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[sk8punk]

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Hey Patrice, good job on one day. That is the hardest day. My drinking caused the realtionship problems. Just chose the one that was more important to me. Now I'm fighting to regain that relationship. I wouldn't feel stupid about realizing that. If the relationship is important to you and worth it giving up alcohol will help that all fall in place.

[OverIt2007]

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Psssstt!!! Hey Sk8!!!

Did you happen to go into the "General Discussion" Forum.. Um, there is a whole thread there dedicated to our 60 day guy!!! You might want to go check out all your well wishes there!"

Job well done my friend. I know its just a beginning, but DAMN 60 Days is awesome!!

[sk8punk]

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Haha you know if you wouldn't have said something I probably would have missed it. Does put things in perspective today.

[OverIt2007]

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Alot of people on here are pulling for you and just want to see you happy, myself included. You will get there.

[sk8punk]

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That does feel good. I'm so used to being alone in this struggle that I do forget about all my cyber friends. So I guess I'm really not alone! As you can tell still trying to break some of my old ways of thinking.

I wish happiness and success for everyone here. It really does hurt to watch someone like Katie fall like she did yesterday.

And Over we'll both get there. If I can do this you can too!

[OverIt2007]

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Thanks for the encouragement Friend, and yes, I consider you my FRIEND! Since I dont have many friends in the real world, I probably "talk" to my cyber friends MORE than anybody else!

And I am also curious to see how the relationship issue works out for you. Either way, you know I will do my best to support you!

[sk8punk]

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Another thing I just realized I do. More old thinking as well. I tend to focus on what I don't have and not what I have accomplished. I need to stop doing that.
I know I'm a good person who has made a lot of change and progress in those 60 days. That is important no matter what may happen. I did this for me and my son.

[OverIt2007]

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And another thing I just thought of too. We tend to think that everybody else is doing so much better than we are.

Today when I talked to my former friend, I was surprised to hear him SO depressed (Oil in Gulf ect and politics gets him worked up) This was the guy who I thought was SO happy in Love! Well he is in Love but still depressed! Im just saying, we think others are so happy, when in reality, lots of people are having struggles, drinking problems or other problems. We are not alone.

And YES, you are doing amazing! One day these hard times will be more of a distant memory than the big reality it is right now. You will be a much stronger person from all of this.

[sk8punk]

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OverIt2007;880589 wrote: Thanks for the encouragement Friend, and yes, I consider you my FRIEND! Since I dont have many friends in the real world, I probably "talk" to my cyber friends MORE than anybody else!

And I am also curious to see how the relationship issue works out for you. Either way, you know I will do my best to support you!

I consider you a friend too. Other than the people I work with I don't have anyone I hang out with. I know I talk to my cyber friends more.

I'm curious to see how it turns out myself. I have to accept that I can't control this aspect of my life. Other than continuing on the path I'm on. That might be what frustrates me the most. I do share all my progress with her but its like sharing info with a wall. I'm sure she reads it just doesn't comment on it.

[sk8punk]

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I know I do that. More so in the first week or so of sobrity. I swear I had all my problems written on my face the way I thought people were looking at me.

I know everyone has problems. I think its because we a facing ours head on that everyone else seems better off than us. The struggle is so hard that we tend to not look at the happiness in our lives yet notice it everywhere else.

[OverIt2007]

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Wow, that is so true! I agree I get so wrapped up in things that I fail to see the GOOD things. Its the glass half empty or half full thing. Somedays if half full and somedays its half empty.

But I do know, that when I am drinking or hungover, that damn glass is way more than half empty, its bone DRY! Drinking can make you see NO goodness in your life, thats for sure. Thats why I hate it so much, but then the madness continues and I go back.

Speaking of good things, I have a very dirty kid to throw in the bathtub. Now thats a GOOD thing!

[sk8punk]

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That is a good thing indeed!

I know drinking and depression distorted my reality to such a awful extent. I thought everyone hated me. Still amazes me how alcohol can do that. Thats something those that can drink will never understand.

[OverIt2007]

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Ok, got a clean kid now..


We hate ourselves when we are drinking to therefore we assume everyone else hates us too! I can tell you when I am drinking my confidence goes right down the tubes! I cannot even make eye contact with others. Probably with the way I act, its possible others really do start to hate us, or just not care.

Gosh, so many negatives to drinking. You are blessed that you are getting this under control, it really IS as evil as we talk about, and worse!

Have a good night, and hope you have a bright tomorrow!!!

[sk8punk]

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You're getting there. Now that you see how evil alcohol is and the damage it does just remember that when you get the urge to drink next time. As you know it doesn't solve any problem just makes it worse.
I wouldn't say I'm blessed. Determined is more like it. Alcohol no longer has any control over me. I just won't let it.

You have a good night too. Tomorrow is a new day with new chances.

[sk8punk]

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Good morning everyone. Feel good this morning. I'd like to thank you all for lifting my spirts yesterday with the 60 day thread. I am proud of that accomplishment. I'm going to stay on this path. And live in today. ODAT again. Hope you all have a great day. Remember if I can do this you can too.