual" we are all still real! I guess you need to give it time to make new friends in the 'real' world, as in any place you live.. if you go to places frequently, like the library, cafe's etc gradually ppl can get to know you.. and who knows what is "normal" these days - we never know what goes on behind close doors - even the most "perfect" of lives on the outside is often not what it seems.. AA could be a good place for you to meet people - as often people that turn to AL are isolating themselves, and have similar issues.. if I didnt have my son i would probably go to AA to meet like-minded people.. but i find my son helps me meet ppl..
Well done for not drinking.. and good luck with your therapist tomorrow.. and e-bay sounds like a fun hobby!
Katie xxx
Even though I am younger than you - we seem to have similar issues.. I isolate myself too and have difficulty making friends with "normies" as you put it, and feel lonely too at times.. but being on here and making friends here is a good start - even though the medium is "virtual" we are all still real! I guess you need to give it time to make new friends in the 'real' world, as in any place you live.. if you go to places frequently, like the library, cafe's etc gradually ppl can get to know you.. and who knows what is "normal" these days - we never know what goes on behind close doors - even the most "perfect" of lives on the outside is often not what it seems.. AA could be a good place for you to meet people - as often people that turn to AL are isolating themselves, and have similar issues.. if I didnt have my son i would probably go to AA to meet like-minded people.. but i find my son helps me meet ppl..
Well done for not drinking.. and good luck with your therapist tomorrow.. and e-bay sounds like a fun hobby!
Katie xxx
AA - Hmmm. I did meet my good friend - one of two whom I called at an AA meeting. He is different though. Very open minded and tolerant of my differences. I think I'll call him again and tell him I am not going to drink.
Yes, you are right. You are all "real" here. I know that. And I know that you felt very lonely that day you bought the low AL wine and I do also know you felt very bad for drinking it. All I have to do is to make it through tonight and then sleep and then wake up tomorrow (without a hangover!) and go to my therapist and give him the wine. He will be quite impressed with me. I just know it! Not that I need to impress him or anything....I don't. But it never hurts that he thinks I am sincere about all of this. And that is another thing. I am paying him $60 an hour and I've told myself that I need to not drink and save up my "stuff," work through the "stuff," in order to make this whole thing make sense.
Don't ask me why I had no issue spending thousands on rehabs and drinking and for some reason $60 seems like a big deal, but it does. Plus, there is the added pressure to be completely honest with him knowing he can call my shrink at any time and be honest with HIM and my shrink can, in turn, get upset with me if I drink and fire me at any time.
Well, I am off to look for another necklace to lengthen. Yes, Ebay is a lot of fun but it can get to be a bad vice too!
Katie, I just thought of a hobby for you! Beading! If you have a store like we do in the States called Michael's or Joann's where they sell beads and craft type stuff, they also have beading classes where you can learn how to make necklaces, earrings and bracelets. I must have 50 sets myself! While not as nice as the vintage stuff I buy off Ebay, I have made some lovely stuff and it's quite creative and easy to do!
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