Hello everyone! I wanted to say thanks for letting me "subscribe" and read
through the main list! I have had a huge problem with alcohol for what seems
like yesterday- but really has been about seven years. I have tried all sorts of
things- AA- which I think really only made me worse, fighting the good fight
alone, opening up to people- who when non-drinkers often backfires and makes me
worse because of their judgements.
I have had no luck talking to doctors- I tell them the truth and they
immediately brand me as alcoholic and try to slam me into yet another 12 step
program. Rush me off for tests and then are almost dissapointed when there
hasn't yet been any "permenant" damage caused by my drinking.
I'm stuck in a weird limbo- can't have relationships with people who drink like
I do (that would be dangerous!). Can't mantain relationships with people who
DON'T drink like I do (They seem to think I'm dangerous!). So mostly I find
myself keeping to myself and living sort of a double life- a lie. I feel like
that lie is really starting to catch up with me.
So- I have to try something new.
So- I am trying this- and also looking into the MM program. I am not
looking for an easy answer- I know there likely isn't one- but I am looking for
at least some hope to the start of an answer. I just can't go on the way I have
been- not anymore- but I'm not yet sure what to do with myself alternatively! Or
my emotions and reactions to things- which I usually react to almost everything-
by drinking!
My biggest coscern now with this program- I had a BAD experience mixing pro-zac/ klonazepam with alcohol years ago after my divorce and a BAD experience mixing Zoloft (Wellbutrin) with ME trying to quit smoking a few months ago- TOPOMAX sounds too good to be true! But if it's the answer- good god where do I sign up! Anyone know of a sympathetic doctor in Northern Florida? Typically- as I said- Doctors don't want to touch me with a ten-foot pole!
Anyway! Hello!
through the main list! I have had a huge problem with alcohol for what seems
like yesterday- but really has been about seven years. I have tried all sorts of
things- AA- which I think really only made me worse, fighting the good fight
alone, opening up to people- who when non-drinkers often backfires and makes me
worse because of their judgements.
I have had no luck talking to doctors- I tell them the truth and they
immediately brand me as alcoholic and try to slam me into yet another 12 step
program. Rush me off for tests and then are almost dissapointed when there
hasn't yet been any "permenant" damage caused by my drinking.
I'm stuck in a weird limbo- can't have relationships with people who drink like
I do (that would be dangerous!). Can't mantain relationships with people who
DON'T drink like I do (They seem to think I'm dangerous!). So mostly I find
myself keeping to myself and living sort of a double life- a lie. I feel like
that lie is really starting to catch up with me.
So- I have to try something new.
So- I am trying this- and also looking into the MM program. I am not
looking for an easy answer- I know there likely isn't one- but I am looking for
at least some hope to the start of an answer. I just can't go on the way I have
been- not anymore- but I'm not yet sure what to do with myself alternatively! Or
my emotions and reactions to things- which I usually react to almost everything-
by drinking!
My biggest coscern now with this program- I had a BAD experience mixing pro-zac/ klonazepam with alcohol years ago after my divorce and a BAD experience mixing Zoloft (Wellbutrin) with ME trying to quit smoking a few months ago- TOPOMAX sounds too good to be true! But if it's the answer- good god where do I sign up! Anyone know of a sympathetic doctor in Northern Florida? Typically- as I said- Doctors don't want to touch me with a ten-foot pole!
Anyway! Hello!
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