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[Ringing Cedars]

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I'm going to see the Eagles next Tuesday with the Dixie Chicks. Haven't been to a concert in years. Really looking forward to it.

[papmom3]

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Congrats SK8!! :goodjob: I'm very proud of you for taking the risk and putting yourself out there. Isn't it great to realize that being AF doesn't mean you can't have a life? I'm discovering that every day and it's amazing!! Have a great weekend!

[sk8punk]

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Alright RC! Eagles sounds like a good time. I'm sure you'll have a blast. Thanks Papmom. Thats what I wanted to see. If I could have a life AF. I'm glad I can. It could have gone bad.

[OverIt2007]

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Thanks for asking Sk8. Right in this moment, I feel pretty good. I am still drinking although I hate to admit it. I suppose Im making some progress but it seems like slow progress sometimes.

I bought a bottle last night, and was seriously thinking "why did I do this?" I really did not even feel like drinking it. Im really analzing things more. Ill get there!!

[sk8punk]

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Glad you're feeling good. You'll get there. I remember many times I would be drinking and saying to myself "I don't even want this. Why am I doing this?". I think its part of the process.
Remember slow progress is still progress. As I've said before my situation is completly different than yours. I lost everything and hit rock bottom. I certainly don't want that to happen to you. And i don't suggest that to anyone. But by that happening I "shocked" myself out of my addiction. When you're that low the only way to go is up or six feet under. In that sense I'm lucky.
I tried to stop many times. The most I ever made it was 2 weeks. Early in my recovery I beat myself up about how weak I was for not stopping when it was worth it. I've come to accept that this was meant to happen. For me to become a better person and father. I may not get everything back but I know I am better for it happening.

[OverIt2007]

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That was deeply insightful Sk8. Your a pretty amazing person, that is easy to see. Thank you for bearing your soul on here. I know it helps you, but it also helps many others on here too! (like me)

I think when you win your girlfriends heart back, shes going to be one really really lucky girl.


I posted this song somewhere else... But this song is dedicated to you too!!!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MX5OqyBYKh4&feature=fvw[/video]]YouTube - Toby Mac - Get Back Up (Lyrics)

[sk8punk]

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We're all amazing people in our own ways Over. You too. Even in the midst of your own struggles you offered a helping hand to me. I'm just returning the favor. Addiction is probably the hardest thing any way ever has to battle. Because its a battle against oneself.
Since you like Rollins I guess I'll explain why I chose my signature. Its from Social Distortion's White Light White Heat White Trash album. I identify with a lot of songs on this going through recovery. Its from the song Through These Eyes.

Through these eyes, I've looked the devil in the face-This is me facing myself and what I had done

And I've seen God's holy grace-This is what I feel when I look into my son's eyes

Through these eyes
I've tried to walk the straighter line
I found myself again
But nearly lost my mind-Well this is pretty self explainitory. Through my recovery I've tried to become better but at the same time while I found me again there were times I thought I was going to lose it.

[sk8punk]

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I think when you win your girlfriends heart back, shes going to be one really really lucky girl

Maybe but I don't think she sees it like that right now. Which is understandable. In the end I'll be the lucky one if I can win her heart back.

[OverIt2007]

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All you can do it try and do your best. That is exactly what you are doing, so what more can you do?

Its too early to know which way it will go... But like you said, your road was meant to happen, so the outcome must be meant to happen as well! Right????

BTW, I am also a HUGE Social Distortion fan too! I think I am going to YouTube your song, if you dont mind that is. Been a while since I have heard them, reminds me of my Detroit days.

[sk8punk]

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Thats all any of us can do. I feel the same way. This path was meant to happen so the outcome is meant to be.
I was guessing you liked Social Distortion. Don't mind if you YouTube the song at all. Another one that fits me to a t is I Was Wrong. Check that one out too.
Listened to the song you posted. I could relate to that.

[OverIt2007]

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Wow, those two songs really ARE your songs. Listening to "I was wrong" right now. Awesome song! Thanks! One of the greatest voices in rock n roll ever!!! Thanks for bringing back my S.D. love.

[sk8punk]

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I Was Wrong sounds like me from high school to now. Mike Ness (singer) has had his battles with drugs and alcohol. I think that album is where he faced those demons in song. I believe he was sober for awhile before the record. Funny I really didn't listen to them that often until I started going through this. Its almost like something told me these songs will help.

[sk8punk]

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Good morning everyone. Off to get my son. I really look forward to seeing him every week. But this week I'm especially looking forward to it today.
I started this post 3 weeks ago. Funny to see as much as somethings have changed other things have stayed the same. I feel I've grown a lot in the past week. But my relationship situation has remained the same. What I thought could've been a breakthrough last week hasn't amounted to anything. I know I can't expect everything to change as I do. But I does lead to frustration for me.

[OverIt2007]

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Enjoy your time with the little guy

My son is 6 years old. We just got home from an early morning run, (Well Mom runs, son rides) then stopped at this brand new playground in our neighborhood. What a perfect way to start the day, and its not even 10 am yet.

You know, Sk8... We dont know what the future holds for you and your sons mother, but you know you will ALWAYS have your boy. That is a forever and ever thing

Catch ya later!

[Ringing Cedars]

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May you have the best day yet with your son Sk8! Look forward to hear more positive news from you. And yeah, my friend and I are staying in a hotel overnight too. We always have fun together just hanging out. We're stoked!!