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    Trust Faith

    When I first came on this site I had a few AF's and then managed like 16AF's or something like that (can't remember - but it was pretty amazing).

    Now I have been on and off. I have had many AF4's and 5's then I cave. The AL Beast keeps tricking me into thinking I have a pretty good handle on this now and I can give in once and awhile.

    I find lately I am not waiting for that first hard core craving to subside. I just give in without a second thought.

    I must have TRUST & FAITH that the craving really will go away. Usually when I beat the first craving during the witching hour any other cravings that night are much easier to knock down.

    So tonight when they hit I will remind myself that "This craving WILL GO AWAY" just wait it out.

    Trust and Faith is important for everyone.

    Believe in yourself that the craving will go away. Let's all have a great AF day!

    :happyheart:
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    Thanks for the post Meech. My pattern sounds like yours... I was doing quite well and then lately just giving in the second the thought pops into my head instead of letting it ride.

    Yesterday I went to the drug store, which happened to be next to the liquor store. I argued with myself for about 3 seconds and then I went in. Up until that point I wasn't thinking of going to the liquor store at all. I bought one of those 4 packs of small bottles of wine, telling myself that I would just have one or two....but within an hour and a half all 4 were gone. I'm so upset and really angry with myself.

    To avoid some of this in the future, I won't go to any store near the liquor store after 5pm. If I would have done my drug store shopping in the morning (a time when I never get the urge to go to the liquor store) I would have had a better chance of stopping this. I live in Pennsylvania and you can't get liquor anywhere other than a state run liquor store and fortunately there aren't that many around my house. It also helps that it just gets too embarassing to show up at the same wine store a few times a week.

    I also have to have faith that the feeling will pass instead of giving in, because it really does if you let it go.

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      #3
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      Meech, LFP, you are recognizing the patterns. I hope you ask for help here, and use what you are offered.
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      Never look down on a person unless you are offering them a hand up.
      awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, Being creative, being Unique, being you - changing things to the way YOU know they can BE - Living the Life you Always imagined.awprint:

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        #4
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        Hi all,

        Again, I want to thank everyone for posting and giving good advice and giving me good ideas of how to get through social events and my sleeping problem. Today is my day 6 af and feeling good about it. Last year I went 6 days once but then came Friday...... I guess I have conditioned myself, as a lot of us have that the weekends are for partying and relaxing with Al but the thing is I'm not even working right now. I lost my job last year due to the economy and now I'm job hunting. Those of you in the U.S. know how tough things are. I don't know about other countries but there are no jobs right now in my neck of the woods. Anyway, I'm used to using Friday as an excuse to drink more than usual and relax. We always go to dinner and have a drink or two and then I would drink a bottle of wine and sometimes more after we got home. Then, my Saturday would be wasted trying to recover from the hangover. I know most of you can relate to this. What is it about the weekends? Since I'm not working I shouldn't have that need to relax and unwind with al. So, tomorrow is Friday will be my real test. I can't remember when I've gone longer than 6 days af. I think it's been about 20 years.

        looking for peace - here in Nevada you can buy al almost anywhere almost any time of day. Grocery stores, gas stations, etc. so I never had to make a special trip.....I just bought it with my groceries which made it TOO EASY.

        I'm tired of wasting money and time on al. It's not worth it. There are so many things I haven't done that I want to do and al doesn't fit in anywhere in my plans for a better life.

        Hugs to all,

        Kit
        NF since January 3, 1998
        AF since March 20, 2010

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          #5
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          Welcome, KK, and hang in there. You've taken a good look at your pattern. Now decide if it's one you want to continue, or you're ready to really make a change. Ask for help, hon. You can find so many here whereever you look.
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          Never look down on a person unless you are offering them a hand up.
          awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, Being creative, being Unique, being you - changing things to the way YOU know they can BE - Living the Life you Always imagined.awprint:

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            #6
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            Trust and Faith. What a good topic. Early on, what I hung onto was the idea that if other people could stop drinking, then somehow so could I. If other people found that cravings eventually passed, then so would mine. I think a main benefit of the My Way Out Forum is that we can come here when we are new to the attempt at getting sober, and realizing we are not alone like I thought I was.

            The cravings WILL pass.

            I like this line from KK:

            I know most of you can relate to this. What is it about the weekends? Since I'm not working I shouldn't have that need to relax and unwind with al.
            I too used to think that AL was a tool to help me relax and unwind. I too found that....umm.....something was wrong with the picture I had created for myself because at some point it just didn't apply. AL IS TRICKY AND WE LIE TO OURSELVES ALL THE TIME ABOUT OUR REASONS FOR DRINKING. Me? For the last years of my addiction, I drank because I am addicted to AL, pure and simple.

            I have given up any glammed up notions of "unwinding" and "relaxing." If I want to unwind and relax these days, I go to the gym.

            If I can, you can.

            DG
            Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
            Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

            One day at a time.

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              Doggy, you ROCK! Great post, and information!
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              Never look down on a person unless you are offering them a hand up.
              awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, Being creative, being Unique, being you - changing things to the way YOU know they can BE - Living the Life you Always imagined.awprint:

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                #8
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                Meech,

                Trust DG!
                I always have & here I am ready to celebrate 1 year AF tomorrow

                I always believed DG when she says 'If I can you can'!

                You can do it Meech - just wait out those cravings, they do pass!

                Lav
                AF since 03/26/09
                NF since 05/19/09
                Success comes one day at a time :thumbs:

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                  #9
                  Trust Faith

                  Hello To Everyone, I haven't been here in a while,I have 30 days today af. I was in the er last month/intesive care then in critical care because of chest pain and binge drinking,the 2nd day i had hallunations and almost a seizure.I am 44 yr's young and have been drinking since the age of 15,I am very grateful to be alive.I go to aa meetings but really don't get the 12 step principle's, execpt step 1 when i drink i really don;t no when i'll stop.Let me explain i can drink maybe 8 can's of beer starting around 8;00 pm then go to bed around 11;00 this may last a week,then the weekends come and i find myself reaching in the frig at 10 or 11 am for a beer this will start me of on a wicked binge then im drinking in the mornings to get rid of the shakes etc,etc.So this has been my MO for many yr's i am a stay at home drunk.I MUST stop believing that i can drink like a so called 'NORMAL" person i have tried everything,But i give in and say the hell with everything and all im doing is slowly killing myself i wonder sometime's a sane person wouldn't do this over and over again.I was told i was drinking because i was deppressed bs i drank because i wanted to! weather i was happy or feeling blue or just bored really didn't need a reason i am a compulsive person i don't no a person with a addiction that ant.Any way im really trying and will check in more often thanks for letting me rammble.Trucker123

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                    #10
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                    Truck, so glad you came back. Listen to the wisdom above.
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                    Never look down on a person unless you are offering them a hand up.
                    awprint: RUBY Imagine yourself doing What you love and loving What you do, Being happy From the inside Out, experiencing your Dreams wide awake, Being creative, being Unique, being you - changing things to the way YOU know they can BE - Living the Life you Always imagined.awprint:

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                      #11
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                      Trucker, congratulations on your 30 AF days. Hang onto that with both hands, one day at a time! I too can't stop once I start. I too became a very home bound drinker. 10AM? That was a LATE start for me in the last of the drinking years. If I can do this sobriety thing, you can too. Believe! I do.

                      DG
                      Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
                      Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

                      One day at a time.

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                        #12
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                        Trucker,
                        You can do it. Keep posting, stay strong and believe in yourself because you are worth it. Stop killing yourself slowly.

                        Lav - You are a true inspiration. Wow a year.

                        Doggy Girl - dido for what I said to Lav. You are going to be hitting your 2nd year anniversary before you know it.

                        Kitkat, Ruby and everyone. Yes the planning is so important. I haven't done too much of that but i shall start.

                        Cravings will be starting soon....
                        1) get dinner on for family
                        2) head to pool for swim
                        3) Have a snack on way home so I'm not starving when I come in door as that's a nasty trigger for me (empty stomach = HUGE AL Cravings)
                        4) come home and EAT SUPPER IMMEDIATELY (to ensure I squash the cravings for the night)
                        5) hit the pillow sober with a smile


                        Good luck all have FAITH AND TRUST that the cravings will let up. Just wait it out through distraction, meditation, hot bath whatever it takes. They will subside.

                        :l

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                          #13
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                          Looks like an awesome plan there Meech! You GO!!

                          DG
                          Sobriety Date = 5/22/08
                          Nicotine Free Date = 2/27/07

                          One day at a time.

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                            #14
                            Trust Faith

                            Meech, Truck, I can really relate - it is the internal battle isn't it? Beat yourself up in the morning and then give in because you can really handle it this time - just a few to take the edge off and WHAM, why not a couple more? Recognizing why we drink is half the battle, I think, the other half is changing the habits/situations that trigger us to drink. I don't mean anything "deep" either - for me it can be sitting on the back deck enjoying beautiful weather. Where is my glass of wine?? Those are the toughest moments for me....

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                              #15
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                              Hi RubyWillow,Doggiegirl,Meech,Farm Girl...And to all the other's that welcomed me in chat...I have 32 day's today and feel good.. really good thanks again...BE GOOD TO YOU SELF

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