KatieB

[ATLThrash]

How are you today? Was just wondering how it has all gone with your child and where your head is at now-- just thinking of you!

[KatieB]

KatieB

Panicking

Hi ATLThrash,
Thank you so much for caring to start a thread about me.. I woke up this morning feeling very panicky and anxious.. I had a great day yesterday, and only had 1 glass of AL, a glass of champagne with my lunch in a beautiful spot.. but I did not buy or have anymore so I am so proud of myself for that..
This morning, is the day before the court case.. I am feeling very helpless and scared.. I dont know how to get my head around it all.. I did not sleep well at all last night, lots of nightmares.. I was in bed for 9 hours but I think I only slept for around 5 of restless sleep.. I just dont know how to deal with this! I am close to tears from the anxiety of it all...

[ATLThrash]

KatieB

Thinking of you

KatieB--

I will think about you-- I sleep badly and I knwo anxiety is huge in it-- but know that given what you have said here in my opinion you do have soem real posiitves in your case and in the bigger pic-- your life!!! Even if the court case does not go as you want-- I really think that in the long run if you stick to what you have done-- it will. One glass of champagne is great. I love champagne and if I had a chance I bet I coudl drink 2 bottles!! Be proud.

Keep us informed!

[mollyka]

KatieB

Katie
Delighted your day went off well and its natural that now thats over the court case is looming up like a monster. I'm guessing that like any huge momentous moments in our lives, its the waiting for something to happen is sometimes the worst time, when it actually begins you will be caught up in the whirlwind and probably won't even have time to think. Naturally you're sleeping badly, I wonder if you stay up until you're exhausted tonight rather than rocking and rolling in bed, even just watch television to take your mind off things.
This may sound naive (spl) but I think you sound like a lovely kind person - and Mum - and I'm sure that will shine out in court.
Thinking of you
Molly:l:l:l

[dancingon]

KatieB

We'll be thinking of you KatieB. You can't really prepare for the court case, I guess. You can just determine to put your best and most determined self forward. Be strong. You sound like a loving Mum, no matter what you've done in the past.

[rubywillow]

KatieB

Thoughts are with you, Katie.

[Mazzie]

KatieB

Hi KatyB

Have been thinking of you and wondering how you are. Sending you lots of hugs for tomorrow.

[NoraC]

KatieB

I am thinking of you Katie. You are going to be so surrounded with positive energy as you are in that court!!! You are going to feel the energy from all around the world right there in the room with you. :l
Katie - you are a remarkable woman. I am so impressed with how far you have already come. I am thankful that I have had the pleasure of getting to know you and am looking forward to continuing this friendship.
Stay strong Katie!!! Your son is worth it!! Remember we are with you!!!!!

[KatieB]

KatieB

Thank you all,
I am feeling a bit better now.. trying take my mind off things.. my ex came and picked up our son this morning as he has to take him to childcare in the morning (he has a car, i dont) - i have to leave early to get the train to the court.. im kind of thankful I have this day to myself to get myself in the right mindset to prepare for tomorrow.. i am going to pamper myself and get a funny DVD out shortly so I can have a laugh at something! I am staying away from AL thats for sure.. (and the valiums)..
I'll be back on later to keep you updated..
Katie xxx

[~EVA~]

KatieB

Wishing you happy thoughts....
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[johnnyh]

KatieB

Hey Katie,

My thoughts are with you as well. Just try to keep yourself busy today. You will do this. Don't worry about things you can't control right now. (wow that's easy to say, hey?! but try and do it ) Really glad your day went off so well yesterday. Busy day ahead so in case i won't check in today, my prayers are with you for tomorrow!!

[KatieB]

KatieB

Thank you Nora, Mazzie, Johnny, Eva, and everyone else..
I have managed to preoccupy myself pretty well today.. I ended up getting a scary horror film rather than a comedy! (i dont know why.. but the fear helped take my mind of things lol!) - anyone seen Case39? - excellent movie with Renee Zellweger.. very scary..
Then a good friend came round to visit me for an hour which was lovely.. and i've just treated myself to a gourmet pizza for dinner as i didnt feel like cooking.. I have had only 1 valium today (which was only 2mg) but no AL! so I am feeling proud of myself (again..) - previously I would have slugged a whole bottle of wine and possibly more to deal with the anxiety but it goes to show I am learning different ways of coping.. thanks to my counsellor and this wonderful site
Not long to go now, its nearly 6pm here.. I will make sure I get a good night's rest, and I am all prepared for tomorrow,
Katie xxx

[NoraC]

KatieB

Thanks for checking in Katie. I have been thinking about you. You are doing great. You should be feeling proud of yourself. :goodjob: I wish that I could be there in person to be at your side but know that I am with you in spirit. :l

[Guest]

KatieB

Hi Kaite,

This time tomorrow is will all be over.

What time is the case?

Take us all in there with you. Look into the public gallery (if there is one) and we will be there. Alternatively, we will take some "drink me", shrink and fit into your handbag.

Seriously though, we will be thinking about you tomorrow. When it's finished, don't drink AL. Grab a coffee, a smoothy and congratulate yourself for your courage.

Love, hugs and strength,

Spam x

[TranqWilly]

KatieB

Yes KB. We're behind you dear.

And your fine character is showing!

You should be proud of the many positive steps you've taken. Good luck tomorrow. Speak and act from the heart with the dignity you've earned. You'll be fine.

Take care.
tw