Falling Apart

[OverIt2007]

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Hey Sk8, Rebirth, R.C.!

Wow, Rebirth, we pretty much had the exact same internet dating experiences! Yep, once the guy gets you in bed, might as well write that relationship off. He is on to the next profile! So true.

Ironically, Im dating somebody off the internet who shares in my hatred for it! Currently both of our profiles are pulled down, and just concentrating on each other, and Im positive he is not a player. I've spent enough time with him now to know the difference.

Hope everyone has a great Tuesday!!!

[rebirth]

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Avoided you cause of your tats?! Are they the stepford wives??? Everyone has tattoos here in the UK.
You remember the story I posted about the eagle!

[sk8punk]

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Well the tats or the fact I have a son. Who knows their loss.LOL. They do seems to be programed. Almost all of em say almost the same thing. I love it when they say "looking for a man who is his own person". Umm what am I? I certainly don't think or look like everyone else. Maybe they all think I'm looking for a good time.
I love the story about the eagle. You really just have to be what you are or your going to go through life miserable.

[rebirth]

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Ha ha. "looking for a man who is his own person.." I had the same. I think some of the men who wanted to date me were just curious cause I didnt fit in their realm of things. Like they were expecting my ears to turn bright green when I spoke. I dunno. Then they got bored and went back to their conventional women.

Tell you what. take a picture of you wearing a suit ,standing in front of a BMW. Perhaps you should stuff some notes in your suit pocket.Or make a daisy chain with dollar notes... I am sure you will get some attention. ha ha . joke.

Forgive me. Just met some real idiots on some of the sites. Just my experience

I still believe in love though despite everything.

[sk8punk]

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I could see meeting jerks. Personally I think a lot of guys are jerks in general. LOL. I don't know why I even tried it. Really all it has done is make me feel like shit about myself. I really don't fit the mold of what any of those girls were looking for. Plus like you said I'm really not ready to date anyone. I know that just kinda sick of being alone. Although there are people in relationships that feel the same way. Guess I'm just at a confusing place in my life where even I don't know what I want.

[one2many]

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Awwhh SK8,leave well enough alone I reckon....and yes you are right, you can be terribly lonely in a relationship if it is a shite one..

[sk8punk]

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Yeah that's what I'm doing. Sometimes I think I'm just to sensetive. I mean none of those girls even said anything. I think it was just the reality of realizing wow I really don't fit into mainstream society. I always kinda knew that but it really felt like I was dropped on mars and told good luck find someone LOL. Kinda feels like a online version of my high school experience. So no more of that.

[rebirth]

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well I can tell you are sensitive. Guess why I am chatting to you cause I like sensitive people. I find them to be more considerate than most.
And you dont want to go mainstream because there are women out there who are also like you...and want a relationship with you. They are a minority in comparison but who wants boring???

Like Oney says life is crap if your relationship sucks. We have all been there.

Not meaning to act holier than thou but maybe it's best to focus on yourself for a bit. The loneliness is difficult but you will get use to your own company after a while. I was once married for 9 years and when that ended I felt rediculously lost! I lost my identity, I lost my independance. It was scary. I felt like a toddler being left in the middle of a shopping mall trying to find my home...I grabbed the first man who wanted a relationship and I should not have done that. I should have worked on myself first cause I was not ready for a commitment. I was still hurt, angry, bitter, disappointed etc

[rebirth]

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But I dont know anything. I am just rambling. ha ha

[sk8punk]

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No Rebirth you hit it right on the head. That's exactly how I feel. Sorta like a man with no country. I defenitly relate to feeling lost ond no identity. Funny thing is it seems to come and go. Like I'll go for periods of time feeling great about who I am then one morning I wake up and bam its like who the hell am I. See you weren't rambling at all.

[sk8punk]

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Got some blue black hair dye to color my hair tonite. Also got a new skate deck I'm gonna set up at some point this week. Figured out what I'm gonna do while my son is gone... the 3 weekends he's gone I'm gonna have FTW Bummer Summer blow outs. Gonna hit every local skate park I can then figure things out from there. All of this alcohol free and wired on caffine. Just like I did when I was a teenage skatepunk. In fact I may even set my iPod up to play only music from my teenage years. The new board is even a updated 80s reissue. Ah yes it was meant to be.

[rebirth]

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That's a refreshing plan. Sounds really good. was just thinking about getting back to nature. When my son comes back I want to go camping with him. I have this urge to make fire from sticks. Just been watching a program on it. I feel so "processed". I wouldnt have a clue how to survive in nature.
Thats shocking.
Anway, its nearly 1am so I am off to noddy land. Night sk8

[sk8punk]

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Night Rebirth. I haven't camped since I was in the navy. Guess I could survive in the wild for a little bit. But I don't go into the woods to often. Saw way to many slasher films to do that!

[rebirth]

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Morning sk8. I use to love horror but cant watch them anymore..and nothing to do with cruelty to children either.
You will probably feel lost for a while cause your change is fairly new. I think it's great that you are doing this sober. Hats off to you. I have seen others fall totally apart. i sure did when I went through my divorce. I use to wake up crying and wishing I wasnt alive.I drank myself stupid. It took me a year to accept and move on. But that was 7 years ago.
Thank god it's over!

4 more days and I am on holiday!!

[sk8punk]

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Morning Rebirth. I still watch horror movies but I do react diffrently to violence against kids since Aaron was born. I can't help it I love zombie movies. Yeah doing this sober...actually its not as bad as you would think. I do love the person I am now and I kinda look at it as any transformation is gonna be a little painful. The hard part for me is the rollercoaster of ups and downs. Yesterday I wasa little bummed out and today I wake up feeling great. That's why I take it one day at a time.