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[papmom3]

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hey Sk8ter!! Overit started a birthday thread for you. Check it out!!

[sk8punk]

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Well I did hear from my girlfriend. But it wasn't to wish me a happy birthday. Not sure why she picked my birthday to start shit. Not going to go into it right now. Maybe later.

[K9Lover]

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sk8punk;888419 wrote: Well I did hear from my girlfriend. But it wasn't to wish me a happy birthday. Not sure why she picked my birthday to start shit. Not going to go into it right now. Maybe later.

Sk8,
That seems downright mean that she'd pick today to start messing with you. I hope that you can still have a great day!!! Give that cutie boy of yours lots of hugs
K9

[sk8punk]

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That's what I thought too. I'm sure she had to know it was my birthday. Maybe she forgot. My inital reaction was anger. I sent a text saying thanks for doing this on my birthday. Then when I called a few minutes later she was crying. Don't know been getting these mixed signals since this happened

[Ringing Cedars]

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AW Sk8...so sorry that happened today of all days. I bet she did forget it was your birthday or was so wrapped up in whatever the issue was she didn't think how you may be feeling kinda lonely on this day when she dumped on you.

Please be patient with her as you are being with yourself. Hoping your afternoon is better.

I really have to knuckle down here to keep my head above water....so must be disciplined and not be on here so much. Going to wish you a Happy Birthday in that thread now though!

[maslow23]

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SK8--DOn't sweat it man. I didn't get a call from my wife or kids (I'm sure because of her) on my birthday and survived. Keep the focus on yourself for the time being and enjoy the day.

[sk8punk]

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I'm not worried about it. Today was just another step. I now know more about how she is feeling. She seemed very stressed out. I was upset she chose my birthday to do this. I honestly think she completly forgot. On the positive side of things she also said in the email I could have my son Sunday too for fathers day.
I'm going to focus more on myself and my son. Put the romantic relationship on the back burner for now. Its going to take time. The only way she is going to see I've changed is through that part of our relatioship.
I still consider all of them my family and will treat them as such. I'm glad I got her things for her birthday. That is the real me. I'm giving to those I care about. Although the reaction to the gifts may be interesting now.

[wannachange]

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OOh you lucky sod SK8, 2 days this weekend with your Son! I am still hoping she gives me an hour on Sunday, hope hope hope hope! Fingers crossed.
Have a wonderful day.

[sk8punk]

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I got my fingers crossed for you too Wanna!

[Ringing Cedars]

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Excellent news for Father's Day Sk8. I'm stoked for you!

Mas and Wanna I hope it turns in your favour too!

[sk8punk]

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Thanks RC! I'm stoked too!
Well today was a little rougher than I would have liked. But this is a new year for me. A year I can control. I'm taking it one day at a time. Living each day as it could be my last. I'm going to be a even better dad because he and I deserve it. I'm not giving up on my relationship, its not my top priority right now. The only way her and the kids are going to see I changed is through my actions. We need to become freinds again and maybe then romance will bloom from that. I've come a long way in a short time. I've still got a lot to learn but for once in my life I'm willing. I'm no longer looking at the world through bloodshot and angry eyes with blurred vision. I see it through clear and compassionate eyes. I'm not alone in this world I've got all of you, and a little boy that depends on me. Although my heart belongs to another at least I know I can love and love through thick and thin. Someday that love will be returned and this time I'm ready to embrace it as the truly precious gift it is.

Basically I'm not giving up or giving in, I'm sober, know who I am, and determined to make my life and the lives of those around me better.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Bravo Sk8!!!!
I think you just gave yourself an awesome birthday gift with that last post! I could not have said it better!
Remember your own words. You are totally inspiring me and many others. But most of all you are continuing to inspire yourself!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! XOX

[OverIt2007]

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Im just getting in from work and reading..

Awesome last post of yours Sk8, you definately have your head and your heart in the right place. You are focusing where the focus needs to be. I think you are doing amazing and in such a very short time really.

You were put through all this it seems almost as a test to see the person you "could" become. Well, you are becoming that person and even more. Your growing and learning. All good things.

I think... its just called... Life!

One of my favorite quotes..

"Its never too late to become the person that you could have been"

Your living proof of that!

[sk8punk]

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Aww thanks Over and thanks for the bday post. Really meant a lot to me. Hope you had a good day. That last post sort of just hit me like a bolt of lightning. Almost like a plan for the next year.
I never went into the email my girlfriend sent. Not really important. I did call her after I got it. I could tell by her voice she is very stressed out. Very confused. I feel bad for her because I've been there. She needs time and I'm going to give it to her. I feel as though a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I've said this all along I feel in my gut that this isn't over. It just needs time. By the way she didn't realize it was my bday.

[Ringing Cedars]

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Morning Sk8! Brand new year....go get it! Have a good one.