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[Ringing Cedars]

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OMG Sk8!! Wait til she actually see's the love you put into it not necessarily an expensive gift! I bet she will be so touched, but those feelings may scare her just yet. I'm a grinning ear to ear for you! )

[OverIt2007]

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Ok translation here... Hmmmmm

I wish you wouldnt do things like that ( WOW you really SURPRISED me)

You know I dont have the money to do things like that ( If I had money I might have done that for you too)

Thanks ( THANK YOU )

[Ringing Cedars]

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OverIt2007;890693 wrote: Ok translation here... Hmmmmm

I wish you wouldnt do things like that ( WOW you really SURPRISED me)

You know I dont have the money to do things like that ( If I had money I might have done that for you too)

Thanks ( THANK YOU )

Can I postulate too???

I wish you wouldn't do things like that = I feel bad that I didn't do something for your birthday and I am afraid to have these intimate feelings right now

You know I don't have the money to do things like that=now I feel guilty

I'm with you completely on the last one OverIt.

Hope you don't mind Sk8. These are her feelings to deal with right now. Don't own it. What you did was lovely and non manipulative.

[techie]

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enjoy your day boyz. i am so happy that the two of you have your sons with you...john

[OverIt2007]

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Ok, I also agree with R.C.'s translation too.

Either one of these translations is a good step in the right direction I think.

[sk8punk]

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Thanks Over and RC. It helps to know the womans point of view. I agree with both translations. Neither are bad and are a step in the right direction. She knows how I feel about her. I believe she still feels the same aabout me. I think she's starting to see I'm becoming the guy she fell in love with again. I was always a very giving person when I was sober. Alcoholism is a very selfish problem. I'll let you all know if anything else happens.
Oh RC, don't worry I'm sure those are her feelings. I don't feel bad about what I did at all. It was done with love and good intentions. I don't expect her to come running to me because of them. I do hope that through them she can see I'm changing.
Almost at the lake to see the ducks.

[Rusty]

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Hi Sk8,

Do you all mind if I get on this thread? Forgive me, I suck at internet forum etiquette because I know Jack Sh*t about it. Happy Father's Day to you guys. Sk8, please don't give up. My dad's brother was an active alcoholic until he was 62 and before he was sober, he was a mean, selfish bastard when he was drinking. He got sober, apologized to me and my family and all was forgiven. I got to re-know him and ultimately love him the last 5 years of his life. He was his real self, sober, not drunk. Here's the point....your boy's mom knows you're a giving person. She's just being cautious...and because she's a woman, like me, she doesn't want to appear being so forgiving because then she'll think you're getting the "I'm sober and self-righteous" big head. Give her time. Enjoy the little guy and I hope he feels better!

With friendship,

Rusty

[missie]

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hi i missie. a new member. you doing great, keep up the good work. i get depression too, its hard to beat, hopefully you get the help you need. your litle is beautiful, you must be so proud of him. tak soon.

[sk8punk]

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Sheri, thsnk you. The response was from the heart. Actually the majority of the things I say now are from the heart. I guess it has been a short amount of time. To me it feels much longer. But I have made a lot of changes. I think others around me are starting to see that.

Welcome Missie. Depression is hard to beat. I'm on Paxil now for it so its under control. I still do get down from time to time but I think that's normal. Everyone has good days and bad days.

Rusty you're always welcome to jump in the conversation. No real forum rule in this thread. I'm not giving up. Don't worry about that. I'm just going about things at a slower pace. Trying to build a friendship first. Then see what happens. Anything is possible.

Wanna like the new avatar. You got a great looking son there. Hope you had a good time with him.

I had a great day with my son. He felt better after a little while. Can't believe I get to do it all over again tomorrow. My girlfriend did text me to say the gifts where very nice. Thank you. Didn't really go into detail. I'm just happy she seemed to like them.

Wow there was a lot of activity here today. I'll catch up on all the reading when I get home (I'm on my phone now). So if I missed anyone don't worry I catch up later!

[sk8punk]

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Wow I did miss alot today! I think we can all agree that we are all a bunch of kids at heart that still don't know what they want to do when we grow up. Nothing wrong with that. Who wants to be a grown up anyway!! Now how do I get to never never land again....

Well as you all know I did get a thank you from my girlfriend. My mom even got a hug!

[patrice]

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Hi Sk8.. as Shakespear said ' time, oh aching time'...I think that means things change! And for you its all for the better. You are on and up. Me too i hope.. had the big slip yesterday but for the first time EVER I didnt use it as an excuse to carry on, so slow learning but not being down on myself... Back on the buffalo today with no thoughts of drinking . yay!

[OverIt2007]

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Just got in from a late night of work..

YaY!!! You got a Thank You and your Mom got a Hug! Yay!!! I sense her heart is melting just a tad bit

Happy Fathers Day Sk8!!! Your a great Dad and a great person too. Things are only going to get better and better for you, I (we) just know it. Some things in life you just Know.

Enjoy your Day!!!


Wanna, that is one cute little boy you got there! Happy Fathers Day to you too!!! You guys are the Best.

[wannachange]

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Morning SK8, Overit and everyone else yet to drop by

Happy Fathers Day, what a glorious day it is too.

I saw my little boy yesterday, I drove in just when my wife was leaving in her car, I pulled up and she drove down the drive but she stopped the car, turned around and waved, might not mean much for many but it meant a lot to me!
Went in the house, saw my boy, he stood for a few seconds and said "Daddy" and then came over to give me a hug, it was a very strange moment.

It took him a half hour to come out, we were both very shy - but after a while we played in the garden like old times, he was picking flowers, only the yellow ones and putting the petals on my palm and blowing them away, he dirtied his hands with the ice-cream and wanted a tissue, but I had none and said he could use my t-shirt - it was so cute because he started using my t-shirt then for his face and arms... ahh it was very nice.

We had fun, it was tough to leave him and tougher when I got home, I got an hour and a half which is great... onwards and upwards, hopefully a few more of these supervised access arrangements I will be able to request more time under different circumstances.

Have a wonderful day.

[sk8punk]

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Good morning everyone!

Patrice, don't worry about the slip. The most important thing is you got right back up. Good job.

Over, yeah her heart may have melted a little. Guess we'll have to wait and see. I think you and RC are right on target with her emotions yesterday.

Wanna, sounds like a great day. May it be the first of many for you. I know what you mean about the wave. Little things that we take for granted suddenly mean a lot more to us now.

Well I'm off the get my son again. Happy Fathers Day! I'll check it later.

[OverIt2007]

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Wanna,

I am so glad you got to see your little boy. I do not know about your circumstances as much as I do Sk8. Your wife giving you a little wave was for sure something positive. If she was really pissed she would have just drove off and not looked back.

One thing that is good is that your boy is still so young. 2 or 3? There is time to get things squared around and chances are he probably will not remember all the drama that went on over him. Have faith that things will work out in time, just like Sk8. Things are going to work out for him too.

I feel for you guys and the separation from your boys. I am in a situation where my sons father has never saw my son or bothered to. For years even he denied he was the father when he knows damn well he is!!

Anyways, its nice to see fathers who care about their children. Your good guys and good things happen for good guys.

Enjoy your Fathers Day Dads!