Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

[Panno]

This is my 4th attempt!! When I joined here back in Feb the first week went really well and I got to a full 7AF - slipped on the 8th and ever since then I just can't get passed the 4the day!! I know its me and my head - and its like I shut everything out so I don't listen to the good advice.

I had a good exhibition this weekend and there was lots of wine flowing - guess who drank the most!!!! I did not make a fool of myself or anything like that but I just have more than anyone else and then I always continue when I get home.

I'm back on my 2AF day and soul searching!!!

Thanks for letting me ramble.
:upset::upset:

[hillsidetime]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

Hey Panno, the good news is that you are here, and writing about how you feel. Also it seems to me, that you understand and feel that you are drinking too much. The 4th day seems to be a tough one, for me it was the first weekend that was tough. Have you tried writing out the reasons why you don't want to drink and posting them, or keeping them with you to read when you get the urges? Hang in there Panno, you can do it.
Hill

[mama bear]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

I am the same way Panno...i have all the best intentions and motivations and cave every time....let's figure this out together....

[spuddleduck]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

panno - great that you didnt make a fool of yourself. that was near impossible for me.
if i had a magic wand i would sprinkle fairy dust on us all to banish the evil AL from our lives. im now on campral from the docs. not sure yet if its helping but the thought is kinda helping.

[mama bear]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

I am proud of you spuddle...but i stillcrack up at the thought of you climbing that wall in a cast

[JackieClaire]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

aha the 4 day cycle,
Does it begin like this
1. I'll just have one drink,oh I'll have another,then another..........
2.I've woken up so hung over,guilty,full of shame I'll never drink again
3. I feel so much better
4. OK, I'll just have one little drink........

Please believe me Panno,mama,hill I have repeated this pattern so many times.

If I can break this cycle any one can.

J x
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[spuddleduck]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

mama bear;826531 wrote: I am proud of you spuddle...but i stillcrack up at the thought of you climbing that wall in a cast

shame i havent a photo of it, but i was being invisible at the time under the magic cloak of AL. perhaps i should ask the neighbors. no way i could do it sober, even without the cast

[Panno]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

JC bang on the nail!!! on my next 4th day I am going to get someone to lock me in the loo so I can't have any!! (don't ask me why I said loo it was the first thing that came into my head!)

[spuddleduck]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

yeah jc - and if i feel so much better after a couple, i will feel even better after a couple more, and hey im bound to feel sooooo much better after even more.....

[spuddleduck]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

panno, if youre anything like me you will have some stashed away in the loo, not actually in it but hidden somewhere, so check it out first

[Panno]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

I'm right with you Mama Bear - I also think my problem is :

1. I have never wrote a plan
2. I am always putting things off till tomorrow (my worst trait!!)
3. Possibly still in denial - wanting to moderate and not abstain
4. Hate my job - work away from home through the week (thats the toughest part for me - weekends are the easiest!!)


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[Panno]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

Spuddle - lucky or unlucky which ever way you look at it I never got to the stage of hiding it.

Just noticed your AF days - 30 or 31 :yay::jumpwow:

[fennel]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

Panno;826547 wrote: I'm right with you Mama Bear - I also think my problem is :

1. I have never wrote a plan
2. I am always putting things off till tomorrow (my worst trait!!)
3. Possibly still in denial - wanting to moderate and not abstain
4. Hate my job - work away from home through the week (thats the toughest part for me - weekends are the easiest!!)


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Which reminds me, I need to make a "plan".

Panno, hang in there. I just made it past night numero due. This has been really difficult. Can you come onto this forum when you're feeling like drinking? Go into chat and hang out with some of the cool folks there?

[NoraC]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

Panno - I know what you mean. Took me quite a while to get past that cycle. Fennel is right. I started hanging around here and reading & posting and reading & posting. I forget but are you taking L-Glutamine. That really helped me get thru the immediate cravings. When, I just couldn't stand it and I was going to drink. I would take a scoop of the L-Glutamine and mix it up in my juice and drink it straight down. And, it helped. Now, mind you, sometimes I didn't want to because I knew it would make me not want to drink. But, I did it anyway. I also am taking Topamax and am finally up to 200 mg. That has helped a lot. Wishing you well. You are not alone on this journey. We are all with you. :l

[Guest]

Can't get passed the 4AF day!!

Panno,

It will come. I've had lots of 2,3,4 days and I've just cracked 8.

Just get strong on those AF days and make a plan.

In the meantime, I would think your not drinking as much as you used to. That's where I'm at, at the moment.

Hang in there.

Spam xx