some of you know me...i dont seem to know what is going on in my life, prob cause i cant see the forest cause of the trees...so here is the un biased truth best i can see it.
i am a single mom of a 23 year old graduating college student boy and an 11 year old daugther. different dads, both worthless to me as a parent...
my son has a gf whom he drives back and forth about 3o minutes min a day and he then goes on go school. end story: cost me about 40 per day. i am drowning in the debt. he rackecd up ab out 400 being generous over the last 10 days. i repeat, i am single and i have my own home, etc to support. i just cannot do it. i have talked to him repeatedly about the speinding but his habits are 4 here, 5 there and it adds up. i just cannot keep up with it. to add to this or perhaps the real problem is his father, my ex of over 12 years, lives in my basement and does not work at all. i am so frustrated and besides myself i just want to say f it. i really feel that way right now. i spoke to his dad, whom there is and never will be again any type of relationship with EVER again that he has to pick it up, i work my ass off and i come home to a trashed yard and house daily. i am so tired of it. i come home and go to my room and hide and try not to interact and see my home so i just stayt in my bedroom...i usually drink too. i am just so frustrated and talking to my son, he seems to just want to say well, i am in the last few weeks, when i am at school i need to eat..need gas, you name it. i feel like i am the proverbial rock whom has no blood left. i can make it until graduation, may 22, but what then? i pay for him to run to jobs, run his gf around? WTF or is it me????? then his father, whom seems to think his sole purpose in life is to walk the f ing dog....i guess i got my own answer ranting...this man needs to get a f ing life cause he continues to drag me down....thanks all for listening....btw, there is no relationship (romantic) at all with my sons father and never ever ever could nor would be.
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