ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

[johnnyh]

Morning Odaters,

(It's still Saturday in parts of the world but hey, what the heck.)

It's Sunday morning 5.45am in SA and I've been awake for about the past 2 hours. Just don't seem to be able to sleep. Day 7 today AF and going ok so far. Just feeling restless. 2 days in a row now that i've been up as early.

Anycase, off to church in the next hour as I'm volunteering today. Am really glad about this as this will take care of most my Sunday and not alow me to be caught off guard by my old friend AL (or enemy rather).

Hope you all have a great and busy day everyone and manage another day AF.

[dancingon]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

You're going great Johnny. :goodjob: Hope to be up there with you again soon.
Just surfing through my urge time right now. I don't find Sundays too bad, but then I have kids around and a dog to walk. Read a good book. But, yeah, come 5pm and my mind starts to think that it won't hurt to get one little bottle of red, seeing as I've only just started and all. Let's call it an experiment...Blah. Blah

[Anotherday]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Hello ODATers,

Well, it's only 12:05 a.m. here and I've yet to go to bed, but technically it's Sunday here so I can post in this thread! Thanks for starting us off Johnnyh!

Let's see, the plan is another AF day. I have math to do and plenty of other stuff, but of course I have to sleep first! I'm just not tired yet.

There are so many things to be done that at times I get overwhelmed. Big things to think about like healthcare reform, keeping my house, getting a job, planning for my future - IOW, all of the things that could send me running for a drink! But a drink would only guarantee I screw up my future and I cannot afford that. I will, however, be paying attention to this historic day and hoping for the best. Let's see what America is made of yet! (for overseas people, today our legislature is to vote on healthcare reform).

To those in faraway places, enjoy your day in progress. To those of us in the states right now, sleep well!

AD

[Anotherday]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Johnnyh, what are you doing to volunteer now? Dancingon, resist the urge of the little red bottle dancing!

[leaveinsilence]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

My day 4 and I'm hoping right now my h/b isn't buying a botttle of wine to go with lunch cause I know from past experiences to day and tomorrow will be the hardest, I guess I'll just keep drinking the coffee I seem to have substitued the machine is on permantly it seems:H

For once the sun is shining yay but I've got a whole load of exam coursework due to be submitted a week tomorrow so I'm gonna throw myself into it and distract myself.

Johnny my sleep pattern was out for about a week or so last time I stopped, you should find it'll settle down over the next week or so, just try not to stress over it too much right now, :l

Have a good day you guys:l:l

[OverIt2007]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Happy AF Sunday!

Its raining here this morning. Yesterday was the most beautiful day, so glad we went to the Zoo yesterday and not today!

I woke up with the worst stomach ache ever! Ouch!!! painful. Im Sooo glad I am not drinking now. I used to get horrible stomach aches from drinking, so I am sure my pain would be tripled if I was still drinking!

I used to get the worst hangovers ever. Not just the physical sickness but the mental battles too. I never want to go back there again, I know you guys do not either!!!

Stay strong today, and start your Monday ready to take on the world!

[Guest]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Not much to report today as I have been everywhere else...Newbies Nest, NDT, Fitness.

Day 6 and tired. Have done lots today without a nana nap and without AL.

Neeeed Bed.

Catch up soon,

Spam xx

[mama bear]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Morning Family
sorry your tummy hurts Overit....
go to bed spam
ok....mama made an ass of herself last night.....wanna hear the gory details?????

went out for typical saturday night dinner with family. always big drinking and laughing night in my house.
Remember I am taking Topa now and it magnifies the effect of booze...at least for me
Well, being the smug and over confident Miss Priss that I am, i overindulged, got hammered, slurred my words and made an idiot of myself in front of my precious children. Oh and walked in to the bathroom door when i got home a have fat lip....pretty, huh?
WTF????

Why would I spend all this money on supplements, herbs, meds, books, shrunken heads, garlic and whatever else i think will work and then think i can moderate? I think I have lost my mind!!!

Anyway, all is forgiven and peaceful.....actually told hubby I popped a zit on my lip so he didn;t notice anything odd.....I am not crying and bawling......have learned here that guilt is useless and not too hungover cause i drank tons of water....
I have just got to get my head screwed on right and get serious about this
I know ya'll have heard me say that 10000000000000000000000 times, but I swear it will stick sooner or later
OK....I think I am done venting
Love you all....it's raining here, too

[pamplepooch]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

hi, just joined and not sure what to do. Can we talk about AL here and what I've had? Messed up at work and dreading tomorrow

[mama bear]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

we can talk about anything you like...as you can see we have few secrets here. Are you ok???

[OverIt2007]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Oh Mama! Are you feeling ok today besides the fat lip? I hope you do not have one of those nasty hangovers like I used to get. Did you just have a "couple" of drinks, or like me half a bottle of vodka or at least one or two bottles of wine???

You know the drill... pick yourself up, try not to hate yourself too much, and think about any lessons learned.

Mama, I failed at this game literally hundreds, if not thousands of times. Its really hard!

I have never posted this before but here goes....

Do you want to know what happened to me to kick me in the ass sober???? There is a story behind it!!!

Ok here goes. I come from a VERY VERY Christian CONSERVATIVE family who live far away from me. I only get to see them a couple of times a year, and they know NOTHING about my drinking issues. I have hid it away, played it off, LIED, and since they live very far away, that is not that hard to do!! I NEVER EVER EVER have drank in front of them!!

So my family is here staying one month, and I am thinking COOL!!! This is my CHANCE to get a good month (I will not, refuse to, CANNOT drink in front of my family)

So do you see where this is going??? About 3 weeks into their visit I came home plowwed drunk off my ass! Like so drunk I was almost passing out, BAD DRUNK! I had DROVE home that way...made it in the driveway, thank you Lord!

My parents were so worried and confused!!! What is wrong with you???? We are worried about you!! Are you ok????

Fast forward next morning. "What was wrong with you, were you drunk???" They had figured it out of course. They were scared for me, confused, and upset with me. I caused them so much worry, confusion, and hurt, and they are old people.

Mama, I spent the day in humiliation like I had NEVER known before. My family who I LOVE more than anything, and who I have HID this nasty problem of mine for years, saw me in the state I swore they never would.

Thats it Mama. I realized that was the straw that broke the camels back. literally!!!

So you see, I had to have some serious trama to get it right. My bottom I guess.. I never want to feel like that way again.

:l

[mama bear]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

3 beers, 1 boubon and seven, 1 glass of wine, coffee with amaretto and then 3 more beers....that I drove to the store to buy....dumb ass that i am
My son's girlfriend just texted me and said he was so upset with me last night he was about to cry (he's 18) and that he loves me so much and wants me to quit...... now there's some motivation for you.
I am sorry that you were humiliated in front of your family but it sounds like some good came from it, huh?
I am so glad you have become my friend....it means alot to me.....it really does.
And no, the hangover isn't too bad....just the pride and shame of acting like a drunko in front of my babies (14 and 18) and hubs....but he was drinking too....that's a whole 'nuther issue!!!!!!

[OverIt2007]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Im very glad to have you as my friend too!!

Mama, the humiliation I went through was very painful, but the end result is that I have "seemed" to quit drinking. But remember, my own son was not enough to get me sober before. How sad is that?

Maybe this can be your "bottom". I know your going through alot of shame right now, but It really CAN be the last time you go though it.


In my cell phone messages to myself...

"CELEBRATE.. TODAY is the LAST hangover you will ever face!!!!""""

And so far it has been.

[mama bear]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

good for you...we are on the same path my friend.........

[rustop61]

ODAT, Sunday, 21 March 2010

Hi all ODAT'rs

Hope you are feeling a bit better Mama. Overit gave lots of good advice there. Today is another day so start afresh, no looking back.

Had a very busy but productive day. Things are so much easier when you are AF. Just a quick check-in, hope everyone enjoys the rest of Sunday.

Rustop