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[Mike R.]

Hey,
most of you oldies here know me, but I have a question.
I had weird day today. I went to work, didn't have much of anything to do,
had a beer (or two, as apposed to what people are telling me), anyway,
I don't remember having too much. But then that's the problem, I don't remember shit!
I blacked out from nothing! I'm about to loose the woman I love and everything I've been working for. I feel like I got a lil angle bangin on the back of my head saying
"see?! I told ya so... I told ya! ya dumb FUCK!!!!!!"

[Mike R.]

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How do I tell her it's not what I want, it's just THERE!!!
I can't lose her.. again!!! not for this!

[greeneyes]

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Hi Mike. Your story isn't the first one like that I've heard. The "how could that possibly happen" one. I haven't got an answer but apparently it happens. You don't say if you're modding or AF. I guess all I can say is you might better BE AF and remember that actions speak louder than words. Hope you sort things out.

[Mike R.]

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and what if I say that I drink to be me, I'm me cause I drink,
and the only way I can quit drinking is to change as a human being,
but I don't want to!
I can't deal with people, I rather be drunk or dead than to deal with people!!!!
bunch of fuckers people are!
excuse my french, you know I love ya!

[greeneyes]

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Well then looks like you'll loose the woman you love.

[mama bear]

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ditto Greeneyes.....

[Quit Quitting]

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Hi Mike

Is AL really worth the woman you love? I have read somewhere on here something about learning to love the sober you. I am sure sober Mike is a much happier guy to be around.

Have you thought of showing her this site? Maybe she could learn from here and find ways to distract you from AL.

Good Luck and don't let AL ruin/run your life it really is not worth it.

Q

[Mike R.]

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it seems like we're all looking for someone to make us take our own advice!

[girly wirly]

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mike

hi. you aren't mike because you drink, and you don't drink because you're mike.

you drink because you have the disease alcoholism.

somewhere along the line your disease took over and stopped you being the sober you, the real you!! i'm sure a length of sobriety time would make you see a clearer, nicer picture of not only yourself but those around you. is a bottle really worth swapping your relationship for?

much love, take care of yourself honey.:h

[runningwind]

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Mike R.;840737 wrote: and what if I say that I drink to be me, I'm me cause I drink,
and the only way I can quit drinking is to change as a human being,
but I don't want to!
I can't deal with people, I rather be drunk or dead than to deal with people!!!!
bunch of fuckers people are!
excuse my french, you know I love ya!

Know one is their self... when they drink...

runningwind

[fennel]

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runningwind;840776 wrote: Know one is their self... when they drink...

runningwind

I agree with runningwind.

[Guest]

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Mike,
It sounds like you made the choice then.

[hazeleyes]

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Hi Mike
Great comments and thanks for sharing.

Sometimes I find when I don't like people(not your girl) its because I am struggling inside myself. Its not really about them. Maybe you should stop beating yourself up and make a list of the things you like about yourself, what would someone who loves you say about you. Focus on the positive and the positive will grow inside you. When the negative thoughts come, shake your head and say "no I'm not going to think that" Re-focus on the positive things about you and your life.

AL tells us some crazy lies thats why its a trap we need to get out of.
Hope this helps
H

[BUDDY BLACK]

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MIKE, I CAN RELATE AT TIMES, BUT KEEP FIGHTING DONT LET THE BOOZE WIN!!

[BUDDY BLACK]

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MIKE, HANG IN THERE,KEEP FIGHTING DONT LET THE BOTTLE WIN!!