I never thought I would be able to do it but I joined MWO last month so that I could be AF for my 47th birthday. Today is that day and I feel truly blessed. There are still rough times when it feels like it would be easier to reach for the bottle and drink all your troubles away.
Yet, sitting here quietly on a beautiful, bright sunny day I realize today how loved I am. My teenage daughter texts and phones me constantly to hang out now and to just say I love you Mom. My family, my friends have always been there for me, I was just in too much of a haze to realize it. Not knowing if I'd be too hungover I would avoid ever making plans into the future.....wow, what a loss for so many years.
Now, I live for plans, how exciting, how adventurous, how fun. Greatest of all though is I am learning to be alone and enjoy my own company and appreciate the quiet times.
I quit smoking 10 years ago and my Mother a non-smoker always told everyone, if she can quit smoking anyone can....it truly suprised her. I would have to say for alcohol it is the same. I was up to 10 to 14 bottles of wine a week and that had tapered down from coolers, hard liquor and wine before for many years. This really is a minute by minute challenge though to stay AF.
My life was an embarrassment to say the least and at 46 that is not very attractive.
I am so grateful for all the support and kind and honest words I've received on MWO from everyone. :thanks:
I read this, this morning....and wanted to share.
Let your life be the epic poem it is. Embrace each moment on its own merit, one at a time, in the sequence in which it happens.
Yet, sitting here quietly on a beautiful, bright sunny day I realize today how loved I am. My teenage daughter texts and phones me constantly to hang out now and to just say I love you Mom. My family, my friends have always been there for me, I was just in too much of a haze to realize it. Not knowing if I'd be too hungover I would avoid ever making plans into the future.....wow, what a loss for so many years.
Now, I live for plans, how exciting, how adventurous, how fun. Greatest of all though is I am learning to be alone and enjoy my own company and appreciate the quiet times.
I quit smoking 10 years ago and my Mother a non-smoker always told everyone, if she can quit smoking anyone can....it truly suprised her. I would have to say for alcohol it is the same. I was up to 10 to 14 bottles of wine a week and that had tapered down from coolers, hard liquor and wine before for many years. This really is a minute by minute challenge though to stay AF.
My life was an embarrassment to say the least and at 46 that is not very attractive.
I am so grateful for all the support and kind and honest words I've received on MWO from everyone. :thanks:
I read this, this morning....and wanted to share.
Let your life be the epic poem it is. Embrace each moment on its own merit, one at a time, in the sequence in which it happens.
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