I fell down in a blackout on Sunday and hurt my foot. What a dumb move. But it's just bruised and will be ok with rest.
One great thing I would like to share is that listening to all of you has made me own up to and admit my problem to my family...and the support has been incredible. I guess I was a way better faker/isolator than I thought.
When I started to ask for help in small ways over the past few days, it was there. While I know that many here really are alone in this, it was a real epiphany to realize that although I thought I had to "go it alone," it wasn't that way. So I'd love to be the support for those who really do have to go it alone...because support is key.
Sure, I'm as embarrassed as anyone else to say, "Yes, I have a drinking problem." Especially to my family because I'm the "successful one." NOT. Well, maybe.
I've finally allowed family members to keep my daughter entertained for a few hours after school, deliver some food to keep me well because the thought of going to the store or cooking right now is...ouch. :h Please, keep me from the Walmart
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One more day of resting and allowing in-house detox. Then, tomorrow, I'll get it together. I vow to go to the grocery store...maybe even stop at the Japanese place and get some noodle soup with my daughter.
One thing I have to say it that being honest with my daughter has made all the difference after what she saw on Sunday. Imagine your mother passed out on the floor! I've had to tell her about how my own mother was an alcoholic, and how I'm not going to go down that path. My progress in AL has been so new that I could keep it a secret. No more. I want my daughter to know what is happening so it WON'T happen to her...or her children.
The good news is that I'm looking like myself again, even though it's only been a few days and I'm tapering with long periods of no AL. I've done this before, but not without a real PLAN to getting it over with for good. Shower, makeup, hair. At least I'm not afraid to answer the door.
I know many say that people KNOW even if you think they don't, but I was really good. Really good at hiding my problem. Until I blacked out this weekend and didn't pull myself together before anyone could find out.
My thinking is getting clear.
I have to send the many thanks to everyone who has encouraged me here and sent me a PM.
:thanks:
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