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[papmom3]

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Sounds like reading that book is a great tool to help you get past the feelings of low self esteem. Good for your counselor and good for you!!

Glad to hear you're feeling better day by day SK8. I think you've touched a chord in a lot of us. Keep up the good work and try to believe you are as special and good as all of us know you to be.

:l Papmom3

[Doggygirl]

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The book sounds interesting. I hope you will share a bit about what's in it. I find it so helpful to mentally try to stay in today. To make the best choices I can make right now - trying to do the next right thing right now. That seems to work for me helping me be someone I can like. I try not to get to overwhelmed with worries about the past or the future - can't do anything about either one of those.

You are doing great - keep on keepin' on.

DG

[sk8punk]

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Hey Papmom! Yeah I'm getting better very slowly but getting better. It's funny I've always been told I'm funny, smart, good looking, talented but I never believe it. I just don't see it. I think I'm weird, odd or different. I know thats the thinking I have to change. My counsler also thinks I equate happiness with being with someone. That way I veiw myself as they view me. So when they feel good about me I feel good about myself or when they're unhappy with me I'm unhappy with myself. I do feel that is kinda true. I think understanding my low self esteem is going to open a whole new world for me.

[sk8punk]

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Doggygirl, I sure will share anything I get out of the book. As alcoholics I think we all have self esteem issues to some extent.

[Chickey Babe]

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Hey there that book sounds awesome, will be keen to hear some of you're new found wisdom, I'm sure we will all soak it up;-) I'm climbing the walls tnight lol my little fella is 9 and he's having a rock climbing party should be fun, and no grog alowd so even better;-)
keep up the hard work babe and tell youreself how cool you are every day and one day you will begin to believe it, in the meantime I'll let you know I think you are strong and kind and an amazing dad take it all the way into you're heart and trust;-)
warm hugs chickey xo

[sk8punk]

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Hey Chickey! Hope you and your son had a blast at the party. Belated happy birthday to your son.
Well today is 50 days AF for me. But it is also Friday. The hardest day of the week. Not because of the alcohol cravings but the lonliness is usually hard to deal with. Got to try to fight it off and move on with my life. I need to just ignore any negative thoughts that come up. Talk to everyone later.

[Chickey Babe]

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hey there Thanks for youre kind bday wishes, I ended up taking my little fella home b4 the cake, due to being ill, i think it was a migraine poor lovey????,sending you laughter and happiness and joy this friday night, you are not alone we are here with you in spirit and courage xoxo

[Shikakai]

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What book?

[sk8punk]

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Its called There's Nothing Wrong With You. Its about how we are taught to self hate. Didn't get to far into yet but I like what I've read so far.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Hey Sk8! Sounds like a really good read and tool most of us could probably use. Al probs or otherwise. Just quickly checking in here. Must get busy as I've wasted a couple of days this week. I wanted to post to you last night but too tired. Feeling much, much better today. Always good to read your honest reflections. Oh....and see you in the pool!! Good stuff. )

[sk8punk]

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Was feeling good today. Now I feel the lonliness creeping up. Maybe its more of me missing my girlfriend. What ever it is its coming on. Wish I knew how to stop this.

[K9Lover]

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Hi Sk8,
Sorry to hear you have bad thoughts creeping in. I too deal with lonliness sometimes, it's not easy. Can you plan on any activities tonight to keep you busy, and maybe keep your mind off things?

[sk8punk]

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Even if I do I'll still have to do it alone. Everyone already got plans for the long weekend. And those all involve alcohol. I'll get through it somehow.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Hi again Sk8 you already know that I and a lot of us have this feeling of lonliness. So you are not alone in that respect. I think sometimes just hearing that helps to take the edge off. And you can always be present with people here. Right?

[sk8punk]

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Hey RC. I do know I'm not alone in feeling alone. I think this is my low self esteem and negative self bringing me down. Its always got to remind me that I'm hurting and I caused this hurt. Sometimes it feels I'm trapped in hell and this is my punishment. This are the things I'm working on in counsling. I just need to get out of work so I can clear my head.