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[OverIt2007]

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Hey Sk8,

I was reading the text you sent to your Ex, I think it sounded Good and Fair! Wow, my phone does not let me send that long of texts, LOL. And your positive she got it???

I may not be the best at giving relationship advice (or maybe so!) but I think her behavior is becoming very childish. She cannot hide from you forever.

See, I am a very different type of person, in this same situation I can pretty much guarantee that I would be confrontational with you. I would want to work it out for good or bad. Then again, I do not know all the details, and I do not know her, but even not knowing her, it seems avoidance to her is the answer. Its not the answer at all!

Glad to see you feeling much stronger! I can tell! Good for you!

[sk8punk]

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Hey Over! It wasn't bad. Its nothing I'm ashamed about. Those were my feelings at that moment. Probably shouldn't have sent it but oh well. I highly doubt it did any damage. You are right she can't hide from me forever. Don't know what she's going through but it must be rough if even the sight of me is bad. Avoidance isn't going to get anyone anywhere. Seems strange she seemed to avoid confronting me about my drinking and now she's avoiding the results. Maybe thats just how she handles me?
Usually she is very confrontational with everything else in life. But not this situation. don't know.

How was your day?

[Justforme]

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I'm with Overit on this one. I thought that txt, as I was reading it, was very articulate and reasonable. It sounded like you were very together. I suppose all you can do though is just carry on being the huge success story that you are proving to be with each new day. 60 days huh? Fab-U-Lous!!!

[OverIt2007]

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I had a really good day, thanks for asking. Nothing special happened just same old shit job, same old life. I guess difference today is I have some sober time behind me, and that is usually all it takes for me to be a happy person! That fucking alcohol really fucks me up, LOL. I go from a pretty happy person to depressed cant function person. Yet, I still go back! Thats the craziness..

I have also found that getting some exercise REALLY helps alot. I have a dog that I go running with in the mornings. Its fun and I get a great workout! I try to do this 3, 4 or even 5 times a week. Natural antidepressant!

So, things are fine at the moment. I hope it stays good with you too!!!

And you will get some answers soon, I just know it.

Hey maybe She IS freaked out! Shes thinking, Holy Shit.. Maybe he IS getting it together!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks Just. I didn't really think it was that bad either. All any of us can do is the best we can each day. All that matters at the end of the day is if we can be happy with ourselves. Like I said that text is nothing I'm ashamed of. It needed to be said at that moment.

[sk8punk]

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Yeah exercise does really help. Even a little a day. I started exercising alot in the begining. Talking like 7 days a week. Dropped it to 4 or 5 days now. Still do yoga before bed everyday though.
I'm not really into exercise so I usually have to force myself to do it. Plus I went from 198 pounds to 170 since I stopped drinking. Now my clothes fit all weird. LOL. I'm not complaining about that at all.

I do think she is freaked out a little. I'm not doing what she expects me to do. Sometimes it feels like she is testing me to see if I will fly off the handle again. But honestly I'm so laid back when sober that its just not natural for me to get angry. Now when I was drinking....

[OverIt2007]

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Well, I will tell you about a woman from a woman! We dont always make sense or think that we HAVE to make sense, LOL!

The friend that I told you about yesterday, my friend of 24 years? You would not believe the crazy shit we did to each other, it was the true definition of INSANITY!

We were both under alot of stress at the time and both drinking ALOT! Sweet old innocent me became a very resentful VIOLENT alcoholic. We would literally beat the crap out of each other, and I mean cops coming to the house, BLOOD, trips to hospitals.. It was crazy!

The point is we also played some serious MIND GAMES with each other too. We were in love but it had became a ruined and violent love, and in the end, we both knew we had to walk away from it.

She is playing some mind games now I believe. The crazy things we do because of love, huh.


Talk to you later Sk8!!

[sk8punk]

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One thing I do know for certain in these uncertain times. My son is going to have one hell of a dad. Never really understood or knew what unconditional love meant until him. It's like Over mentioned yesterday, after this hell I'm going through I do view life way diffrently then I did before. Got my demons in a row as they say.

Later Over

[OverIt2007]

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Over and Out!!!

And I have NO DOUBT, you ARE already.... and will an even BETTER of a Dad to that sweet little boy. And he is a forever thing. Perhaps everything you have gone through has been really for that purpose. To make you a great Dad.

And I am FAR from thinking that your relationship with his Mom is over.

Remember what I told you above about the violence? Now, you also know that I was glowing yesterday from a wonderful conversation with the same person.

NOW, If us two psychos can still be friends after that shit??? Im pretty serious you two can patch things up! LOL! Dont EVER say Never!

Goodnight my friend..

[sk8punk]

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I do think this all happened for a reason. Me getting sober, becoming a better dad, and the rest remains to be seen.

As frustrated as I get I feel in my gut this isn't over. Just being tested. And I do never say never. I've seen some pretty crazy things happen in my time here on earth.

Have a good night Over

[sk8punk]

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Good morning everyone. Went to bed earlier than usual and woke up tired. Don't get that. Maybe its cause its raining again.
Anyway going to remain positive and in the now today. Going to refrain from sending my ex any messages today. Hope you all have a great day. Stay sober.

[OverIt2007]

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Thanks Sk8,

Hope you have a great day too, my friend! Ill catch you later today, as I will be at work all day.. BOO HISSSS!!!

[techie]

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You have a great day too sk8. I'm not texting anymore either more. Waiting for one to come from her. I have to wait it out. I've sent her enough text to fill the library of congress!

[sk8punk]

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LOL Techie. I probably have too. I'm not texting begging for forgiveness or anything like that. They're either about our son or if I have a breakthrough. I'm with you I may end communication and see if I get one from her.

[wannachange]

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Am with you guys, waiting here too.