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[sk8punk]

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Never mind you stopping by Rusty. You're always welcome. Hope you're having a good day.

[Rusty]

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Hi Sk8 and Wanna,

I just know now that you will end up having the relationship that you want to have with your children. You have both earned it.

I'm having a FABULOUS day because I am free!!!! AF...for several days now. Long overdue!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks Rusty. I think we'll both get the relationships we want because we are working on. Them and most importantly we want them.
Feels good to be free huh. Keep it up.

[sk8punk]

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Well today was the first Friday I didn't feel down or lonely. Looks like my head is finally in a good place. Funny cause I didn't do anything diffrently maybe I just think diffrently now. Which is a good thing. I've been training myself to do that since I started counsuling weeks ago.

Had fun today bouncing around the board on diffrent topics, trying to offer help where ever I can.

I've also been listening to music alot more. I always loved music (obviously) but now it seems I have that original excitement about it again now that I'm sober. Strange.

[wannachange]

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Well you take care SK8, have fun tomorrow and Sunday with your son, we both had good fridays, thankfully we have ex's who care, I just heard another friend had his access taken away this weekend just cause she wanted to be a pain... that's not right, we should count ourselves lucky.

Well done on 70 days too!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks Wanna and you have a good Sunday with your son. We are lucky. Happy Fathers Day to you.

[KateH1]

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Wanna and Sk8, I am so happy for both of you! You are both working so very hard to turn your lives and the lives of your children around! Enjoy Father's Day, I am sure that with the hard work you are both doing, there will be many, many more days to be with your children in your future!

xo Kate

[sk8punk]

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Well tomorrow is the day my girlfriend gets her bday gifts from me nad my son. Wonder what the reaction is going to be? It could go either way. Funny I was with her for 5 years and yet I'm nervous as hell about this. I've never done anything like this. Usually if I get someone a gift as a surprise I can't wait and give it to them early. Told you patients wasn't my strong point.
I guess I want her to really like the stuff.

[OverIt2007]

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Wow, is it tommorrow already? Time is sure flying fast.

Well, I have my fingers crossed for you. Like you said, it should be interesting, LOL.

You have done everything to the best of your ability that you can do. Seriously, I have never seen anyone try harder to work on themselves. So many people on here think you have just done amazing. I have to agree with that!

So be at peace knowing that, whatever her reaction is.. Your going to be OK with it because you have done your very best. I hope her reaction is what you hope too!

She is definately going to feel something thats for sure. Lets just see what it is!

[sk8punk]

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Well her bday is Thursday. But tomorrow is when we pick my son up so that's when she'll get them. Yeah I'm just trying my best. Funny you mentioned people think I'm doing a amazing job at changing. My counsler said the same exact thing yesterday. She said usually she has to do all the work but with me I'm doing it on my own. She went on to say that I'm at a point that usually takes people a long time to get to.
Don't know why I don't see it like that. I always feel there's more I could be doing. Guess I m just still hard on myself.
So how was your day Over?

[OverIt2007]

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Curious, will you get to give her the presents face to face or through someone else?

Im doing ok Sk8. If I started going into all my issues there would not be enough room on this forum to discuss them. LOL. Lets just say Ill get there too.. hopefully! Im looking forward to tommorrow, and a new day. I have many life decisions I have been blowing off for years, and now feel like I need to make some major decisions. Ever feel like you have been coasting all your life like a kid and them wham your a grownup with grown up responsibities, but you still act like your 18? Thats kinda me in a way. It will be ok, dont worry about me

[sk8punk]

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No my parents will give them to her. Still not to that point yet for face to face meetings.

Do I know what you mean! Look at me I'm a 37 year old skateboarder, arms covered in tattoos, that still listens to punk rock. And yes I still act like I'm 18 too. I was just thinking about if I have to start dating again, where the hell am I going to meet a girl? Around here I'm not exactly considered a catch. LOL.

Hang in there Over. And yes I do worry about you friend.

[OverIt2007]

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LOL, you gave me a good laugh.. Not laughing at you, but laughing WITH you..

I guess it depends on the day if I think I am a responsible adult or not. Um No, not really. I get by, but there is so much more I could be doing to be an adult in the adult world. I became a waitress at 18 and guess what? I am still a waitress at 42. That was never really the plan. I have managed to buy a home, but now am in debt up to my eyeballs, I almost wish I had not! Sigh.. Dont think that you have to own a home to be successful now these days. Trust me, I wish I could go back to my apartment with loads of money in the bank to have the mortgage I do now. Owning a home anymore is not definition of success.

I think that in a way the world is kinda crazy and its almost a good thing to just live day by day. Stay close to the ones that mean something, like your family, and just be grateful for the things you have. Money comes and goes and is not the definition of happiness or success.

Oh... P.S. There is always a market for nice guys with Tats who like punk music.

[sk8punk]

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I agree with you. Money is nice to have, its a pain when you dont . But its not the end all be all of life. Id rather be just getting by (which I am) and happy. Then be rich and miserable.
I don't have a great job either. I have days like you describe. I'll look around and wonder where do I fit in this world. Why didn't I grow up and be like everyone else. Would sure make things easier. But I know in my heart that's not me. I am who I am. And deep down at the end of the day I can look in the mirror and be happy with myself.
If I was like everyone else it would it be easier for me to meet girls? I doubt it. I'm shy. I fear rejection. So I can't justt approach someone. Sure the way I look doesn't exactly draw girls to me but I'm not going to change now for a girl.
You just got to be happy with where your at Over. That's what it all comes down to. Sure things could always be better. But remember they could also be worse.

[Johnny]

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Hi Guys, hope you don't mind me crashing the conversation but as a 35 year old Tattoo sporting Juvenile that went to Uni and got a degree only to end up working on a building site- who has only just found out that his calling is performing arts specifically trying to be funny I call top trumps on the longest road ahead too adulthood

Hope you guys are well and thanks for your recent support sk8, I think i'll listen to some loud music in your honour today... hmmmm let me see ACDC me thinks!