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[GaryJ]

Hi all,

I've been lurking around this site since yesterday, it seems to be inhabited by some good people. It's nice to know that I'm not the only person in this world experiencing the horrors of alcohol addiction. It's kinda comforting......

This is my Day One, so i'm expecting a sleepless night, along with the sweats. I've already got the anxiety, self loathing and shakes. It's not a pleasant experience, but I've got to get through it and keep my resolve or my life will continue to fall into the abyss that I've created for myself. I live in a holiday town in Spain, so isolating myself from alcohol won't be easy.

I've been drinking to excess for years and had a few alcohol induced disasters along the way: broken leg, ruptured spleen, relationship breakdowns etc etc etc. I've reached rock bottom now and facing up to the reality of my situation. And it's not a pretty sight. I'm embarking on a new journey to self respect and control of my life. I feel positive at the moment but I suspect there'll be bad days along the way. I'll be looking for inspiration from this board!

Good luck to you all!

[izzy40]

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Good luck Gary, it's a crap place to be I guess I'm what you call a "functioning alcoholic" i.e. I do all the normal day to day things like work and shopping, cooking, cleaning etc. and manage to get through the day by telling myself a nice glass of wine will be there for me later and it ends up as two bottles. I feel crap most of them time but now it;s got to the point where I just don;t want to do this anymore. I am also back on Day 1!

No sleep for me either tonight along with the sweats.

Spain is not an easy place to live without the alcohol, it's all encompassing, I should know my in laws live there and I;ve seen the damage alcohol does to most people who live there.

Good luck to you and keep posting, day 1 AF!

[mario]

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hi & welcome garyj, you certainally have come to the right place,there is a great community here with lots of support & advice,read as many posts/threads as you can and post your own thoughts & feelings as we can all relate to what you are going through,why dont you drop into the newbies thread as they will give you a great welcome and put you on the right track,goodluck & hope you stick around.

[GaryJ]

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Thanks very much both......

[not tonight]

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Welcome GaryJ - much like izzy40, I too cruise through the day like all the other normies until around 5 o'clock when I open what I consider to be a well deserved bottle of wine, which I finish and then open a second. I am coming to the end of my day 6 and feel good in general. Giving up alcohol is a process, not an instant solution and by coming to this site looking for help you are making that all important step. There is loads of information here. Such as https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html. Or the BBC documentary https://www.mywayout.org/community/f9...ary-37717.html. Keep posting and reading. If the demons get too strong jump on the live chat line, some one is always there. and again, welcome

[GaryJ]

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Thanks for the info NT.

Well, it's saturday night just before 10:00. I should be on my way out to one of the many bars here in order to consume large amounts of beer and brandy, until about 04:00.

Not tonight, I'm off to bed.........

Catch you all tomorrow.

[Tabbers (a.k.a. KTAB)]

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Welcome Gary, this is an amazing site full of amazing people who have all been through this personally. No shortage of help, support and advice here, I hope you stick around, it really can change lives.
Keep safe
KTAB

[papmom3]

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Hi Gary,
:welcome: !! It's been said by previous posters but I cannot emphasize enough what a great community this is!! If you are serious about changing your life and discovering an amazing new one, this is the place to be. Please come on over to the Newbies Nest-we have seatbelts and butt velcro in any color you want that will help you stay in the nest. We're all looking for the same thing but we all go through the journey differently. If you haven't done so already, you might want to think about spending the $12 US to download the MWO book (you spent more than that every nite on booze right?). It's awesome with tons of information on how this particular program works. For me, the book and the supplements got me started. I'm already on a lot of meds for HBP and heartburn and I wanted to try to kick this beasty habit without meds so that was my choice. But, a lot of my fellow nestlings are using the meds as one of their tools.

There are so many great threads here.Some will make you laugh your butt off, others will make you cry like a baby. The MY Story thread is amazing and inspiring.

Keep reading, posting, make your daily plan to help deal with the cravings and don't stray too far. We're a very non judgemental group and everyone slips up occassionally-some more than others. But the important thing is to bring yourself back to MWO, analyze what happened and adjust your plan.

Good luck GaryJ!!

[tlrgs]

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welcome gary

[Lavande]

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Hi GaryJ,

Welcome to MWO, this is a good place!
Please feel free to drop in the Newbies Nest thread for support - lots of folks there just getting started as well

Wishing you the best on your journey!

Lav

[Rusty]

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Welcome Gary!

MWO has saved my life and we have all the resources here to help you! Check out all the Forums: Meds, Holistic Healing, etc. My only regret is not finding MWO sooner!

Rusty

[jessie]

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:welcome:Hi Gary, I' so glad that you made the decicion to stop. Most of us can relate to what you've been through. Like you I'm surrrounded by AL 24 hours a day on every street corner. But actually it's not an excuse, although it makes it more difficult. In my home country bottlestores are closed on Sunday's and after 5pm weekdays, and people go to extraordinary lenghts to get hold of it. I'm still struggling - but in my case I gradually see the AF days increasing. Many are able to stop, full stop, which is the ideal.
I see the damage that alcohol does all over the world - it's a powerful drug and poison.
Good luck on your journey.

[hillsidetime]

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Hi GaryJ, and welcome. I am here for the exact same reason as you - I was at rock bottom and had to make a change before my life was lost to me. Read and write lots in here, there is a wealth of people who can give great thoughts and ideas. Like you say, it will be tough - especially the first couple of weeks. But to get back all of those things you want back in your life, is very much worth it. All the best, and day at a time sober.
Hill

[GaryJ]

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Thankyou everybody, you're all giving me great inspiration to succeed.

It's a beautiful sunny sunday here, and rather than default to a bar, I'm off for a walk along the beach.

Got a few habits I need to break!

Have an excellent day.....

[OverIt2007]

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Hi Gary, Nice to meet you. Yep, the journey can start here, if you want it and are ready. Your right, there are some amazing people on this site, I have been on and off for over 3 years! You will build real relationships, just be a click away from support, and be with others who can offer support and encouragement.

Many of us fail, but get right back up. Some people stop failing and get it right, and help the other ones along. Where ever you are in your journey, you will find support here.
Enjoy your walk, you will have so much more self respect and dignity to enjoy Gods beauty today than parked on a bar stool drowning your soul.

Hugs!

Overit