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Welcome, Margaret. Good luck with your journey. I am only 10 days AF but hopeful that I can keep it up. I am 42, have a good marriange, 2 kids, and a very successful career. I was a bottle of wine (or more) a night drinker. I have stopped many times for periods of time but when I go back it just seems that I drink more an more. I can't stop at one glass. I too woke feeling regret and disappointment every morning and tried to tell myself that "today I will not drink". It never seemed to work. This last few months I started to have regular blackouts. I am still learning about things that people told me or things that I did that I have no memory of. That really scares me and prompted me to see a counselor which has been also very helpful. a This group has been great for me to keep on track. Supportive people and everyone knows a little about how you are feeling and what you are experiencing. Again good luck and keep posting. It really does help!

[Margaret345]

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Day 6 for me. I just reread my posts in this thread, that I started over a year ago. I wish I had stuck it through then and stayed sober. I really do. I have struggled so much with this addiction over the past year. It's really got a grip on me. I drank like a fish last Wednesday and puked my guts out. I hadn't done that in a long time. I usually tap out at a bottle, maybe bottle and a half at the most. Thank God my kids were at the in laws and didn't see me in my disgusting state. I know I have to take responsibility for my actions but my husband continued to buy me drink after drink even though I was obviously drunk. I probably would have gotten pissed at him if he told me I had had too much though. lol

I'm still taking it day by day. It'll feel great to have a week under my belt tomorrow!

[Margaret345]

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winetowater;1155156 wrote: Hi Margaret,

I'm brand new here and this is my Day 2 as well. I've read through some of your posts and I can absolutely relate. My longest sober period was during pregnancy and breastfeeding. Let's do this together!
Yes! Thank you! I am going to look up your posts so I can follow your journey. The support here is just awesome.

e-g-73;1155224 wrote: Day 3 for me... Let's push each other - we can do this!We can do this! It won't be easy, but will be so worth it.

Queenbug;1155949 wrote: Hey Margaret & eg...I'm back on Day 2 too...aiming to find my Day 10 mojo....keep each other going? Hope you are ok x

I just read your thread about making it to 10 days. You can do it! You've done it before, so you know you can do it again. Take it day by day.

Getting There;1155956 wrote: Welcome, Margaret. Good luck with your journey. I am only 10 days AF but hopeful that I can keep it up. I am 42, have a good marriange, 2 kids, and a very successful career. I was a bottle of wine (or more) a night drinker. I have stopped many times for periods of time but when I go back it just seems that I drink more an more. I can't stop at one glass. I too woke feeling regret and disappointment every morning and tried to tell myself that "today I will not drink". It never seemed to work. This last few months I started to have regular blackouts. I am still learning about things that people told me or things that I did that I have no memory of. That really scares me and prompted me to see a counselor which has been also very helpful. a This group has been great for me to keep on track. Supportive people and everyone knows a little about how you are feeling and what you are experiencing. Again good luck and keep posting. It really does help!

Thank you! How did you find such a supportive group. I would love to find a good counselor or therapist soon. I think it would just help to talk, you know, just get it all out to someone who won't judge you.

[Margaret345]

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Had a great day today! Day 7 conquered!!! See you tomorrow when I wake up NOT hung over.

[Queenbug]

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Yay Margaret! Just finishing Day 6....so right there with you! Feels good eh?
Good times! x

[FlyAway]

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You are doing a fantastic job Margaret! First week down. It'll just get easier and easier!

[winetowater]

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Day 8 AF for me - how is everyone doing? I am still a bit foggy some of the time, still have some insomnia and still struggling the irritability BUT here is what is SO GREAT:

1. Waking up without a hangover!
2. Not waking up in my clothes from the day before
3. Not wondering what phone conversations I may have had and forgotten from the night before
4. Being fully conscious and sober when reading to my little boy and putting him to bed
5. Not strategizing when I'm going to get to the market (and figuring out which rotating market to go to) to get my wine each day
6. Not having to hid and secretly dispose of my empty wine bottles

Oh, and there's so much more... hope everyone is doing well.

[FlyAway]

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winetowater;1158197 wrote: Day 8 AF for me - how is everyone doing? I am still a bit foggy some of the time, still have some insomnia and still struggling the irritability BUT here is what is SO GREAT:

1. Waking up without a hangover!
2. Not waking up in my clothes from the day before
3. Not wondering what phone conversations I may have had and forgotten from the night before
4. Being fully conscious and sober when reading to my little boy and putting him to bed
5. Not strategizing when I'm going to get to the market (and figuring out which rotating market to go to) to get my wine each day
6. Not having to hid and secretly dispose of my empty wine bottles

Oh, and there's so much more... hope everyone is doing well.

This differences in our relationships with our children make this all worth it. I have heard so many people on here say that they can tell a difference in their family dynamics within a couple weeks. Happier kids and setting a better example for them. All great stuff!

[Margaret345]

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I LOVED reading to my son SOBER tonight! I am trying to focus on what is best for them when I get cravings. Obviously me wanting a drink isn't best for them, so I focus on what I could be doing in that moment for them. I was at the pool today and I did get a craving for a driink. I just kept telling myself, "focus on the kids. Enjoy them and the fun they are having." It worked! Once I was able to just relax and be in the moment, my mental obsession of how I could get a drink went away.

On to day 9!

[Margaret345]

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Feeling good today. I am a little worried about Friday night cravings tonight. I'll start with the L-glut and make some plans to stay busy so I'm not bored.

Off to the beach with the kids for awhile. Enjoy the day! I'm so happy to be sober today! Day 9.

[e-g-73]

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You are doing amazing! I am telling myself the same thing - focus on those two little bundle of joys - my kids are 4 and 6 and just full of energy and joy.
How old are yours?

Stay strong!

Take care

eg

[Margaret345]

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Mine are the same age as yours! Love those boys.

We had a great day at the beach today. The friends we met up with were all leaving their kids at home with a babysitter after and heading off to happy hour. I considered it, but decided I would most likely give in and a drink, or 5, if I went. I really wanted to go, but I know I did the right thing just heading home with my kids. I was sad to miss out on the fun, but I am still so new to being sober and I correlate a fun night out, with drinking. I don't know what I would do with myself at a happy hour without a drink. I just need more time.
Part of me fears I will be a big bore if I went out and didn’t drink. A drink to me was like a wakeup call to my fun side. I feel like I need to learn to be fun and interesting without being buzzed. Sorry if this doesn’t make sense! lol At least in my own head I feel like I am more fun and just have more personality when I drink. I guess it will take me a little time to figure out how to have a good time without alcohol.

Double digits tomorrow!

[Margaret345]

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Made it through the weekend! Wednesday will be two weeks for me.

I am so tired and have been sleeping 9 hours at night. Crazy, I haven't done that for years. I'll need to start going to bed a lot earlier if this keeps up. Maybe it's a temporary side effect of quitting AL?

[Juja]

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Margaret345;1158940 wrote: Mine are the same age as yours! Love those boys.


Part of me fears I will be a big bore if I went out and didn?t drink. A drink to me was like a wakeup call to my fun side. I feel like I need to learn to be fun and interesting without being buzzed. Sorry if this doesn?t make sense! lol At least in my own head I feel like I am more fun and just have more personality when I drink. I guess it will take me a little time to figure out how to have a good time without alcohol.

Double digits tomorrow!

I had more personality, too, when I drank, but it eventually morphed into something ugly. I've decided it's okay to be quieter and less manic, than to be smashed and a jerk.

Congrats on your double digits!

[A New Me]

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Help!?

:new: Wow! I didn't think anyone was having the same problem as me. I've been able to stop drinking during the week for 1 week now. Got tired of waking up in the wine fog, sometimes late for work, irritable when I do get there. I never intend to over-do it, just one more glass of wine will ok - and then another...and the next morning I'm so mad and disappointed in myself. Sip a glass of wine?? lol But everyone around me drinks and I wish I could do it in moderation. Apparently, I can't. I don't know why. I need to make a change. I really hope I can.