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[sk8punk]

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Good morning eveyone. That wasn't cryptic at all RC. We are free to do what we want but these days we're making better decsions. Feel good today. Fridays have been down days for me lately. Going try to change that today. Hope everyone has a good day. Talk to you all later.

[OverIt2007]

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Hey Sk8!

Just wanted to say "Hi" and wish you a good Friday. If I ever seem to be AWOL its only because of my job. Im just like you, I have a job that I hate and have to work long hours. Ick. Well, at least we have a job huh?

Hope to catch up with everyone soon, and try not to let your Friday get you down ok?

[sk8punk]

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Hi Over. Yeah work suck but ya gotta do it. I was wondering where you were. Figured it was work. Catch up with you later. So far so good today.

[stillbreathin]

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sk8punk
Seriously dude....give yourself a break. You are a hot guy, with a cute little boy. OK , Let's just work with that for a moment....You are now a different person. Let her see that over time (It took time for her to think you weren't a nice guy - eh? Or did she say to "hey, let's make a kid 'cause you're a scumbag -No, didn't think so!) People who are wounded take a little time to recover....some do, some don't. That's life. In the meantime - you have an awesome son who needs (sorry, did I not stress that enough) NEEDS a daddy, to be the sun, moon, and orbiting planets for him.
Yes, it is hard.....that's why we're talkin' honey! You are doing a better job than most so called sober dad's I know.... cheers x

[sk8punk]

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Hey Breathin you're right I am a new person. Its going to take time for her to see that. I'm over beating myself up and feeling sorry for myself. I'm going forward.
I'm trying to be the best dad I can. Always feel there's more I can do though. But that's me not really a bad thing. Always looking for a way to improve things.
And thanks for the complements. Not really good at taking those yet. My self esteem is getting better but sometimes its still in the shitter.

[stillbreathin]

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Ahh, grasshopper.
Accept you are a turd - from the turd's goodness grows many things - it fertilizes many beautiful blooms - I think that I am a turd, with hidden good stuff - then it doesn't matter what people think or say, hey - they're right - I am a piece of shit! (But I'm not worried about it eh?) Keep marching on mate - and your boy will look to you one day and say "Hey Dad, I really liked the way you did ______. That's the day you know you've made it as a sober parent! Good luck!! Hey, keep me posted with what's happening ok?

[sk8punk]

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Will defenitly keep you posted.

[K9Lover]

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Happy Friday Sk8!
You sound good today, I know Fridays are/were hard for you, but seems like you've got it all under control today. Stillbreathin made a great point about the day your son comes to you and says something to let you know what a great parent you are. A couple of weeks ago my daughter stood her ground against some peer pressure at school (Junior High, you know what that's like), and I was telling her what a great job she did and how strong she was, and she looked at me and said "I learned it from you, Mom".....wow, talk about your heart swelling I can tell that you will have many of those moments too. Just keep up the good work. Hang in there this weekend and stay positive. You're doing great.
K9

[sk8punk]

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Happy Friday to you to K9! Your story was great. I'm looking forward to those days. So far this Friday has been the best one so far. I think its going to stay that way.

[Ringing Cedars]

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sk8punk;889599 wrote: We are free to do what we want but these days we're making better decsions.

Well said and thank you for the reminder. Beating myself up today, but good to remember that I am making much better choices these days. Thank you Sk8!!! Hope you're day is going well. )

[sk8punk]

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RC, we all have days like your having. I know nothing I'm going to say can stop those feelings. Its something we all have to work through on our own. But remember don't be to hard on yourself. We are only human and have made mistakes. We can't change those but we can change today.

[wannachange]

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Hello SK8, couldn't wait to tell ya! I can see my son on Sunday... meeting went well even though I didn't speak much as I was the guy with the "mental" issues which will be addressed and once addressed then all aspects including reconciliation addressed - a long way away but at least I get to see him Sunday and during the week and a communication window opened to my wife for "access", something to work on at least.
I am a happy bunny. And yes, we have today!

Have a wonderful day!

[sk8punk]

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That's great Wanna! Great news! Enjoy the time with your son. Seems like your pieces are finally falling into place. Keep up the good work.

[Rusty]

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Hi Sk8 and Wanna,

I hope you don't mind me jumping in and just saying CONGRATULATIONS!!!!! Happy Father's Day to both of you...you certainly deserve it!!!!

[wannachange]

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Thanks Rusty and SK8, 6 months of pain and anguish, I still feel the need to pinch myself, maybe it still hasn't sunk in. Lesson learned... wow what a life lesson learned!