Today, out of the blue, after a year of no contact, dead silence....guess who decides to call me? Yep, none other than THE ex boyfriend.
Now let me set the stage. Today is the first night/weekend of my sobriety that I will be alone...my daughter is with her father. Was already going to be a tough weekend, a trigger.
Second, the person that has been plaguing my thoughts suddenly decides to call me out of the blue.
Perfect time to drink, to mask the feelings. Welll, NOT this time. I'm tired of covering up the wounds with a Beer Band Aid. This time there is NO band-aid. Time to heal the wound itself.
I just find it interesting the "timing" of things that happen. I can't help but feel that this is some sort of test.
I am thankful that I have my ammunition...Antabuse. It's really making me strong at a time I would have possibly faltered. I know making it through the next few days will only make me stronger.
:h
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