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[K9Lover]

I just can't seem to get off this damn roller coaster. More drunk texting and phone conversations last night. I just dont know what to do anymore.

[spuddleduck]

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dont beat yourself up about it. you probably feel like shit anyway. as has been said before, it takes a long time for AL to get a grip so it can take a long time to beat it. i was terrible for drunk phoning and texting. sometimes had to have a drink before i dared look at my phone to see what i had been upto. i have had long conversations that i havent got a clue about. what the hell i was saying i dont know... eek makes me cringe just thinking about it. keep at it. you can do this x

[K9Lover]

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Thanks Spuddleduck. I do feel crappy today, mentally, physically, emotionally. I am shuddering at the texts I sent last night. It's so embarrassing, and that's sooo NOT who I am....I am not a big fan of AA, but I am looking into going into a meeting tonight. Just to pass the witching hour...

[the bellinator]

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duck.........are you taking meds? or will you be in the future? i just ask because i'm a not even a week into topa and i've stopped drinking completely. walked right past the liquor dept at walgreens last night and i have never EVER done that before.

just a thought--the meds work.

either way--give yourself some time. dust yourself off and get back on track. you can get things right!

love to you duck!

[runningwind]

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K9Lover, have you tried writing a list of triggers and posting them where you see them. Also, have you started on your plan yet? If not, start writing another list of things, that you could do instead of drinking (things that YOU enjoy doing) I know this has helped me. Hoping peace finds you today,
runningwind

[overittoday]

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Hi K9Lover,
Sorry that you feel so lousy today - I havent taken the meds myself but could that be an option for you? Have you got something on your mind at the moment that is upsetting you? what was your trigger for last night? i only ask because everytime i have drunk when i promised myself not to there was always something going on that i wanted to escape from.
Everything will be ok - just put that behind you have a AL free day today it will makes more sense to you when you are not hung over.:l
Stay strong its not the end of the world you will find your way!:h

[Zeppie2]

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Hi K9 - sorry to hear about your drunk texting, get a plan in order to give 30 days AF a go. You will feel sooooooo much better after that. When you feel like a drink, remind yourself why you don't want to drink.

good luck

[In Details]

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Can we celebrate without having a drink

I just bought a new house. I have 60 days to sell my house.
I feel stuck with it. If I don't sell I won't be happy.
It is time to celebrate but at the same time it is stressful.
My partner drinks and If I have a drink he is not happy.
He thinks that I should stop drinking.. I am trying AA. It is good
to hear their stories... I feel like a million boxes after a meeting. I find the meeting very long.
Sometimes I here the same stories.
But Why do I still want to drink after 5 days being sober... It is
so hard not to think of it and you want to celebrate.

[runningwind]

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In Details, I think we can celebrate without drinking but first we have to discover a new way to live. There is some great imformation on the forum page. Just scroll down to research and click on it. Read as much as you can (not just on research but every where on this site). Then post, post and post somemore. This is a good place to be. I look forward getting to know you. :welcome:
runningwind

[the bellinator]

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the bellinator;824340 wrote: duck.........are you taking meds? or will you be in the future? i just ask because i'm a not even a week into topa and i've stopped drinking completely. walked right past the liquor dept at walgreens last night and i have never EVER done that before.

just a thought--the meds work.

either way--give yourself some time. dust yourself off and get back on track. you can get things right!

love to you duck!

k9--i meant to include you in this message--i'm so sorry.
:l

[ThePat03]

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I was guilty of this many a night. and with people who were good freinds. it could be a friday night or tuesday night, didn't matter. all we can do is stay sober and if we fall get back up again. hang in there you can do this!

[gyco]

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K9Lover;824317 wrote: I just can't seem to get off this damn roller coaster. More drunk texting and phone conversations last night. I just dont know what to do anymore.

hi k9,i think thas where some people arrive,at times in there life s ,my wife was one of those,she hadme,she didnt no what to do,last time was in the doctors office, xplaining what happened the nt b4,i am a great guy,not only Al,but the fristrations of life got to me,this really was my last ditch attempt to find out what to do,10 years b4.i was helped by many specialists,helped for a while,then capowy,10 years later,verbally assaulting my wife,at whatevertime in the morning,i didnt remember waht i said,i no somthin happened,i was lucky,nothing physical happened,4 months later treatment ,1000 mile s from home,i seen the effects on me,but i wasnt prepared to see how many others were affected,the hell,it brot to the lifes,i have found a new way,im not totally stopped,but forever is a long time,you have to find what works for YOU,hope it helps gyco:thanks::goodjob:

[redhibiscus]

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K9,
Three weeks ago I drank and felt like I made an a** our of myself. and this has been going on for way too long for me. In the past I have often had phone conversations I could not remember and knew it was not good. Thank goodness I do not text, so I could read them over the next day and feel even worse.

I think everyone on this site has chosen to drink again at one time or the other, having the same negative experience we always have. That is the reason we have found this site, cause alcohol is not working for us anymore. Don't give up on your quest to have a new, wonderful, AF life. Keep trying. I find that I cannot have booze in the house and have to make specific plans on the weekend to not drink. My witching hours on a daily basis are 4-7 p.m., so I have to make plans at that time when the cravings come, and they do come. I have been thinking it through to the better end, remembering how horrible I feel, the anxiety, regrets, depression, achiness, bloating, and disgust I feel. I say to myself, I don't drink, and I get on the computer, call a friend, take a walk, or something else. Have a plan, you can do this and I can tell you want it bad.

It was interesting that you said that the drunk you is not the real you. I feel the same. I like myself sober. The drunk me is annoying and I hate being that person. I'll bet sober, you are an interesting, fun person!!! Get through the hangover and know we are all here to support you and help in any way we can. Sending you strength and hope.